I wanna have an alice too!!~

Hmm, recently kept meeting people whom i couldnt recall knowing them previously but they remember me exactly. Geezx..sorry folks!

Was at karen's place last night and it was boring. Yea, how exciting can a home dinner be? But being there makes me realised i'm so much different from how they would have wanted to lead their lives.

Her life revolved around religion. Devoting her time and effort towards that aspect, yet i rather devote my life to other things. Standing there listening to Auntie preaching makes me strongly affirm that. It seems too holy a life for me. No drinking yourself silly kinda life. Hmm, i just dont fit in. I even turned around and smiled at karen. Geex, i've been there and felt it's not for me, that's why i moved on. So even fate made me landed there, nothing is going to change. Religion is just isnt part of my life now. Probably someday but not now.

But, if i were to go into one, i doubt it'll be that. Instead, it would probably it would be buddhism. Why that? Cos i seems to find some serenity in it and fate seems to bring me to it somehow. Though it came late. Shrugs. I just felt that e religion i was in previously didnt really appeal to me much. To be worthy enough so that you can be in heaven. Nevermind, let me burn in hell then.

Seriously, its something that no one can be sure. So why are we putting so much effort in it in e first place? Fancy believing that no one has concrete proof how it really is. To do good cos you want to. That to me is most important. Not because your religion tells you to do so. Buddhism is interesting in that aspect cos it goes a little more in that aspect on gaining enlightment. Nothing more than that.

Hmm, managed to finish e entire series of SP today!! Its been great and the opening and ending songs are nice as well. Dont you wish to have another cup too? Sure!!

Ok, i might said some stuffs which i probably was only trying to be funny at that point in time. Then after, forgetting about it totally. But, thanks to those who really appreciate it and remember it till this day.

Hmm, if i were to pass away someday, i reckon during e speech by some, famous phrases as such might probably be shared at e funeral session.

Was thinking that day that besides cutting wrists, popping pills or even leaping off buildings, dying from speeding seems a good one. At least you can get some thrill. But one must make sure that e accident doesnt involve any other innocents.If you wish to die, that's your business. Dont drag others in for heaven's sake.

Another 2 joined e world of braces. Seems like putting on braces is e in-thing. OR do they have nothing better to do? Hmm, i still feel it's not worth e effort nor money.

When asked what do you like about that person, e answer given was damn lame. Ya, some people just goes for looks or body, in short physical appearences initally. That seems fine, but after being together for quite some time, surely you've learned to like and dislike other parts of this person as well? But, sometimes it's just a feeling ba, as plain as that. It's not because that this person can sing or dance or whatever.

Oh whatever...

That's the words i saw today and it refer to a lift that transport stuff between levels.

Was off my own today again up at e north. Went to e place where cq is staying. Geex..freaking boring place on e whole. lol. But, e trip there is splendid. Suddenly i realised how e places are linked. So they were so near each other.

Listened to Liyi's Can story again. Hmm, she did a splendid job. As usual, she acted as those aloof characters. Simply love that song played during e intervals. Closely word as

So we've passed by a bridge, but there're many up ahead..... 高架桥过去了路口还有好多个

Ya...heard this and it sounded sad.

If you dont stretch out your hand
I'll be waiting on the bank in vain.

So are you e one in e river or e one on e bank?

Seems like i was e only one in e dark all along, but it's also good to trash things out. Now as if on a new era, there's more things to talk about. Isnt that great?

It wasnt easy but finally an english song on e blog!!

Skipped dinner yesterday to experience it. Thought of skipping this morning's breakfast as well. But as i was back at e barn, cant really afford to see myself fainting. Yup, one can only fast when doing some low energy activities that require little or no movement.

Overslept on e train by a few stops today and awoke in kinda dazed state. Still was when i got off at e following stop. Hitched a bus and shifted nearer to e door. Sat there for quite some time before realising i shifted myself right behind a lunatic. As usual, these people are very active, swaying their hands here and there and mumbles at times. This fella practically waved at e window as we approached a stop. As i was sitted much higher than him, i didnt really noticed as i was engrossed in something else. Then, i spotted some movement slightly front and below me. I directed my focus to e movement and saw him smiling and waving at e window. Naturally i looked at where he's looking at. Huh? no one in sight. Nah..no chilly wind blew across but i did have some chilling thoughts. He continued and its scary if he'll probably just grab me or something.

As usual, i let my thoughts trailed off much before it even happened.

JJ was so nice that i felt bit 受宠落惊. Hmm, sometimes little acts of kindness can really make a person's day.

The apple wasnt that nice to eat though.

Anyway, it's not milipede but earthworm!!! duh.

Luck at mj was awfully good that its scary. Practically all e tiles wg threw i ate and winning practically all e games. Geex. Can you imagine how lucky i am? So lucky that its scary. It's like 暴风雨之前 's peace. IS SOMETHING TERRIBLE GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME?

mf said e playlist is nice. Yaah, i like it a lot too.

Strange that i actually miss e booboo.

didnt know wg is interested in sammi too. Should have ask him earlier. But doubt going for Liang Jing Ru though.

Probably i should try not eating for a day. Did that at times when i woke up real late and felt real weak, but it sounds interesting. Never estimate e extent one's determination can lead him to.

Sometimes it's strange how things you never believe in before you believe it wholesome-ly now

Listening to Ok-go : Here we go again!!

Hmm, e word lifetime made me reminded this

It takes a second to blahhhh
a minute to fall in love with someone
and a lifetime to forget someone

Hmmm, i reckon it goes something like this.

This week was an awful busy week. Practically led e life of going straight to bed soon after reaching home. Didnt even had time to touch e keyboard.

Almost broke down earlier on when i realised that e hours were extended and that meant yet another late day. Grumbled to Von that we walked so much this week that we could have reached Moo land. Indeed, my legs have grown so much fatter with muscles.

Felt so pissed. Hmm, was really e boiling kind but just like why me again. Hmm, like being thrown in a helpless bo-bian state. Like Da in why why love, i agreed to e Zero or 100% theory. If i cant get 100%, i rather accept zero.

*shrugs* Guess i'm so occupied that i didnt really have much time to get fed up even.lol. But just gets so tired that i find it so amusing. Like i suddenly found my right hand so dirty and i dont even know how that happen. Okay, i was shifting some stuff before i talked. But, huh??

Heard this really nice song.Twice even!!! wonder what song it is. Geeex..

It's lyrics goes like
I'm going home...
to the place where i belong....

ok did a search and its CHRIS DAUGHTRY - HOME . Hmmm, seems like some american idol.

Ohh.h..freaking hungry.

geex...i got ripped!!! I opeened Chips Ahoy!! Started munching. But the taste isnt right. I looked at e packet again. hmmm?? chocolate chip cookies?? That's it? it didnt come with a trademark name like chipsamore. What e freak..and to think i paid e same price for a pack of imitation. duh. Price is small case, but a real unsatisfied snack is Hmph.....*roll eyes*

Anyway i have no one but myself to blame for not looking at it clearly.

方力申. Who is he?how he look like?I have no idea too. But heard this nice canto song from him.

This weekend passed slowly? Not really. Fast? Not really too. But it's definitely tiring.

Tried night blading. Actually its fun. There's sufficient light to speed under e moonlight. I guess my speed improved and so are my turns. Its like going too fast that everything just moved smoothly, your legs just know how to react when e time comes.

Train.Van.Reached.Eat.Pool.Bowl.Chili Fries.Mushrooms.Prawns.Sasage.Watermelon. blade. Grass Jelly. Coconut. Rasberry. Cards. Biong. Lei Hai.Chicken wings. Noodles. Apple crumble. Cards.ZZZ

As for booze, it's a funny thing. It lets you see e truth behind some things, ;P

Probably Cathy and Pip knows too, just that they didnt breathe a word.

It's so late now, ought to listen to some soothing songs like bread.

Had a couple of late nights and spent e rest either reading some serious stuff or dozing off infront of e tv.

Was wondering what earthquake?? when i saw Ju's nick, so it was e Indonesia 8+ quake. Countless injured, yet i'm in a whole piece still.

Was real surprised when met a mere aquaintance and he spoke so truthfully. Even more surprised that he mentioned how he felt, and that's exactly how i felt as well.

Yeah, i'm tired, tired of e barn.

Went Eva's place on tuesday and it's in a total mess! But, e feeling of having a place of your own, a place you call home, that feeling is awesome. I suddenly understood what Eva has been talking about. A place you can do whatever you want and no one will say a thing. A place where you can ran off to.

I asked her what's is it like when e whole world is at work but you've e whole world to yourself. Shiok! Ya, i think so too.

Been taking a couple of weekdays off and it seems so nice. While e whole world hurried their paces, i simply strolled.

WG took a couple days off too i guess and he was busy planning where to go and what to do. Hmm, i didnt even. I'm simply at a loss of where i could go. Sounded a little pathetic ehh?

Eventually ended at e cosy spot. So cosy that i could have doze off. I got a muffin in e end. Geeex, talking about cheap thrillls.

Today. I went somewhere different. I was at where you were this morning. Okay, i was trying to cover e fact that i forgot that you only work in e night. But ermm, who knows you work in e day too. Time passed so blissfully i almost didnt felt like turning up at e barn.

But e barn was fun today. Probably i was busy that's why. Sped on e road to and fro then rushed back to get some paperwork done. Cathy seems so free this week yet still stayed so late everyday. Hmm, who was it that told me that sometimes you just get so used to leaving late that it just seems so strange to leave early? Oh ya.....wy.

But it's insane. If i'm cathy, i'll just leave on e dot. But i didnt like e way Ju mentioned about something though. Somehow, i just didnt like e thought of him wanting to exploiting things to his favor.

Anyway, i halt e fattening program. Why? Cos i spotted a rim around my tummy and was kinda freak out. That must have been from e continuous supply of fries, burgers and cola.

It's seems great to be reduced to mere crumbs
at least it's not noticeable
probably it wouldnt hurt even if it's being stepped on
smashed at most
crumbled into even smaller crumbs at most
at least there's a chance that e wind can take it away
to a better place
but no one really knows
whether it's really a better one
or one we imagine to be that great

Listening to Disagree-Crumbs

When watching e news on e quake, i was wondering what if Tsunami strikes suddenly and one is at probably e 4th storey of a fully air-conditoned office. Fully sealed off to e world except by lift and emergency stairs. Then e water came, on and on. Will one get drowned?? Since e water would probably gushed in and reach a level of 5 storeys for ???mins?

Scary if i were to die in such a manner.

Geexx...much as i didnt want to be like von, i'm acting pretty much e same. It seems like we just sub-consciously become or behave like the people we often mix with. So what am i becoming like? Well, too defensive in when relating what i feel. Insisting my way through to prove that i'm right and getting real worked up when people deemed my point as wrong. Well, there's always points where one is wrong and i agreed to that too. But, somehow, i got too caught up in e situation that i totally immersed in it and gotten real fed up when i cant get my point across to e other party and convince him/her of cos.

Strange isnt it? That's how i analyse von to be.

But then, there are times i couldnt care less. Like when i gave a suggestion once and he immediately challenged e degree of feasibility of it. Well, probably it isnt 100%, but there isnt much to argue about anyway. Cos it's just a suggestion of e placement of items. So if you would have prefer it that way, so be it. I'm just stating a point of how i would have put it as i found that appealed to me more.

As for 1408. I guess stephen king did a splendid job. Not sure if e movie followed e novel exactly, but besides e part that it got a little too far fetch towards e middle. The whole setting is great. Like typical movies, it played a lot with the physological part of us. I really like flicks like that. Playing with our minds rather than using pure booS to scare us. Pure booS as in some monster popping out suddenly.

But as usual, my fear got better of me. It's like before it even happened, i guess it might be this and that and decided to shift my eyes elsewhere. But e part on e lead holding kathy and seeing her suddenly smashing into pieces, into nothing more than a poo of dust is unexpected.

Unexpectedly, despite it being a horror flick, it tried to knock some sense into us. So, i guess that evil thingy aint that sinister after all. Cos at least it made e lead ponder about all that he had done. Blaming his wife when things happened. Acting real bad towards his dad and leaving his wife to e baby while he goes to get a pack of cigerattes.

With so many of these flicks coming up. Sometimes i really think hard into life. What are we striving so hard for in life? Sometimes insisting on things that doesnt really matter also.

Many a time, i see myself and many others talking bad of other people. Similar to bullying, it seems a form of thrill i guess to put one down. Though these ramblings do not affect that person directly as bullying does, but it's still bad in a way.

Frankly, what do we gained from bad-mouthing others? Nothing much besides probably getting a chuckle on how silly that person is.

ok, i've left my noodles unattended for quite some time, time for some munching. .

Saw wg's blog recently. Happened to think of it and went in. Hmm, a new entry after so long. He even requested people to actually sms him so that he knows there's still viewers around. Yea, i'm one of them at least.

This week passed excitingly. Lotsa up and downs. Lotsa smiles,steam and tensions. But i cant really remember clearly. Why? Did i chose to forget them?

Anyway, its goes roughly like some late nights coupled with leaving on e dot for movies. No reservations. Hmm, didnt thought of wasting money on that, but it turned out to be a really nice show. Cos unlike typical romantic flicks which generally involve e couple somehow bumped into each other at some point in life and love rolls, this is something more, i guess. It's suprisingly one of e nicer romance flicks i've caught this season.

Cleared up a couple of things and its time to retrace my steps.

I guess sometimes in life, everyone assumed too much. I assumed its okay, but you assumed why i'm like that. The world would be a better place if we assumed lesser and communicate more. Ermmm, that's if time permits. Probably that's where all e mis-communications sparked off from.

Come to think of it, it's been probably since i last seen Wy. Like a changed man somehow. It's good to see someone so devoted in realising his dream. I wonder when was e last time i was so enthustic in carrying out my dream? Where did all e passion went to?

Went for e house warming and found e house so nicely touched up. Seeing all those familiar faces but didnt really know where to start. It's strange, isnt it? Here we are trying to strike a topic, but it just seems so hard. Everyone looked pretty much e same except ay. She definitely looked very different now. Time just changes people i guess.

Wy asked wouldnt it be tough to leave everything behind to start a new life in another place? Now i think of it, it doesnt seems so hard. Earlier i mentioned that if that's really e case, i'll probably come back once a couple of years to meet up. Well, isnt this what i am and everyone is doing now? But wy mentioned that he wouldnt want such a big house if he's alone. Neither would i. But sometimes we just have discard our shells and march forward.

I realise that Choya is quite nice actually.

Akazukin is hilarious. Reminds me of Gakuen alice.

Ever since i embarked on e fattening program, it appears my loose pants are less loose. Hmm, am i out of square 1? Probably.

Wg's artpieces seems to be getting nicer and nicer. Sigh, i should really be getting out of this hot seat and devoting my time to more things besides just seated here.

WAs it really so strange to just have 3 of us? I seriously wonder. 2 people also strange, 3 people also strange. Then what isnt strange? I wonder why are we even waiting for people who isnt really keen in e first place?

So rain's going europe. Wow. Someday i want to step foot in it too!

Pip went for another round of adenture today. Geexx... cranky but never fails to bring a smile to one's face.

Listening to The Frey- How to save a life. Wonder when did this became such a nice song?

蔷蔷 . Heard this song by Ella while on e bus last night.

Everyone brawled on how touching it is. But i dont find it so.

I listened to e lyrics. Its not really on how much Ella missed e dog. The chorus is about Ella telling 蔷蔷 to remember her and bless her in heaven.

If I were to miss something terribly, i wouldnt care whether it/he/she would remember me or not. But, probably if it/he/she did, it would have made me feel better?

But e story that relates on how the song came about seems touching though. About how Ella pen e song while sobbing away on e plane.

Bourne Ultimatum is kick ass lor, but probably a little too long or i'm too tired etc that i doze off twice!!! Its interesting to see but the wow part is more or less e same, thus too much of it turns out to be kinda boring soon after.

JJ's new album is nice . It's barely released for long and that's already 2 i find nice. Good joB!!!

Twirl. Everytime's a good time. Ermmm...only if it's not so chocolatety in every bite.

Ok...I'm pissed. But not as much as just now. I'm more hungry than pissed now.

Anyway, to put it simply. I dont understand why that many a time, i set aside time for people but they just take it so lightly. Am I or these group of people you're meeting so insignificant to you?

Is it that hard to just even remember e appointments you've agreed to? Or even answer a simple sms when you received one? These days, it seems like everyone, almost everyone that they're so busy that they dont even have time to reply a simple sms. Or was it that their reflex are so slow that they take 2 days to reply?

Its ironic, but i'm beginning to agree with JJ on e part to giving less priority to these people from now on. Wow...looks like that means excluding 90% of them!! I dont understand why i've to keep giving in to these nonsenses. Like receiving a slap in e face and going "Shrugs, what can i do.?" Nono, this just isnt e way things going to be.

So e food wasnt over-estimated at e barbaque but due to lamers who didnt show up. Either excuses like "oh i forgot and cant come" or "Arm pain" etc. Why did you even bother to agree if you've no intentions of showing up eventually?

It seems like people nowadays are getting e habit of agreeing too readily but brain memory is so cluttered that data are lost so frequently. Otherwise, it would be they're brain memory is so full that it's taking damn long to even response to something. Time to upgrade that ram!!

So hungry, what to eat??!!

Oh ya, probably i should be like jiadi in 换换爱..learning to believe in nothing, cos i dont wish to be disappointed by anything.

It's tiring to keep stretching that hand in e sky hoping to grasp something but nothing shows up.

换换爱 is kick ass!!