Thursday, December 27, 2007
Life is so fragile..
Life is just damn fragile.
Dozed off on e couch only to be FULLY awaken by e alarming news.
RAWALPINDI, Pakistan -- Pakistan opposition leader Benazir Bhutto was assassinated Thursday in a suicide attack that also killed at least 20 others at the end of a campaign rally, aides said.
A party security adviser said Bhutto was shot in neck and chest as she got into her vehicle to leave the rally in Rawalpindi near the capital Islamabad. A gunman then blew himself up.
"At 6:16 p.m. she expired," said Wasif Ali Khan, a member of Bhutto's party who was at Rawalpindi General Hospital where she was taken after the attack.
Dozed off on e couch only to be FULLY awaken by e alarming news.
RAWALPINDI, Pakistan -- Pakistan opposition leader Benazir Bhutto was assassinated Thursday in a suicide attack that also killed at least 20 others at the end of a campaign rally, aides said.
A party security adviser said Bhutto was shot in neck and chest as she got into her vehicle to leave the rally in Rawalpindi near the capital Islamabad. A gunman then blew himself up.
"At 6:16 p.m. she expired," said Wasif Ali Khan, a member of Bhutto's party who was at Rawalpindi General Hospital where she was taken after the attack.
I recalled a slice of life when i was young, in a particular poem that was tasked to us. In it, i phrased e poem in this manner,
All I cared was if i had psp, while they cared their brother was still alive and playing in e field
All I wanted was that yummy ice blended, yet all they wanted was to have a decent meal to fill their stomach.
Recalling what happened earlier on today, with regards to e black riding hood and embarking on e road of orbit-ness, i cant helped feeling a sense of foolishness as i concerned myself with e little things in life. Not that it matters all that much actually.
And things, they just like to all come together. Like corn said, today is a day where i'll start afresh. So would it be for her. If there's heaven, that's where she's heading. I would prefer e thought of that. At least she's heading somewhere nice where she can start on e next segment of life, where she probably deserves something better.
Whatever feuds there are, i always felt that violence is wrong. Oh well.. that's because life is just too precious to be fooled around with just like that.
Geezz..i need a break, getting too emo.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Just woke up and spotted brother's computer left on while he apparently spoofed into e thin air.
Randomly surfed some of my bookmarked blogs and this was a video i saw. Hmm, apparently one of e blogger's favorite but i've never heard of it. The more famous one would be the I BELIEVE. Though Sassy girl was such a hit then, strangely, i didnt catch it at all. Its strange. Some of e biggest hits and i missed it. Another would probably be 50 first dates.
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Seems like i wasted e whole morning and its almost time to eat and head for e barn. Cluttered with lotsa weird dreams that i didnt slept well at all. I recalled this scene in Witch Yoo hee where yoo hee's assistant shouted to her" You're a witch!!!" and the music just went to a still at that point in time. So funny!Oh, for me, it appears i was at some dinner at my junior school's hall!! and i was rattling away on something, something bad about my barn master. Then, sl's evil twin came over and said i shouldnt have said it. Opppss...seems like i was too loud when i was rattling away. Then a whole chain of misc scenes came after. Like me trying to squeeze through e strangely narrow stairway to e upper levels of hv shopping centre. It wasnt a bit like it, but somehow, an information came in telling me it is. Karen and pl was in that one with me. Then, we walked around a bit, and i recalled me telling myself, "wow, what a place, can come by next time. " duhhh
Another was a stretch of stairs to a small pool where we're supposed to perform a series of actions. Strange was that a big board with your name on it would be thrown into e water next to you, should you be e one in it. 2 persons in e rectangular pool at once. In it, i sorta didnt participate but to prove i could do it too, i rushed half a flight of stairs down, removed my contact lens, grabbed my glasses and came right up. Its funny how i can be so specific even in dreams. Cos my goggles came in certain degrees, as if another pair of glasses and it wouldnt make sense to wear it with my contact lens.
To me, its weird, firstly cos why dreamt of it all of a sudden. It seems to me, i'm very stressed at work to be dreaming of that.<--first dream.
Actually it all started with TIP. confused over what to do intially and then realising we might not have e time if we had to do all e points.
The weekend passed in a whixx and so was christmas! Went shopping for food and last minute presents on sunday. Its funny cos neither of us know how to choose e meat. Hmm, i didnt really know how to choose the vegetables either. How pathetic.
The eve was a pleasant one. Seems like my first time spending at someone's house. My impresssion was further deepened and changed. I guess one really cant be judged by appearence. Little actions like offering a seat to e elders are so heart-warming.
The teppanyaki is much nicer i guess, as compared to e steamboat. Citidels so so nice too!
Hmm, though e house was located near e industrial area, i find it so nice. So quiet and pleasant. There's a really nice spot to place a cosy chair, probe the legs up, grab a bottle and lazied e night away with e company of another .
Yesterday, i revived an old game, Ghengis Khan. haha. So long since i last played it. Hmm, but there's always e resistance to start something new. Yeas...i'm getting old.
Cant wait for herzog too.!!
Was suprised that both of us aint interested in sat's party. Hmmm.
Oh ya, spotted his new show on KBS world. Read from papers that it's called cruel love. Hmm...2 years, sure is long since he parted e tv scene.
Went kara that day and Zhang hui mei's songs are nice!
Randomly surfed some of my bookmarked blogs and this was a video i saw. Hmm, apparently one of e blogger's favorite but i've never heard of it. The more famous one would be the I BELIEVE. Though Sassy girl was such a hit then, strangely, i didnt catch it at all. Its strange. Some of e biggest hits and i missed it. Another would probably be 50 first dates.
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Seems like i wasted e whole morning and its almost time to eat and head for e barn. Cluttered with lotsa weird dreams that i didnt slept well at all. I recalled this scene in Witch Yoo hee where yoo hee's assistant shouted to her" You're a witch!!!" and the music just went to a still at that point in time. So funny!Oh, for me, it appears i was at some dinner at my junior school's hall!! and i was rattling away on something, something bad about my barn master. Then, sl's evil twin came over and said i shouldnt have said it. Opppss...seems like i was too loud when i was rattling away. Then a whole chain of misc scenes came after. Like me trying to squeeze through e strangely narrow stairway to e upper levels of hv shopping centre. It wasnt a bit like it, but somehow, an information came in telling me it is. Karen and pl was in that one with me. Then, we walked around a bit, and i recalled me telling myself, "wow, what a place, can come by next time. " duhhh
Another was a stretch of stairs to a small pool where we're supposed to perform a series of actions. Strange was that a big board with your name on it would be thrown into e water next to you, should you be e one in it. 2 persons in e rectangular pool at once. In it, i sorta didnt participate but to prove i could do it too, i rushed half a flight of stairs down, removed my contact lens, grabbed my glasses and came right up. Its funny how i can be so specific even in dreams. Cos my goggles came in certain degrees, as if another pair of glasses and it wouldnt make sense to wear it with my contact lens.
To me, its weird, firstly cos why dreamt of it all of a sudden. It seems to me, i'm very stressed at work to be dreaming of that.<--first dream.
Actually it all started with TIP. confused over what to do intially and then realising we might not have e time if we had to do all e points.
The weekend passed in a whixx and so was christmas! Went shopping for food and last minute presents on sunday. Its funny cos neither of us know how to choose e meat. Hmm, i didnt really know how to choose the vegetables either. How pathetic.
The eve was a pleasant one. Seems like my first time spending at someone's house. My impresssion was further deepened and changed. I guess one really cant be judged by appearence. Little actions like offering a seat to e elders are so heart-warming.
The teppanyaki is much nicer i guess, as compared to e steamboat. Citidels so so nice too!
Hmm, though e house was located near e industrial area, i find it so nice. So quiet and pleasant. There's a really nice spot to place a cosy chair, probe the legs up, grab a bottle and lazied e night away with e company of another .
Yesterday, i revived an old game, Ghengis Khan. haha. So long since i last played it. Hmm, but there's always e resistance to start something new. Yeas...i'm getting old.
Cant wait for herzog too.!!
Was suprised that both of us aint interested in sat's party. Hmmm.
Oh ya, spotted his new show on KBS world. Read from papers that it's called cruel love. Hmm...2 years, sure is long since he parted e tv scene.
Went kara that day and Zhang hui mei's songs are nice!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Dolce Vita (French) --> Sweet Things
This story. WAs e one i was talking about. I presume i read it from e emails, since emailing seems e craze during e days i was in high school. Well, not that many go bonkers over it, but it was e days where internet sprung up and there is no such thing as blogging. ...
Given e fact that it appeared during e days where internet just sprouted, i'm amazed to see this story much alive on many sites today. A little tap on e search engine generate a couple of returns.
I met her on the net, how? ... I can’t remember but it seems to me that it is this ‘little theory? which I declared in the cyberspace that caught her attention.
"If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house.
Do I have a million?
No, that’s why I don’t have a house.
If I have wings, I can fly. Do I have wings?
No. So I can never fly.
If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can’t put off the flame of love between us.
Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off? No. That’s why I don’t love you."
That’s me, a typical science student. First you come up with an assumption, and then you fit a suitable conclusion. If the proposed assumption doesn't stand at all, then everything is just bullshit. I guess this is what they call ‘unromantic?
But she is an exception. She actually mailed me and said that I’m an ‘interesting?person. ‘Interesting? ... What a word to use on me, its like using ‘faithful?on Mr Clinton. I thought this gal must be a low-IQ organism, or suffering from serious brain damage. Anyway, her nick doesn’t seem so bad ?FLYNDANCE?that’s quite a unique one. But I was warning myself:
Hello, this is the virtual world of Internet. Who knows what might be lurking behind a beautiful nick. Talking from experience, most of the time it will be a ‘dinosaur?in disguise, the only differences will be whether it is a carnivore or a herbivore. But, I know she is way different from a ‘dinosaur? she is special.
So I guess its time for the appearance of FlyNDance ever since she mailed to tell me that I am ‘interesting? I was always wishing to meet her in #Ajcrr. Too bad, lady luck was just not on my side. So I can only reply her letter to tell her that I will start to train myself to become an ‘interesting?person, just to show that she is far-sighted. She replied my reply, I replied her reply to my reply, and she again replied my reply to her reply blah blah blah... Oh no, I just started a chain-reaction. Actually what interested me the most is this ‘paragraph?she wrote in one of the mails....
I dance swiftly, amidst the crowd.
Your glance on me
be it surprise, be it admiration,
it isn’t gonna stop my rhythm
'cos it’s not your glance that made me dance;
it’s my heart of youth.
I simply cannot relate this gal to any of the ‘dinosaurs? But if she really is a dinosaur, I'm willing to let her have her fill. Tye, my best pal unfortunately, noticed my little affair with FlyNDance, and has been perpetually warning me about this.... “HELLO!!!... You don't even know what she looks like, why take the risk?? ... Maybe ‘she?is a guy!!... haha!!..?I can't blame Tye for his ignorance.
Ever since Sally in Sec 4 dumped him, he has become a renowned ‘playboy? As the saying goes: "Once bitten, Twice shy? in this case, after Tye was bitten, he has mastered the art of skinning snakes alive, and make into soup. But he got all the factors to be a playboy; I always think he is the 19 year-old version of Brad Pitt. Tall, handsome and got this tongue that causes diabetes in every women he targets. I don’t think he can even remember how many girlfriends he had had. I went online that night, log onto channel and yes!!... She is there. Before I can get over the surprise and the daze, she sent me a message...
“Hey slorr.. So late liao haven't slept ahh???
Now what? Now what??!!.. Okok, I had to calm down first. I swallowed hard on my saliva, took a few deep breath. Now where is that Tye when I needed him most at such crucial moment, somebody to tell me what to say to her. How am I going to attract her with my pathetic humour, which has gone stale.
“slorr... me in a foul mood today.. Can’t sleep.. You leh???
MOTHER’S (direct translation to Chinese), what slorr slorr... now when I read it twice in a row, I’m beginning to feel disgusted in that nick Tye gave me.
Tye said that: "who knows.. It might attract some innocent gals in talking to you... haha..?
“I’m not feeling very good too.... so lets sad together.? Finally squeezed a sentence out, but I can already feel droplets of sweat forming on my forehead. Actually I'm not in a bad mood, I just want to follow up her topic that’s all. And if she asks for the reason for my feeling down, I can say:
?Since you are feeling down, how can I ever be happy?...?
I know it sounds mushy, but Tye said:
”MUSHYNESS IS THE FUNDAMENTAL TO ALL COURTSHIP?
And gals are a very weird species; they trust their ears far more than their eyes. So instead of doing 10 things to impress her, why not just say a sentence to move her.
“Ok... but you haven’t greet me leh...?
DAMNIT!.. How can I forget simple manners to gals? To think they call me ‘MR COURTEOUS?in school. If this thing ever leaks out in school, I would lose all my female friends.
“Nice to meet you... miss long-hair..?
I’ve been wishing that she’s keeping long hair. Tye said that: ”FlyNDance... hmm.. She would either be longhaired or a desperado, 'coz when gals dance, only 2 parts of them may fly: hair and skirt. So if she doesn't has long hair, that means her skirt Flys when she dances, AH-HA!!.. This has a certain sexual hint in it...haha..?
“Eh?... how you know I got long hair?..?
BINGO!!.. Heaven is on my side this time. It goes to prove that she is not a DESPERADO. yesh!!.. “Not only that.. I also know you seldom wear skirt..?I increased the stake, if I’m correct this time, peace on earth forever.
“Err... I guess you are rite lor.. But how you know one?..?
HAHAHAHAHA.... I'm good ahh...
“Just guess...?
“Ok lor... hey slorr... tell you what.. Me tired liaoz... you coming online tomorrow morning??...?
“Ya... why??..?
Please please please say that you coming too, if not I’m going to kill myself for letting you go tonight.
“I’ll see ya tomorrow at 10 am then...good night...?
“Er.. Should be today at 10 am.. Ok.. Good night too?
I just blurted out a last sentence.... Offline. Suddenly I was so impressed by my performance just now. But is the season of spring really arriving for me??... I wish.
“Slorr... what a coincidence ahh...?
“Yeh... I’m not late.?
“Ya lor... so qiao..?
Girls are weird, I thought we already had an arrangement, why do I have to pretend that its not. They must have watched too many movies, and like to think that guys they met due to the thing called ‘fate?is the best thing that can happen to their love life.
“Slorr.... you talking nonsense lah...?
NONSENSE???.. Ok, let me tell you what is nonsense. Summer’s beach, the guy must be good at running, with broad shoulders, dark complexion with a tint of redness, sparkling eyes and loud laughter. Then he will call out loud the name of the gal, running towards her, carry her and spin 3 rounds anticlockwise.
“Slorr.... you siao liaoz ahh???
I siao?.. ok.. Lets change a location then. Deep in the mountains, the guy must have long hair, gotta have the look of an artist, carries a sketching stand, a few pieces of drawings, and you can see birds stop over at his side, admiring his work. And there will be a gal who’s the model.... most probably naked.
“Slorr.. But these all very romantic mah...?
ROMANTIC??.. Hello miss... romance only survive in novels and movies. In real life, the guy on the beach may step onto broken glass or the gal may be too heavy which tore his arm muscles. Birds may just clear their waste on top of the guy in the mountains, or he might get a thrashing from the gal because he comments on the excess fats around the waist and hips.
“slorr... you hate romance??..?
I hate romance?... nope, I m just using my knowledge of statistic to get a deduction, that guys must be TALL to be romantic, not HANDSOME!!!.. Some love novels even portrayed the guy as normal looking, but no-one Dares to challenge the height of him!.. I object.... because I m not tall.
“slorr.... objection overruled...?
I think I m really outstandingly bo liao, talking to her about these until noon.
“slorr... are you hungry?...? “ya... you leh??....? “yesh... guess its time for lunch...slorr..?“then do you think we
should....??? “slorr... I m just asking... I don’t intend to have lunch with you...?
ok, good.. I m not romantic... neither are you.
I had lunch with Tye, we talk about the conversation with FlyNDance this morning.
“YOU moron... told her you are not romantic... you siao ah?..? “you have disgrace me man... how can you make such a big mistake?....I...I...? Tye grabbed a chicken wing with chopstick, and I can see the trembling of the hand and the wing.
“there are three ‘don'ts?in chasing a gal... one...don’t forget to be romantic,.. two ... don’t be too honest... three... don’t be too stingy on the sugar in our speech... noticed number one, you stupid???
>what rubbish is that??....
“In mandarin we say ‘nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai? you should know this...?
This I know, but it has been a controversial topic over centuries.
“Women aren’t really that... cheap.. so why would they only falls for ‘bad guys?like me??... that’s because ‘bad guys?are usually romantic... those ‘nice guys?are usually... dumdums...so she would rather choose a romantic ‘bad guy?rather than any of those dumdums... in maths we call this 2C1...understand?...dumdum..?
Oh, Tye is talking about maths!!.. now I understand. No wonder I have always been left on the shelf.
“In another words... gals wouldn’t mind if you are not tall... if you are not handsome... they can bear with your inconsiderate acts...can forget your stupidity...but they can never forgive if you are not romantic...?
Come on, this is so exaggerating.
“Hey... most women have a ‘knot?for romance.. just like most men have a ‘knot?for virginity... to women they just can’t understand how precious the thin layer of membrane is to men, same thing, men can’t imagine how important women treats romance. this is bullshit! how come I’ve never heard of that. The key word is ‘knot?..if you can untie it... fine.. but how many had actually succeeded in that... practically none...?ok, fine. now I’ve done it... so what should I do to remedy the situation?
“Face it... you are hopeless already... I promise you I’ll have a drink with you when you and her are over...?
YOU SONOFABITCH.
Mid-night. I m trying to concentrate on my physics
notes....F=ma,v=you+at...it’s really a wonder that nature can be explained by just a few formulas and equations, and this we call science. then why is astrology and palmistry being labeled as superstitious? Science should only be one of the ways to explain truth, what can’t be explained by science, it doesn’t necessary mean that’s its unreal.... Close to 1am. since I can’t get anything into my head, I shall try my luck on net then, maybe she is there...
“slorr...you here finally... good night to you... :) ..?
‘FINALLY? Strange word to use it here. What is she doing here at this hour? must be feeling down again.
“yes... it is fate that brought me to you at this moment...? I’m trying very hard to convince her that I m a bit romantic.
“slorr... nothing to do with fate...I waited 4 you for one hour liaoz...?
“sure or not?.. for what?..?
“talk to you mah...or else I can’t sleep...?
“you sick izzit?... go see doctor lah...? ?)....?
“slorr....let’s continue our topic.. what do you think of relationships begin from internet?...?
oh my god... how should I answer her now?
“its.. its very... romantic...? indeed I m not a good liar, even my words are shaking now.
“slorr... you bluffing... you not romantic one mah...?
GAME OVER. I m finished!.. no choice but to drink with Tye.
“slorr.... you lagging?... or just daoing me?...?
“no... I m wondering why is the sky so chio tonight?..?
“nonono... don’t try to shift the topic... slorr...?
sigh... I give up... I asked for it myself. Actually I think relationships started from cyberspace is considered as ROMANTIC, ‘cos romance gives pple an impression of unreal, and cyberspace is virtual. “slorr....that’s interesting..?2 surfers keep a safe distance from each other and usually 3 types of pple are produced in this way.
The 1st type....
The 1st type being those who present themselves on net with their ‘secondary personality? Usually all of us consists of multiple personalities, and in everyday life, what we present to the world is the ‘primary personality? with the secondary one being suppressed, or maybe we don’t even realised this other trait of us deep inside. so internet is the place where this side of us is revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge.
“izzit true?... what about 2nd type?..?
The 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind of man/woman he/she would want to be. theres bound to be 1 or 2 characteristics that you particularly admire, too bad, sometimes these characteristics are just couldnt be found in you. cyberspace is the perfect location for this transformation to occur.
“slorr.... you blowing cow izzit?.. type 3 leh?...?
I'm not blowing cow, I read it from an article of TIMES mag!! type 3 will be those who transform themselves into characters which are impossible for them to become in real life. For example, if you are a gal, you may act as a man on net. you may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if you want. “hm.. thats pretty amazing...?
The 1st type is the ‘faithful?type, ‘cos its his own personality that is being presented on net.
The 2nd type is the ‘foolish?type, ‘cos he knows only how to admire others, always forgets his own strong pts.
The 3rd type is the ‘pathetic?type, ‘cos he is wishing 4 some impossible.
“slorr.... den you belong to what type?... me leh?..?i don’t wish to believe you are type 3, ‘cos i m not. I crossed the possibility of type 1 ‘cos its too common, because i think you are special. being able to attract you, i think i'm at least a bit special. so we belong to type 2. “type2.... den who you wish to become?..slorr..?
I certainly would like to become a person like Tye, humorous, romantic and eloquent, ‘cos these are what i m lacking of.
“slorr.... what about me?..?
YOU?.. i don’t know.
YOU want to FLY and DANCE, probably that means you wish to fully enjoy your youth while you can. but if this is somethng you wish yet you can’t achieve, den there’s 2 possibilities:
1, you are aging,
2, you are leaving the world.
i think i said something wrong, ‘cos she didn’t sent me anymore msg after this. I began to blame myself for being so perverted, why talk about these things?.. I should have discussed with her whether ZOE or FANN, who should be the queen of caldecott hill. damn that TIMES mag, poison my mind. Maybe she’s lagging. so I waited... and waited. although its just a few minutes, but it felt like several hours. I want to apologize, but do not know how to start. until she sent me this msg:
“slorr... lets meet...?
without hesitation, i used the hand that I had used it over 18 years to wipe my ass, typed ‘O-K?
I m supposed to meet FlyNDance tonight , 8pm, at the entrance of Mcdonalds, the one beside YMCA. that’s the best time and place to meet a gal you have never met b4, according to Tye,
‘Cos they would have taken their dinner by that time which means we can simply go inside the Mac and have some fries and coke. she will be wearing a whole set of coffee theme attire and I will be wearing my usual blues, this is our way of identification.she told me she is not those ‘cute gals?I may think she is, I said nevermind, I m not Brad-pitt either then she told me she has long ago given up on this hope already.
“slorr... you are early...?
while I was idling, a gal tapped my shoulders from my back. although I was a ready mentally prepared for anything that’s gonna appear in front of me, I was still astonished by this gal who stood in front of me now. If not for the coffeee theme and that ‘slorr? I would think she is only asking for directions. ‘cos she is one of those chio buz that can only be found on orchard road, usually while I’m crossing the road.
Maybe I suffered from a serious concussion due to the heavy blow, my mind was extraordinarily calm.
“had your dinner rite?.. I think we shall go inside the Mac 1st...?
“you are pretty smart huh?... a good way to save money indeed...?
AIYA!~!... she knows me soooo well, I can only give her an innocent smile back.
since she’s so pretty, I ordered 2 LARGE cokes, and even ordered TWO packets of fries.
“this time i treat, next time i’ll let you treat...?I m not falling for that, miss... but I'm glad she mentioned ‘next time?
“slorr... are you disappointed when you saw me just now?..?
DISSAPPOINTED?... are you drunk?..
“why do you think I will be disappointed then?..?
“cos i told you i m not cute mah, so you must be quite disappointed when you saw me..?she is making 0 sense, but i know she is just trying to hint that she’s actually cute.
“then why did you have to lie that you are not cute??
“slorr... i said i m not cute... i didn’t say i m not pretty..?
#$%$##%^*&%$@!!!
“but you are also quite....decent looking what.. its not like what you described to me too..?
DECENT? a very vague word. to many gals, decent = boring. one good thing is that she didn’t lie to me about the fact that she is keeping long hair. She also has a fair complexion which reminds me of HL milk I take almost everyday. it is now only that i found out she is from ACJC, but had spent her 1st 3 mths in AJ. Sitting in front of each other, we talk about many things. From her obsession with coffee to my hobby of watching movies.
In between, she had completely shoke off my misconception of "if she is pretty, she is brainless". she appears to be an attractive gal, both physically and character wise, talking, smiling to me, occasionally being a little sarcastic and nasty. its like a dream. we left the Mac at around 10 pm. since its still early, i decided to send her home and fortunately, its just Ang Mo Kio, two MRT stops from mine. i would have a second thought if she’s staying at Pasir Ris.
“slorr... congratulations.... you are officially permitted to date me from now on...?she said this b4 the lift door closed. back at home,
I realized that i hadn’t asked for her real name, maybe its the influence of that stupid Tye. Tye told me:
”never ask a pretty gal her name the 1st time you meet her, ‘cos there are already too many wolves out there dying to know, so she will be more interested in you if you act bochap...? Then why didn’t she ask for mine? don’t tell me there’s a female version of Tye telling her not to? it’s again 1am. time to meet her in #ajcrr.
“hi!... slorr.. you tired?...? of ‘cos I’m tired after all the surprises she presented me, i would go straight for my bed if not for her. but why is she here also?... isn’t she tired too?..
“long time no see.. how are you?..?
“slorr you siao ah?... 2 hours only leh.. miss me?...?
“A)yes...B)of’cos... C)abuden... D)dying to see you... E)all of above....
answer is E...? ?)...?
Seems like she is really tired, even the smiling face are yawning to me rite now.
“you wanna go for a movie tomorrow?..? maybe i should ask her now, while she is half asleep, hoping that she will blur-blurly click ‘OK?
“should be no problem... what show?..."
HOOOOORAY!!... i m cheering for her fatique.
“We decide what show tomorrow... anyway what’s important is watch with who... not the show..?
Tye’s fav line, I’m just borrowing it.
?)...? “you should go sleep now lah...?
“wait one little while... you haven’t tell me you tired or not?..? “ok lah... a bit.... you leh?..?
“i m exhausted.... but have to say good night to you 1st... slorr..if not I can’t sleep..
“me too....?
i can’t believe i m doing this SILLY business rite now....
“ok i tell you what.... i count 1,2,3... then we log off together...? “ok.... good night slorr...? “same to you..? ?....? ?...? ?..?
I never talk whenever I’m inside a cinema, and now is the best time for my mouth to rest, so I spent the following 3 hours to admire this much-talked-about movie of the century, Titanic. I’m not a romantic person, so its perfectly understandable if i can’t really appreciate this motion picture fully, except for all those stunning special effects. But something stroke me when Jack said to Rose b4 he sank into the deep sea.....
“Rose, listen to me... listen.... winning that ticket was the best thing that had happened to me... it brought me to you.... and i m thankful, Rose.... I’m thankful....?
Suddenly i felt much fortunate than Jack, ‘cos I don’t have to risk my life to board Titanic, all I have to do is to switch on my PC every night. But he’s one lucky guy too, ‘cos he knows how to draw, and just look at how slowly he was drawing Rose, that made me blame myself for the lack of this talent. But to her, this movie wasn't just about drawings or special effects. i noticed that packet of tissue paper she was holding in her hand. and just when Rose said:?I promise... i will never let go, Jack... i’ll never let go..”she opened up her sling bag and here comes the reserve handkerchief.
Damn that Celine Dion, why on earth did she had to sing that “MY HEART WILL GO ON?at the end of the show, for all the female species inside the theater, its like “MY TEARS WILL ALSO GO ON?
“Ok... movie ended... lets go....?i stood up, speak to her gently, worried that every single word I breath out might just crush onto her, and kill her. she continued to sit on the position, looked at me with her beautiful eyes that just came back from a swim. after a while, she said... “slorr.... movie ended..... but life goes on.. am I rite?...? i nodded my head... but i just wished somebody might give me some clue of what she was saying.
Finally we managed to leave Orchard cineplex, since its still early, we decided to take a walk down the street. along the way, she seems unusually quiet. So I guess Tye was rite about the ‘TITANIC FLU? he said that gals often got so mentally distressed after watching this show, and its the best time to launch an emotional attack on her, thats why Tye had watch Titanic for over 5 times roughly. her eyes were focussed on the path or the crowds but i know her mind was still left on Titanic, sinking with her, waiting for somebody to pull her up. i just kept my mouth shut ‘cos I know i m not a good swimmer. we walked to Plaza Singapura. Suddenly she stopped in front of a Christian Dior counter.
“slorr?have you read a novel called ‘fragrance?...?
“err..nope.... why do you ask?...?
“look at this ‘DOLCE VITA?from Christian Dior... its what the guy bought for her girlfriend in the story on her birthday.... and he told her ‘DOLCE VITA?is french, meaning ‘SWEET TIMES?..?
she pointed to a bottle of perfume at the counter, but i was more interested at the price tag around the neck of the bottle.
“oh... izzit?...? “slorr... then do you consider today as ‘sweet times?..?? “at first i do... but some pts are deducted since you started crying...? “that means it can only be considered a little bit sweet, i’ll buy the small bottle then...?
i insisted to pay for the perfume as her bdae present from me since i know her birthday is coming soon, this kinda saves me a lot of trouble of finding a present for her. luckily its just perfume, I would have to pawn my underwear if that guy in the story gives his girlfriend diamond or gold bar.
“are you hungry?....wanna sit down and have something?...? “i don’t have appetite... what about you?..? “you eat, i eat....?
her eyes are red again...... I’m such a fool.
Finally got away from the noisy crowd at the mrt station, walking on one of the steets of AMK ave6. Contrastingly, its so quiet now that i even can hear the rhythm of her heartbeat.
“slorr... do you know what’s the correct way of applying perfume?....?
I shoke my head. in fact, i had never used a perfume or cologne b4, medicated oil maybe.
?st you apply some behind your ears... then your neck and wrists... after that spray some onto the air, then walk through it...?
“sure or not?... in that case this little bottle wont even be able to last you for 3 days....?
“slorr... shall we try?...?
“’we?... you go ahead... i m a MAN...?
She opened up that DOLCE VITA... behind her ears, neck then the wrist she applied some... and she really did spray some onto he air!!... WABIANGZ!!.. expensive leh!... Finally she stretched out her hands... facing up... like enjoying the raindrops fallling on her face...
“hahaha.... slorr... this is so fun!.... now its your turn....?she went through the same procedures with me and i can feel the coldness of her fingers. maybe its the perfume...............i guess.
“slorr... get ready... i m going to spray!!...?
I imitated her.. face up... and walked through my 1st perfume rain.
“slorr lets have another round!!...?
WHAT!!... serious?.. my money isn’t easy to come by leh!!.... b4 i can collect the broken pieces of my heart, she had walked through her second round. she was even more excited this time, hoping around, like her nick.... a flying and dancing butterfly. Late night of AMK, the streets smells unusually nicer rite now. until we finished the whole of that DOLCE VITA.
“DOLCE VITA is exhausted... i guess this sweet time shall end now too.... slorr.. i’ll go up now.... tonight 1am. i wont be online, and you are not to do so too...?
“huh?....but why?....?
“go online at 12pm tomorrow.. you will know why....remember... only 12pm...?
She turned and walked into the lift... at the same time i saw an obvious pink patch behind her neck which is visible only now because she tied her hair. I looked up towards her window on the 4th floor from below, but it never light up. I switched off the light in my room... engulfed in the absolute darkness... ‘cos i wished to have the same kind of feeling as her right now... i realised in complete darkness... the easiest mood one gets... is loneliness.. she must be lonely rite now... half asleep.. i almost can see a beautiful butterfly.. turning to ashes amidst the sea of flame... and that patch behind her neck.. from pink it became red... then burgundy.. slowly.. it swallowed me.... was it the cause of that can of beer just now?... Suddenly i felt cold... and shaky.. and that coolness seemed to have come straight from my heart... the rate of my heartbeat was an exponential function of time as it got closer to 1am... USE A DIFFERENT NICK!!... checked .. she isn’t there.... my heart was beating fast... but the temp remained below healthy level………………?
finally its 12 pm, excited as i was, logged on the net, yet there was still no sign of FlyNDance. But theres a mail from her...……?
Dear slorr, At first i thought it will be easier for me to settle down in the darkness... recollecting memories we have shared... but all i felt was loneliness...... can you feel it too?... I still can’t change the habit of logging on at 1am... so i used a different nick to sneak into #AJCRR... you don’t blame me right?...:P... you weren’t there... should I feel glad for your obidience?....
YOU said both of us belonged to TYPE 2... the foolish type... maybe you are right!... ‘cos I really do admire those who dares to fight for their desires... I stroke my hair gently when you said that i m leaving the world... and a few strands of hair fell..... No!... doctor told me its not a terminal disease... and doctor aren’t supposed to lie!!?... I still can live like a normal person... BUT CAN I?..
FlyNDance... is it really something i wont be able to do?... After the 1st meeting with you at Mac... I started to realise that you are not only a virtual being living in the cyberspace... in reality you are strong, gentle and sensitive.... i can feel the defense wall of my heart is slowly breaking apart.... I’m defeated... I tied my hair today.. ‘cos my fren told me that i look more attractive this way... I want you to remember my face as it is today... ‘cos after today... everything may change.... But why didn’t you ask for my real name?.. thats why i never asked for urs... i m a gal mah..:P... do you realised how I wish to have something more than a nick to take along with me?...
Slorr... thank you for the DOLCE VITA... finally got a taste of what sweet times are like... but I’m really sorry..... i just couldn’t bear to say goodbye.....since it started from a mail.... it should end with a mail too.... Its been 3 months and 2 days since the very 1st mail... not a very long time but it isn’t short either.... our story began from me... and I will end it.. Maybe its what you said... ‘internet is fast and convenient, but it isn’t perfect?... I can send you my thoughts right away... but not my tears... Its about 5.30am now.... time to go.... by the time you receive this mail...I would be trying to settle down somewhere else.... i don’t know.... Good Bye.
With lotsa love,
FlyNDance
After reading her mail, i felt as if i had just experienced a roller-coaster ride which almost derailed. she had shown me the other side of her, soft and sensitive. For a couple of months, I was trying to hypnotise myself, to suppress my feelings whenever I started to think about her again. Perpetually i was telling myself, she is just one virtual character that flys and dance in the net, but never in the real world. I became a fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the internet and anythng that has to do with coffee. Hide myself behind the piles of lecture notes, behind the crowd of pple, trying to get rid of this thought of missing something in life. But i failed. I found out that its not that i don’t miss her, its just that i had forgotten the passion that always comes along when you are having something hanging on your mind all the time. its like I cannot not breath, its just that I had forgotten the fact that i have been breathing in and out for the past 19 years. i can hold my breath for a while, but not forever. i have to find her.
“err... i m looking for ... er.. FlyNDance....?
“HUH??...?
‘huh?... this is the exact word i was expecting from her. she seems to be FlyNDance’s elder sister, 20++, looked quite a beauty too even without any makeup. But of ‘cos, still can’t be compared with her... I explained to her my purpose for knocking on the door and told her that I’m no stalker whom she might think i'm. surprisingly, when i told her my disgusting nick, slorr, she appeared to be rather excited and quickly she scribbled something on a small piece of paper and handed it to me.....
“You should go and see her..?
SGH, Room 3-425. This is the 1st time I have ever stepped into the Singapore General Hospital. its a dust-free space, everything looked so clean, tidy and arranged. But i don’t like the feeling it gave me... I entered room 3-425, she was there, in a deep sleep... I stood by her, watching... her hair was still as long as before, laying across the soft, white pillow... her face looked roundish now, I know it’s the side-effect of the medicine... and the pinkish-red patch that was on her neck had spread to her face... appearing in a shape of a butterfly.. nevertheless.. she was still the most beautiful butterfly i’ve ever seen... Her eyelashes twitched slightly.. she must be dreaming... what’s that in her dream??...
Mcdonald’s fries and coke?.. sinking Titanic?.. or the rain at AMK ave 6?.. The room was getting darker as the clock approaches 6pm.. i wanted to switch on the light... ‘cos I hate to see her lying lonely under the shadow of a patient’s room.... But i m worried that her dreams might be disturbed by the sudden light rays... while i was in a dilemma.. her eyes opened slowly... Her eyes were wide on me.. then she turned away suddenly.. i can only see her back at this moment... she lost weight... after a long time.. she turned to face me again.. rubbed her eyes... and smiled....
“slorr.. you are here!...?
“yes... nice weather today.. isn’t it?..?
“ya lor.. sky also very chio today?.. right?...heehee..?
‘SKY VERY CHIO?.. i can still remember this was the conversation we had in one of our #AJCRR meetings... But she didn’t realized that it’s raining today...
“slorr.... why are you standing there.. sit down..? Thanks for reminding me.. i just found out that my legs were numbed due to the several hours of standing...
“slorr... you lost weight...?
ME?.. i thought i should be the one who’s telling this to her!!??....
“slorr.. you hungry?... had your lunch?..? “food here isn’t so good.. thats why patients like me always slim down a bit..? “apart from that.. its quite ok.. but sometimes I feel really bored without a PC here to talk to you..? “slorr.. hows your mid-year?.. sure did very well right?..?
WAIT A MINUTE!.. you are the one who’s lying on bed right now!!.. not me!....
Yet.. i had nothing to ask her actually.. ‘cos I was there to see her.. not to find out the answers to those questions.. maybe now its the time for me to utter some touching lines like what’s in the case of a movie.. But I’m not a Romantic person... moreover... movies are fiction.. life isn’t.. I just wished that she could leave this place which almost made me sick as soon as possible... back to AMK ave6, back to ACJC, back to where she belonged.... and i promised she wont be alone anymore.. ‘cos I will always be there... After a while... her mum was here to see her.. around the age of 50, slightly overweight.. other than the cheerful smile... she didn’t really remind me of FlyNDance...
“err... i think i gotta go now...bye bye auntie..?
“You....You...?she sat up straight in a sudden.. like experienced a tremendous shock...
“i’ll be here again tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow... until you leave this place...? Before i went back home, i went to Plaza Singapura again to buy that Christian Dior Dolce Vita...and i’ve got the biggest bottle this time, that she can even swim in it.
I try not to close my eyes that night, ‘cos I want to go to her as soon as the 1st sun ray shoots into my room. i hired a cab, didn’t want to waste too much time on bus.
“slorr.. you are here.. i’ve been waiting for you for a long time...?“had a good night’s rest?...?
“oh... i didn’t allow myself to fall into a deep sleep... ‘cos i know ou wont wake me up when your here...?
“then you should take a rest now...?
“err... since you are here already... i don’t think I can...?
I gave her the Dolce Vita, and we’d agreed that we would dance in the rain in front of SGH main entrance the day she’s discharged. I are not look straight at her...
cos there’s a butterfly on her face.. it was only last night b4 I leave SGH that i found out she’s suffering from an illness called ERYSIPELAS.. what the unproffesionals call the BUTTERFLY DISEASE... but i what i like is the coffee butterfly that is able to dance around freely.... not that pinkish-red butterfly that settled on her pale complexion... moreover.. whats a butterfly if it can’t fly....
“slorr.. why are you looking at me.. and not talking?...?
i dont know... ‘cos i noticed that she’s getting weaker physically... I had a bad feeling about this...
“slorr... i m thirsty... can you get me a drink?..?
I'm not leaving her at this moment. i can still remember a movie about this guy who went all the way to get red bean soup for his girlfriend who’s on sickbed... and to find her lying silently on the white bedsheet when he came back... never to wake up again...
“are you trying to get rid of me... like whats in that movie?..?
“slorr... movie is movie...life is life...? MOVIE?.. LIFE?....
“but i thought you just had a drink?... anyway.. so what can i get for you?...? “Ultimate Ice Blended!!....?
This is a hospital leh!!... did she think I can find Coffee Bean everywhere on this island?...like Mcdonalds... what’s more.. coffee wasn’t suitable for her at that time...
“err.... coffee isn’t good for health.. order something else... ok?..?
“so you know coffee isn’t good for the body too... then you should cut down on your intake oso... ok?..?
I saw her smile appearing... and there’s a shine in her eyes... i realised that she's just trying to tell me not to drink too much coffee in the future... My heart seemed to have suffered from a heavy blow... This is not good... a taste of pH<7 decent="dull">
My mum handed me a letter she picked up in the mail box this morning. i was surprised when i saw
‘To:slorr...?written on the envelope. That’s for me i guess. i opened it up, there was a piece of writing inside, and another coffee envelope.
Slorr,
I’m FlyNDance’s sister, i think this is how you are addressing her. I’m sorry that i do not know your real name, although we’d met b4. When i was packing her stuffs a few Days ago, I found this letter with your name and address already written on it. So i posted it to you, because I believe this is what my sister intended to do.
Best wishes,
Xiao wen
The letter was sent 3 days ago, and there was another
‘To:slorr...?followed by my home address written on the coffee envelope. But this handwriting was a lot nicer and the words seemed to be moving swiftly... like in a joyful dance.I have no time to figure out how she has gotten my home address... did i give her in one of my mails?.. I tried to control my trembling hands, slowly, I opened up the envelope.
I found a photo, and a half of a movie ticket inside... Apart from these, there was a blue letter... with the familiar DOLCE VITA smell on it. The photo showed her, standing on a piece of grassland... wearing the same coffee theme attire on our 1st meeting at Mcdonalds. Something was written at the back of it....
Dear slorr,
Coffee represents Pisces.. thats me. Blue represents sagitarius.. thats you. A blue letter inside a coffee envelope....
know what i mean?... :)
seeing me... do you feel like drinking coffee now?..
stop drooling!... :P
FlyNDance
I smiled.... bitterly.. and the contents of the blue letter is simple:
If i have one more day to live, i want to be your girlfriend.
Do i have one more day? No.
Too bad. I can’t be your girlfriend... not in this life.
If i have wings, i want to fly down from the paradise just to see you.
Do i have wings? No.
Sadly. I can never see you again.
If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, it still can’t put off the flame of love between us.
Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off?
Can.
So, yes. I LOVE YOU.
FlyNDance
My chest was torn apart... tears broke through the dam I constructed a long time go in a jiffy... As proud, as emotionless as i was, i can’t pull back the salty wet thats on the whole of my face anymore....She has changed my ‘little theory?.. and gotten Back what i’d owed her... tears for 2 months....
X X X X X X X
Titanic has won 11 awards in the Oscar.. including best picture. Yet, Rose wasnt the best actress under that category. So if its sad in a movie, it may not be so fortunate too in real life. and.. in reality... should Jack hold on to Rose.. and ‘Never let go??.... Maybe he shouldnt be worried about this... ‘cos that beautiful coffee butterfly will continue to fly and dance in his heart.. forever...
~THE END~
This portion below was added on by e blogger where i ripped this story from.
Chance
There are times in life...
When the person you will love,
For the rest of your life.
Walks into your life.
Sometimes, just sometimes...
You hurt that person,
You push them away.
Not meaning to,
But you do.
Because you do this...
You lose that person,
They walk away.
At times...
You are afraid,
To go on, after this.
But what choice do you have?
All you can do...
Is hope that one day,
If that person really was the one.
You will meet again.
And if, just by chance...
You get that second chance,
Remember the past.
Learn from your mistakes,
And never let them happen again.
And by doing this...
You will find out,
That a lifetime of happiness awaits.
If kisses were water, I’d give you a sea,
If hugs were leaves, I’d give you a tree,
If spaces were love, I’d give eternity,
And if you are true and sincere to me,
I’ll keep all my love just for thee.
And every morning when you open your eyes, Tell yourself that it is special. Every day, every minute, every second is a gift from God.
You’ve got to dance like nobody’s watching, and love like it’s never going to hurt. People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don’t need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there.
“Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.?#060;o:p>
I dance swiftly, amidst the silence of the paradise.
Angels glance on me... be it surprise, be it admiration, it ain’t gonna stop my rhythm.
‘cos it’s not the Angels glance that made me dance, It’s you.
“True love doesn’t have a happy ending. That’s because true love doesn’t have an ending.
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance.? A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.?
Given e fact that it appeared during e days where internet just sprouted, i'm amazed to see this story much alive on many sites today. A little tap on e search engine generate a couple of returns.
I met her on the net, how? ... I can’t remember but it seems to me that it is this ‘little theory? which I declared in the cyberspace that caught her attention.
"If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house.
Do I have a million?
No, that’s why I don’t have a house.
If I have wings, I can fly. Do I have wings?
No. So I can never fly.
If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can’t put off the flame of love between us.
Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off? No. That’s why I don’t love you."
That’s me, a typical science student. First you come up with an assumption, and then you fit a suitable conclusion. If the proposed assumption doesn't stand at all, then everything is just bullshit. I guess this is what they call ‘unromantic?
But she is an exception. She actually mailed me and said that I’m an ‘interesting?person. ‘Interesting? ... What a word to use on me, its like using ‘faithful?on Mr Clinton. I thought this gal must be a low-IQ organism, or suffering from serious brain damage. Anyway, her nick doesn’t seem so bad ?FLYNDANCE?that’s quite a unique one. But I was warning myself:
Hello, this is the virtual world of Internet. Who knows what might be lurking behind a beautiful nick. Talking from experience, most of the time it will be a ‘dinosaur?in disguise, the only differences will be whether it is a carnivore or a herbivore. But, I know she is way different from a ‘dinosaur? she is special.
So I guess its time for the appearance of FlyNDance ever since she mailed to tell me that I am ‘interesting? I was always wishing to meet her in #Ajcrr. Too bad, lady luck was just not on my side. So I can only reply her letter to tell her that I will start to train myself to become an ‘interesting?person, just to show that she is far-sighted. She replied my reply, I replied her reply to my reply, and she again replied my reply to her reply blah blah blah... Oh no, I just started a chain-reaction. Actually what interested me the most is this ‘paragraph?she wrote in one of the mails....
I dance swiftly, amidst the crowd.
Your glance on me
be it surprise, be it admiration,
it isn’t gonna stop my rhythm
'cos it’s not your glance that made me dance;
it’s my heart of youth.
I simply cannot relate this gal to any of the ‘dinosaurs? But if she really is a dinosaur, I'm willing to let her have her fill. Tye, my best pal unfortunately, noticed my little affair with FlyNDance, and has been perpetually warning me about this.... “HELLO!!!... You don't even know what she looks like, why take the risk?? ... Maybe ‘she?is a guy!!... haha!!..?I can't blame Tye for his ignorance.
Ever since Sally in Sec 4 dumped him, he has become a renowned ‘playboy? As the saying goes: "Once bitten, Twice shy? in this case, after Tye was bitten, he has mastered the art of skinning snakes alive, and make into soup. But he got all the factors to be a playboy; I always think he is the 19 year-old version of Brad Pitt. Tall, handsome and got this tongue that causes diabetes in every women he targets. I don’t think he can even remember how many girlfriends he had had. I went online that night, log onto channel and yes!!... She is there. Before I can get over the surprise and the daze, she sent me a message...
“Hey slorr.. So late liao haven't slept ahh???
Now what? Now what??!!.. Okok, I had to calm down first. I swallowed hard on my saliva, took a few deep breath. Now where is that Tye when I needed him most at such crucial moment, somebody to tell me what to say to her. How am I going to attract her with my pathetic humour, which has gone stale.
“slorr... me in a foul mood today.. Can’t sleep.. You leh???
MOTHER’S (direct translation to Chinese), what slorr slorr... now when I read it twice in a row, I’m beginning to feel disgusted in that nick Tye gave me.
Tye said that: "who knows.. It might attract some innocent gals in talking to you... haha..?
“I’m not feeling very good too.... so lets sad together.? Finally squeezed a sentence out, but I can already feel droplets of sweat forming on my forehead. Actually I'm not in a bad mood, I just want to follow up her topic that’s all. And if she asks for the reason for my feeling down, I can say:
?Since you are feeling down, how can I ever be happy?...?
I know it sounds mushy, but Tye said:
”MUSHYNESS IS THE FUNDAMENTAL TO ALL COURTSHIP?
And gals are a very weird species; they trust their ears far more than their eyes. So instead of doing 10 things to impress her, why not just say a sentence to move her.
“Ok... but you haven’t greet me leh...?
DAMNIT!.. How can I forget simple manners to gals? To think they call me ‘MR COURTEOUS?in school. If this thing ever leaks out in school, I would lose all my female friends.
“Nice to meet you... miss long-hair..?
I’ve been wishing that she’s keeping long hair. Tye said that: ”FlyNDance... hmm.. She would either be longhaired or a desperado, 'coz when gals dance, only 2 parts of them may fly: hair and skirt. So if she doesn't has long hair, that means her skirt Flys when she dances, AH-HA!!.. This has a certain sexual hint in it...haha..?
“Eh?... how you know I got long hair?..?
BINGO!!.. Heaven is on my side this time. It goes to prove that she is not a DESPERADO. yesh!!.. “Not only that.. I also know you seldom wear skirt..?I increased the stake, if I’m correct this time, peace on earth forever.
“Err... I guess you are rite lor.. But how you know one?..?
HAHAHAHAHA.... I'm good ahh...
“Just guess...?
“Ok lor... hey slorr... tell you what.. Me tired liaoz... you coming online tomorrow morning??...?
“Ya... why??..?
Please please please say that you coming too, if not I’m going to kill myself for letting you go tonight.
“I’ll see ya tomorrow at 10 am then...good night...?
“Er.. Should be today at 10 am.. Ok.. Good night too?
I just blurted out a last sentence.... Offline. Suddenly I was so impressed by my performance just now. But is the season of spring really arriving for me??... I wish.
“Slorr... what a coincidence ahh...?
“Yeh... I’m not late.?
“Ya lor... so qiao..?
Girls are weird, I thought we already had an arrangement, why do I have to pretend that its not. They must have watched too many movies, and like to think that guys they met due to the thing called ‘fate?is the best thing that can happen to their love life.
“Slorr.... you talking nonsense lah...?
NONSENSE???.. Ok, let me tell you what is nonsense. Summer’s beach, the guy must be good at running, with broad shoulders, dark complexion with a tint of redness, sparkling eyes and loud laughter. Then he will call out loud the name of the gal, running towards her, carry her and spin 3 rounds anticlockwise.
“Slorr.... you siao liaoz ahh???
I siao?.. ok.. Lets change a location then. Deep in the mountains, the guy must have long hair, gotta have the look of an artist, carries a sketching stand, a few pieces of drawings, and you can see birds stop over at his side, admiring his work. And there will be a gal who’s the model.... most probably naked.
“Slorr.. But these all very romantic mah...?
ROMANTIC??.. Hello miss... romance only survive in novels and movies. In real life, the guy on the beach may step onto broken glass or the gal may be too heavy which tore his arm muscles. Birds may just clear their waste on top of the guy in the mountains, or he might get a thrashing from the gal because he comments on the excess fats around the waist and hips.
“slorr... you hate romance??..?
I hate romance?... nope, I m just using my knowledge of statistic to get a deduction, that guys must be TALL to be romantic, not HANDSOME!!!.. Some love novels even portrayed the guy as normal looking, but no-one Dares to challenge the height of him!.. I object.... because I m not tall.
“slorr.... objection overruled...?
I think I m really outstandingly bo liao, talking to her about these until noon.
“slorr... are you hungry?...? “ya... you leh??....? “yesh... guess its time for lunch...slorr..?“then do you think we
should....??? “slorr... I m just asking... I don’t intend to have lunch with you...?
ok, good.. I m not romantic... neither are you.
I had lunch with Tye, we talk about the conversation with FlyNDance this morning.
“YOU moron... told her you are not romantic... you siao ah?..? “you have disgrace me man... how can you make such a big mistake?....I...I...? Tye grabbed a chicken wing with chopstick, and I can see the trembling of the hand and the wing.
“there are three ‘don'ts?in chasing a gal... one...don’t forget to be romantic,.. two ... don’t be too honest... three... don’t be too stingy on the sugar in our speech... noticed number one, you stupid???
>what rubbish is that??....
“In mandarin we say ‘nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai? you should know this...?
This I know, but it has been a controversial topic over centuries.
“Women aren’t really that... cheap.. so why would they only falls for ‘bad guys?like me??... that’s because ‘bad guys?are usually romantic... those ‘nice guys?are usually... dumdums...so she would rather choose a romantic ‘bad guy?rather than any of those dumdums... in maths we call this 2C1...understand?...dumdum..?
Oh, Tye is talking about maths!!.. now I understand. No wonder I have always been left on the shelf.
“In another words... gals wouldn’t mind if you are not tall... if you are not handsome... they can bear with your inconsiderate acts...can forget your stupidity...but they can never forgive if you are not romantic...?
Come on, this is so exaggerating.
“Hey... most women have a ‘knot?for romance.. just like most men have a ‘knot?for virginity... to women they just can’t understand how precious the thin layer of membrane is to men, same thing, men can’t imagine how important women treats romance. this is bullshit! how come I’ve never heard of that. The key word is ‘knot?..if you can untie it... fine.. but how many had actually succeeded in that... practically none...?ok, fine. now I’ve done it... so what should I do to remedy the situation?
“Face it... you are hopeless already... I promise you I’ll have a drink with you when you and her are over...?
YOU SONOFABITCH.
Mid-night. I m trying to concentrate on my physics
notes....F=ma,v=you+at...it’s really a wonder that nature can be explained by just a few formulas and equations, and this we call science. then why is astrology and palmistry being labeled as superstitious? Science should only be one of the ways to explain truth, what can’t be explained by science, it doesn’t necessary mean that’s its unreal.... Close to 1am. since I can’t get anything into my head, I shall try my luck on net then, maybe she is there...
“slorr...you here finally... good night to you... :) ..?
‘FINALLY? Strange word to use it here. What is she doing here at this hour? must be feeling down again.
“yes... it is fate that brought me to you at this moment...? I’m trying very hard to convince her that I m a bit romantic.
“slorr... nothing to do with fate...I waited 4 you for one hour liaoz...?
“sure or not?.. for what?..?
“talk to you mah...or else I can’t sleep...?
“you sick izzit?... go see doctor lah...? ?)....?
“slorr....let’s continue our topic.. what do you think of relationships begin from internet?...?
oh my god... how should I answer her now?
“its.. its very... romantic...? indeed I m not a good liar, even my words are shaking now.
“slorr... you bluffing... you not romantic one mah...?
GAME OVER. I m finished!.. no choice but to drink with Tye.
“slorr.... you lagging?... or just daoing me?...?
“no... I m wondering why is the sky so chio tonight?..?
“nonono... don’t try to shift the topic... slorr...?
sigh... I give up... I asked for it myself. Actually I think relationships started from cyberspace is considered as ROMANTIC, ‘cos romance gives pple an impression of unreal, and cyberspace is virtual. “slorr....that’s interesting..?2 surfers keep a safe distance from each other and usually 3 types of pple are produced in this way.
The 1st type....
The 1st type being those who present themselves on net with their ‘secondary personality? Usually all of us consists of multiple personalities, and in everyday life, what we present to the world is the ‘primary personality? with the secondary one being suppressed, or maybe we don’t even realised this other trait of us deep inside. so internet is the place where this side of us is revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge.
“izzit true?... what about 2nd type?..?
The 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind of man/woman he/she would want to be. theres bound to be 1 or 2 characteristics that you particularly admire, too bad, sometimes these characteristics are just couldnt be found in you. cyberspace is the perfect location for this transformation to occur.
“slorr.... you blowing cow izzit?.. type 3 leh?...?
I'm not blowing cow, I read it from an article of TIMES mag!! type 3 will be those who transform themselves into characters which are impossible for them to become in real life. For example, if you are a gal, you may act as a man on net. you may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if you want. “hm.. thats pretty amazing...?
The 1st type is the ‘faithful?type, ‘cos its his own personality that is being presented on net.
The 2nd type is the ‘foolish?type, ‘cos he knows only how to admire others, always forgets his own strong pts.
The 3rd type is the ‘pathetic?type, ‘cos he is wishing 4 some impossible.
“slorr.... den you belong to what type?... me leh?..?i don’t wish to believe you are type 3, ‘cos i m not. I crossed the possibility of type 1 ‘cos its too common, because i think you are special. being able to attract you, i think i'm at least a bit special. so we belong to type 2. “type2.... den who you wish to become?..slorr..?
I certainly would like to become a person like Tye, humorous, romantic and eloquent, ‘cos these are what i m lacking of.
“slorr.... what about me?..?
YOU?.. i don’t know.
YOU want to FLY and DANCE, probably that means you wish to fully enjoy your youth while you can. but if this is somethng you wish yet you can’t achieve, den there’s 2 possibilities:
1, you are aging,
2, you are leaving the world.
i think i said something wrong, ‘cos she didn’t sent me anymore msg after this. I began to blame myself for being so perverted, why talk about these things?.. I should have discussed with her whether ZOE or FANN, who should be the queen of caldecott hill. damn that TIMES mag, poison my mind. Maybe she’s lagging. so I waited... and waited. although its just a few minutes, but it felt like several hours. I want to apologize, but do not know how to start. until she sent me this msg:
“slorr... lets meet...?
without hesitation, i used the hand that I had used it over 18 years to wipe my ass, typed ‘O-K?
I m supposed to meet FlyNDance tonight , 8pm, at the entrance of Mcdonalds, the one beside YMCA. that’s the best time and place to meet a gal you have never met b4, according to Tye,
‘Cos they would have taken their dinner by that time which means we can simply go inside the Mac and have some fries and coke. she will be wearing a whole set of coffee theme attire and I will be wearing my usual blues, this is our way of identification.she told me she is not those ‘cute gals?I may think she is, I said nevermind, I m not Brad-pitt either then she told me she has long ago given up on this hope already.
“slorr... you are early...?
while I was idling, a gal tapped my shoulders from my back. although I was a ready mentally prepared for anything that’s gonna appear in front of me, I was still astonished by this gal who stood in front of me now. If not for the coffeee theme and that ‘slorr? I would think she is only asking for directions. ‘cos she is one of those chio buz that can only be found on orchard road, usually while I’m crossing the road.
Maybe I suffered from a serious concussion due to the heavy blow, my mind was extraordinarily calm.
“had your dinner rite?.. I think we shall go inside the Mac 1st...?
“you are pretty smart huh?... a good way to save money indeed...?
AIYA!~!... she knows me soooo well, I can only give her an innocent smile back.
since she’s so pretty, I ordered 2 LARGE cokes, and even ordered TWO packets of fries.
“this time i treat, next time i’ll let you treat...?I m not falling for that, miss... but I'm glad she mentioned ‘next time?
“slorr... are you disappointed when you saw me just now?..?
DISSAPPOINTED?... are you drunk?..
“why do you think I will be disappointed then?..?
“cos i told you i m not cute mah, so you must be quite disappointed when you saw me..?she is making 0 sense, but i know she is just trying to hint that she’s actually cute.
“then why did you have to lie that you are not cute??
“slorr... i said i m not cute... i didn’t say i m not pretty..?
#$%$##%^*&%$@!!!
“but you are also quite....decent looking what.. its not like what you described to me too..?
DECENT? a very vague word. to many gals, decent = boring. one good thing is that she didn’t lie to me about the fact that she is keeping long hair. She also has a fair complexion which reminds me of HL milk I take almost everyday. it is now only that i found out she is from ACJC, but had spent her 1st 3 mths in AJ. Sitting in front of each other, we talk about many things. From her obsession with coffee to my hobby of watching movies.
In between, she had completely shoke off my misconception of "if she is pretty, she is brainless". she appears to be an attractive gal, both physically and character wise, talking, smiling to me, occasionally being a little sarcastic and nasty. its like a dream. we left the Mac at around 10 pm. since its still early, i decided to send her home and fortunately, its just Ang Mo Kio, two MRT stops from mine. i would have a second thought if she’s staying at Pasir Ris.
“slorr... congratulations.... you are officially permitted to date me from now on...?she said this b4 the lift door closed. back at home,
I realized that i hadn’t asked for her real name, maybe its the influence of that stupid Tye. Tye told me:
”never ask a pretty gal her name the 1st time you meet her, ‘cos there are already too many wolves out there dying to know, so she will be more interested in you if you act bochap...? Then why didn’t she ask for mine? don’t tell me there’s a female version of Tye telling her not to? it’s again 1am. time to meet her in #ajcrr.
“hi!... slorr.. you tired?...? of ‘cos I’m tired after all the surprises she presented me, i would go straight for my bed if not for her. but why is she here also?... isn’t she tired too?..
“long time no see.. how are you?..?
“slorr you siao ah?... 2 hours only leh.. miss me?...?
“A)yes...B)of’cos... C)abuden... D)dying to see you... E)all of above....
answer is E...? ?)...?
Seems like she is really tired, even the smiling face are yawning to me rite now.
“you wanna go for a movie tomorrow?..? maybe i should ask her now, while she is half asleep, hoping that she will blur-blurly click ‘OK?
“should be no problem... what show?..."
HOOOOORAY!!... i m cheering for her fatique.
“We decide what show tomorrow... anyway what’s important is watch with who... not the show..?
Tye’s fav line, I’m just borrowing it.
?)...? “you should go sleep now lah...?
“wait one little while... you haven’t tell me you tired or not?..? “ok lah... a bit.... you leh?..?
“i m exhausted.... but have to say good night to you 1st... slorr..if not I can’t sleep..
“me too....?
i can’t believe i m doing this SILLY business rite now....
“ok i tell you what.... i count 1,2,3... then we log off together...? “ok.... good night slorr...? “same to you..? ?....? ?...? ?..?
I never talk whenever I’m inside a cinema, and now is the best time for my mouth to rest, so I spent the following 3 hours to admire this much-talked-about movie of the century, Titanic. I’m not a romantic person, so its perfectly understandable if i can’t really appreciate this motion picture fully, except for all those stunning special effects. But something stroke me when Jack said to Rose b4 he sank into the deep sea.....
“Rose, listen to me... listen.... winning that ticket was the best thing that had happened to me... it brought me to you.... and i m thankful, Rose.... I’m thankful....?
Suddenly i felt much fortunate than Jack, ‘cos I don’t have to risk my life to board Titanic, all I have to do is to switch on my PC every night. But he’s one lucky guy too, ‘cos he knows how to draw, and just look at how slowly he was drawing Rose, that made me blame myself for the lack of this talent. But to her, this movie wasn't just about drawings or special effects. i noticed that packet of tissue paper she was holding in her hand. and just when Rose said:?I promise... i will never let go, Jack... i’ll never let go..”she opened up her sling bag and here comes the reserve handkerchief.
Damn that Celine Dion, why on earth did she had to sing that “MY HEART WILL GO ON?at the end of the show, for all the female species inside the theater, its like “MY TEARS WILL ALSO GO ON?
“Ok... movie ended... lets go....?i stood up, speak to her gently, worried that every single word I breath out might just crush onto her, and kill her. she continued to sit on the position, looked at me with her beautiful eyes that just came back from a swim. after a while, she said... “slorr.... movie ended..... but life goes on.. am I rite?...? i nodded my head... but i just wished somebody might give me some clue of what she was saying.
Finally we managed to leave Orchard cineplex, since its still early, we decided to take a walk down the street. along the way, she seems unusually quiet. So I guess Tye was rite about the ‘TITANIC FLU? he said that gals often got so mentally distressed after watching this show, and its the best time to launch an emotional attack on her, thats why Tye had watch Titanic for over 5 times roughly. her eyes were focussed on the path or the crowds but i know her mind was still left on Titanic, sinking with her, waiting for somebody to pull her up. i just kept my mouth shut ‘cos I know i m not a good swimmer. we walked to Plaza Singapura. Suddenly she stopped in front of a Christian Dior counter.
“slorr?have you read a novel called ‘fragrance?...?
“err..nope.... why do you ask?...?
“look at this ‘DOLCE VITA?from Christian Dior... its what the guy bought for her girlfriend in the story on her birthday.... and he told her ‘DOLCE VITA?is french, meaning ‘SWEET TIMES?..?
she pointed to a bottle of perfume at the counter, but i was more interested at the price tag around the neck of the bottle.
“oh... izzit?...? “slorr... then do you consider today as ‘sweet times?..?? “at first i do... but some pts are deducted since you started crying...? “that means it can only be considered a little bit sweet, i’ll buy the small bottle then...?
i insisted to pay for the perfume as her bdae present from me since i know her birthday is coming soon, this kinda saves me a lot of trouble of finding a present for her. luckily its just perfume, I would have to pawn my underwear if that guy in the story gives his girlfriend diamond or gold bar.
“are you hungry?....wanna sit down and have something?...? “i don’t have appetite... what about you?..? “you eat, i eat....?
her eyes are red again...... I’m such a fool.
Finally got away from the noisy crowd at the mrt station, walking on one of the steets of AMK ave6. Contrastingly, its so quiet now that i even can hear the rhythm of her heartbeat.
“slorr... do you know what’s the correct way of applying perfume?....?
I shoke my head. in fact, i had never used a perfume or cologne b4, medicated oil maybe.
?st you apply some behind your ears... then your neck and wrists... after that spray some onto the air, then walk through it...?
“sure or not?... in that case this little bottle wont even be able to last you for 3 days....?
“slorr... shall we try?...?
“’we?... you go ahead... i m a MAN...?
She opened up that DOLCE VITA... behind her ears, neck then the wrist she applied some... and she really did spray some onto he air!!... WABIANGZ!!.. expensive leh!... Finally she stretched out her hands... facing up... like enjoying the raindrops fallling on her face...
“hahaha.... slorr... this is so fun!.... now its your turn....?she went through the same procedures with me and i can feel the coldness of her fingers. maybe its the perfume...............i guess.
“slorr... get ready... i m going to spray!!...?
I imitated her.. face up... and walked through my 1st perfume rain.
“slorr lets have another round!!...?
WHAT!!... serious?.. my money isn’t easy to come by leh!!.... b4 i can collect the broken pieces of my heart, she had walked through her second round. she was even more excited this time, hoping around, like her nick.... a flying and dancing butterfly. Late night of AMK, the streets smells unusually nicer rite now. until we finished the whole of that DOLCE VITA.
“DOLCE VITA is exhausted... i guess this sweet time shall end now too.... slorr.. i’ll go up now.... tonight 1am. i wont be online, and you are not to do so too...?
“huh?....but why?....?
“go online at 12pm tomorrow.. you will know why....remember... only 12pm...?
She turned and walked into the lift... at the same time i saw an obvious pink patch behind her neck which is visible only now because she tied her hair. I looked up towards her window on the 4th floor from below, but it never light up. I switched off the light in my room... engulfed in the absolute darkness... ‘cos i wished to have the same kind of feeling as her right now... i realised in complete darkness... the easiest mood one gets... is loneliness.. she must be lonely rite now... half asleep.. i almost can see a beautiful butterfly.. turning to ashes amidst the sea of flame... and that patch behind her neck.. from pink it became red... then burgundy.. slowly.. it swallowed me.... was it the cause of that can of beer just now?... Suddenly i felt cold... and shaky.. and that coolness seemed to have come straight from my heart... the rate of my heartbeat was an exponential function of time as it got closer to 1am... USE A DIFFERENT NICK!!... checked .. she isn’t there.... my heart was beating fast... but the temp remained below healthy level………………?
finally its 12 pm, excited as i was, logged on the net, yet there was still no sign of FlyNDance. But theres a mail from her...……?
Dear slorr, At first i thought it will be easier for me to settle down in the darkness... recollecting memories we have shared... but all i felt was loneliness...... can you feel it too?... I still can’t change the habit of logging on at 1am... so i used a different nick to sneak into #AJCRR... you don’t blame me right?...:P... you weren’t there... should I feel glad for your obidience?....
YOU said both of us belonged to TYPE 2... the foolish type... maybe you are right!... ‘cos I really do admire those who dares to fight for their desires... I stroke my hair gently when you said that i m leaving the world... and a few strands of hair fell..... No!... doctor told me its not a terminal disease... and doctor aren’t supposed to lie!!?... I still can live like a normal person... BUT CAN I?..
FlyNDance... is it really something i wont be able to do?... After the 1st meeting with you at Mac... I started to realise that you are not only a virtual being living in the cyberspace... in reality you are strong, gentle and sensitive.... i can feel the defense wall of my heart is slowly breaking apart.... I’m defeated... I tied my hair today.. ‘cos my fren told me that i look more attractive this way... I want you to remember my face as it is today... ‘cos after today... everything may change.... But why didn’t you ask for my real name?.. thats why i never asked for urs... i m a gal mah..:P... do you realised how I wish to have something more than a nick to take along with me?...
Slorr... thank you for the DOLCE VITA... finally got a taste of what sweet times are like... but I’m really sorry..... i just couldn’t bear to say goodbye.....since it started from a mail.... it should end with a mail too.... Its been 3 months and 2 days since the very 1st mail... not a very long time but it isn’t short either.... our story began from me... and I will end it.. Maybe its what you said... ‘internet is fast and convenient, but it isn’t perfect?... I can send you my thoughts right away... but not my tears... Its about 5.30am now.... time to go.... by the time you receive this mail...I would be trying to settle down somewhere else.... i don’t know.... Good Bye.
With lotsa love,
FlyNDance
After reading her mail, i felt as if i had just experienced a roller-coaster ride which almost derailed. she had shown me the other side of her, soft and sensitive. For a couple of months, I was trying to hypnotise myself, to suppress my feelings whenever I started to think about her again. Perpetually i was telling myself, she is just one virtual character that flys and dance in the net, but never in the real world. I became a fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the internet and anythng that has to do with coffee. Hide myself behind the piles of lecture notes, behind the crowd of pple, trying to get rid of this thought of missing something in life. But i failed. I found out that its not that i don’t miss her, its just that i had forgotten the passion that always comes along when you are having something hanging on your mind all the time. its like I cannot not breath, its just that I had forgotten the fact that i have been breathing in and out for the past 19 years. i can hold my breath for a while, but not forever. i have to find her.
“err... i m looking for ... er.. FlyNDance....?
“HUH??...?
‘huh?... this is the exact word i was expecting from her. she seems to be FlyNDance’s elder sister, 20++, looked quite a beauty too even without any makeup. But of ‘cos, still can’t be compared with her... I explained to her my purpose for knocking on the door and told her that I’m no stalker whom she might think i'm. surprisingly, when i told her my disgusting nick, slorr, she appeared to be rather excited and quickly she scribbled something on a small piece of paper and handed it to me.....
“You should go and see her..?
SGH, Room 3-425. This is the 1st time I have ever stepped into the Singapore General Hospital. its a dust-free space, everything looked so clean, tidy and arranged. But i don’t like the feeling it gave me... I entered room 3-425, she was there, in a deep sleep... I stood by her, watching... her hair was still as long as before, laying across the soft, white pillow... her face looked roundish now, I know it’s the side-effect of the medicine... and the pinkish-red patch that was on her neck had spread to her face... appearing in a shape of a butterfly.. nevertheless.. she was still the most beautiful butterfly i’ve ever seen... Her eyelashes twitched slightly.. she must be dreaming... what’s that in her dream??...
Mcdonald’s fries and coke?.. sinking Titanic?.. or the rain at AMK ave 6?.. The room was getting darker as the clock approaches 6pm.. i wanted to switch on the light... ‘cos I hate to see her lying lonely under the shadow of a patient’s room.... But i m worried that her dreams might be disturbed by the sudden light rays... while i was in a dilemma.. her eyes opened slowly... Her eyes were wide on me.. then she turned away suddenly.. i can only see her back at this moment... she lost weight... after a long time.. she turned to face me again.. rubbed her eyes... and smiled....
“slorr.. you are here!...?
“yes... nice weather today.. isn’t it?..?
“ya lor.. sky also very chio today?.. right?...heehee..?
‘SKY VERY CHIO?.. i can still remember this was the conversation we had in one of our #AJCRR meetings... But she didn’t realized that it’s raining today...
“slorr.... why are you standing there.. sit down..? Thanks for reminding me.. i just found out that my legs were numbed due to the several hours of standing...
“slorr... you lost weight...?
ME?.. i thought i should be the one who’s telling this to her!!??....
“slorr.. you hungry?... had your lunch?..? “food here isn’t so good.. thats why patients like me always slim down a bit..? “apart from that.. its quite ok.. but sometimes I feel really bored without a PC here to talk to you..? “slorr.. hows your mid-year?.. sure did very well right?..?
WAIT A MINUTE!.. you are the one who’s lying on bed right now!!.. not me!....
Yet.. i had nothing to ask her actually.. ‘cos I was there to see her.. not to find out the answers to those questions.. maybe now its the time for me to utter some touching lines like what’s in the case of a movie.. But I’m not a Romantic person... moreover... movies are fiction.. life isn’t.. I just wished that she could leave this place which almost made me sick as soon as possible... back to AMK ave6, back to ACJC, back to where she belonged.... and i promised she wont be alone anymore.. ‘cos I will always be there... After a while... her mum was here to see her.. around the age of 50, slightly overweight.. other than the cheerful smile... she didn’t really remind me of FlyNDance...
“err... i think i gotta go now...bye bye auntie..?
“You....You...?she sat up straight in a sudden.. like experienced a tremendous shock...
“i’ll be here again tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow... until you leave this place...? Before i went back home, i went to Plaza Singapura again to buy that Christian Dior Dolce Vita...and i’ve got the biggest bottle this time, that she can even swim in it.
I try not to close my eyes that night, ‘cos I want to go to her as soon as the 1st sun ray shoots into my room. i hired a cab, didn’t want to waste too much time on bus.
“slorr.. you are here.. i’ve been waiting for you for a long time...?“had a good night’s rest?...?
“oh... i didn’t allow myself to fall into a deep sleep... ‘cos i know ou wont wake me up when your here...?
“then you should take a rest now...?
“err... since you are here already... i don’t think I can...?
I gave her the Dolce Vita, and we’d agreed that we would dance in the rain in front of SGH main entrance the day she’s discharged. I are not look straight at her...
cos there’s a butterfly on her face.. it was only last night b4 I leave SGH that i found out she’s suffering from an illness called ERYSIPELAS.. what the unproffesionals call the BUTTERFLY DISEASE... but i what i like is the coffee butterfly that is able to dance around freely.... not that pinkish-red butterfly that settled on her pale complexion... moreover.. whats a butterfly if it can’t fly....
“slorr.. why are you looking at me.. and not talking?...?
i dont know... ‘cos i noticed that she’s getting weaker physically... I had a bad feeling about this...
“slorr... i m thirsty... can you get me a drink?..?
I'm not leaving her at this moment. i can still remember a movie about this guy who went all the way to get red bean soup for his girlfriend who’s on sickbed... and to find her lying silently on the white bedsheet when he came back... never to wake up again...
“are you trying to get rid of me... like whats in that movie?..?
“slorr... movie is movie...life is life...? MOVIE?.. LIFE?....
“but i thought you just had a drink?... anyway.. so what can i get for you?...? “Ultimate Ice Blended!!....?
This is a hospital leh!!... did she think I can find Coffee Bean everywhere on this island?...like Mcdonalds... what’s more.. coffee wasn’t suitable for her at that time...
“err.... coffee isn’t good for health.. order something else... ok?..?
“so you know coffee isn’t good for the body too... then you should cut down on your intake oso... ok?..?
I saw her smile appearing... and there’s a shine in her eyes... i realised that she's just trying to tell me not to drink too much coffee in the future... My heart seemed to have suffered from a heavy blow... This is not good... a taste of pH<7 decent="dull">
My mum handed me a letter she picked up in the mail box this morning. i was surprised when i saw
‘To:slorr...?written on the envelope. That’s for me i guess. i opened it up, there was a piece of writing inside, and another coffee envelope.
Slorr,
I’m FlyNDance’s sister, i think this is how you are addressing her. I’m sorry that i do not know your real name, although we’d met b4. When i was packing her stuffs a few Days ago, I found this letter with your name and address already written on it. So i posted it to you, because I believe this is what my sister intended to do.
Best wishes,
Xiao wen
The letter was sent 3 days ago, and there was another
‘To:slorr...?followed by my home address written on the coffee envelope. But this handwriting was a lot nicer and the words seemed to be moving swiftly... like in a joyful dance.I have no time to figure out how she has gotten my home address... did i give her in one of my mails?.. I tried to control my trembling hands, slowly, I opened up the envelope.
I found a photo, and a half of a movie ticket inside... Apart from these, there was a blue letter... with the familiar DOLCE VITA smell on it. The photo showed her, standing on a piece of grassland... wearing the same coffee theme attire on our 1st meeting at Mcdonalds. Something was written at the back of it....
Dear slorr,
Coffee represents Pisces.. thats me. Blue represents sagitarius.. thats you. A blue letter inside a coffee envelope....
know what i mean?... :)
seeing me... do you feel like drinking coffee now?..
stop drooling!... :P
FlyNDance
I smiled.... bitterly.. and the contents of the blue letter is simple:
If i have one more day to live, i want to be your girlfriend.
Do i have one more day? No.
Too bad. I can’t be your girlfriend... not in this life.
If i have wings, i want to fly down from the paradise just to see you.
Do i have wings? No.
Sadly. I can never see you again.
If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, it still can’t put off the flame of love between us.
Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off?
Can.
So, yes. I LOVE YOU.
FlyNDance
My chest was torn apart... tears broke through the dam I constructed a long time go in a jiffy... As proud, as emotionless as i was, i can’t pull back the salty wet thats on the whole of my face anymore....She has changed my ‘little theory?.. and gotten Back what i’d owed her... tears for 2 months....
X X X X X X X
Titanic has won 11 awards in the Oscar.. including best picture. Yet, Rose wasnt the best actress under that category. So if its sad in a movie, it may not be so fortunate too in real life. and.. in reality... should Jack hold on to Rose.. and ‘Never let go??.... Maybe he shouldnt be worried about this... ‘cos that beautiful coffee butterfly will continue to fly and dance in his heart.. forever...
~THE END~
This portion below was added on by e blogger where i ripped this story from.
Chance
There are times in life...
When the person you will love,
For the rest of your life.
Walks into your life.
Sometimes, just sometimes...
You hurt that person,
You push them away.
Not meaning to,
But you do.
Because you do this...
You lose that person,
They walk away.
At times...
You are afraid,
To go on, after this.
But what choice do you have?
All you can do...
Is hope that one day,
If that person really was the one.
You will meet again.
And if, just by chance...
You get that second chance,
Remember the past.
Learn from your mistakes,
And never let them happen again.
And by doing this...
You will find out,
That a lifetime of happiness awaits.
If kisses were water, I’d give you a sea,
If hugs were leaves, I’d give you a tree,
If spaces were love, I’d give eternity,
And if you are true and sincere to me,
I’ll keep all my love just for thee.
And every morning when you open your eyes, Tell yourself that it is special. Every day, every minute, every second is a gift from God.
You’ve got to dance like nobody’s watching, and love like it’s never going to hurt. People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don’t need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there.
“Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.?#060;o:p>
I dance swiftly, amidst the silence of the paradise.
Angels glance on me... be it surprise, be it admiration, it ain’t gonna stop my rhythm.
‘cos it’s not the Angels glance that made me dance, It’s you.
“True love doesn’t have a happy ending. That’s because true love doesn’t have an ending.
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance.? A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.?
Caught first intimate contact, finally. All went well, smooth and i managed to caught it.
Verdict? Its nice, being e first stage drama i caught. But feel-wise, i prefer e english local version of it. Was told its a taiwan version. Hmm, e first one seems e nicest.
CQ seems too .... for words. Totally spoil e feel of slor. Besides, his language was too powerful for me to understand. I was left ??? for most of it.
Having fed local dramas every night when i was in moo moo land. I cant helped feeling bit excited seeing Chen Liping for real. Ok, she seems taller and slimmer. But, her dressing is exactly e same as seen on tv.
Hmmm. Its interesting how people interpret things. The blue hand was given to me cos it was thought that since i showed it first, i must had like it e most. But alas, i came to like e pink one more. So, wrong interpretation. This goes to show how important it is to ask instead of assume.
Verdict? Its nice, being e first stage drama i caught. But feel-wise, i prefer e english local version of it. Was told its a taiwan version. Hmm, e first one seems e nicest.
CQ seems too .... for words. Totally spoil e feel of slor. Besides, his language was too powerful for me to understand. I was left ??? for most of it.
Having fed local dramas every night when i was in moo moo land. I cant helped feeling bit excited seeing Chen Liping for real. Ok, she seems taller and slimmer. But, her dressing is exactly e same as seen on tv.
Hmmm. Its interesting how people interpret things. The blue hand was given to me cos it was thought that since i showed it first, i must had like it e most. But alas, i came to like e pink one more. So, wrong interpretation. This goes to show how important it is to ask instead of assume.
Monday, December 17, 2007
quickie again!!
Caught warlords aka Dou Min Zhuan. Super nice though was commented about poor visual effects with strong plot. Hmmm, ok, i agree too. Surprise to see some romance content in a super war cum historic film. I like it a lot. Cried? Well, cant helped it at some parts, its just too sad for words. To give e bread to your brothers or to feed e 4000 who surrendered. Its tough. But like Takashi, Big brother's right.
Andy's role was straightforward, a down-right good lad with no bad intentions. Li LJ was commented to be someone deep. I didnt realised that.
Its sad that all died in e end. Its interesting to see that romance part inserted. Amazing how love can be so intense between e 2. How Li actually eventually killed Andy for it. I still dont think that's e reason why Li wish to do that. He dont seems one who would stoop that low. But was commented he's after e seat and lady after all. But, he did shed tears as he did that to andy, so i still believed him to be upright, though he might be ambitious.
Bliss is when you cant help smiling to yourself.
I still believed in that.
Saw FJ and hubby but didnt went up to them. Hmm.
Saw coupe and so cute!! Definitely far more cuter than skio. Skio is not a bit cute. Dont you hate it when you're so duhh at times?
Got a peek of e christmas tree at e roof, it's splendid! Awesome. Missed e blue one at e tower too.
Got to see 16 and 30 too. Talking about having things in common. Hmm, seems nice to have people who can cry with you and play along with e silly acts you wanted to do.
Oh. Heard Alvin and chipmarks' christmas song. Seems funny and nice.
Thought could have dinner with Geely tomorrow. But oh well.
As if i'm going to die tomorrow. Wanted to do all those things before i'm gone. Hmm, i were to be gone, guess i wont regret. At least i had a great day today.
Looking forward to sat.
Caught warlords aka Dou Min Zhuan. Super nice though was commented about poor visual effects with strong plot. Hmmm, ok, i agree too. Surprise to see some romance content in a super war cum historic film. I like it a lot. Cried? Well, cant helped it at some parts, its just too sad for words. To give e bread to your brothers or to feed e 4000 who surrendered. Its tough. But like Takashi, Big brother's right.
Andy's role was straightforward, a down-right good lad with no bad intentions. Li LJ was commented to be someone deep. I didnt realised that.
Its sad that all died in e end. Its interesting to see that romance part inserted. Amazing how love can be so intense between e 2. How Li actually eventually killed Andy for it. I still dont think that's e reason why Li wish to do that. He dont seems one who would stoop that low. But was commented he's after e seat and lady after all. But, he did shed tears as he did that to andy, so i still believed him to be upright, though he might be ambitious.
Bliss is when you cant help smiling to yourself.
I still believed in that.
Saw FJ and hubby but didnt went up to them. Hmm.
Saw coupe and so cute!! Definitely far more cuter than skio. Skio is not a bit cute. Dont you hate it when you're so duhh at times?
Got a peek of e christmas tree at e roof, it's splendid! Awesome. Missed e blue one at e tower too.
Got to see 16 and 30 too. Talking about having things in common. Hmm, seems nice to have people who can cry with you and play along with e silly acts you wanted to do.
Oh. Heard Alvin and chipmarks' christmas song. Seems funny and nice.
Thought could have dinner with Geely tomorrow. But oh well.
As if i'm going to die tomorrow. Wanted to do all those things before i'm gone. Hmm, i were to be gone, guess i wont regret. At least i had a great day today.
Looking forward to sat.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Slept till a recordbreaking 7 today. Finally got a good rest after a hectic week. Partially due me not wanting to put myself to bed in time too.
WAs so tired on thursday that i'm glad to be able to left early. Right after e appointment, i just wanted to hop on for home.
With moo land being postponed, i suddenly realised i'm supposed to meet wg initally. As i was kinda angry why he took so long to reply. I realised that i forgot that he's wasnt feeling unwell. Sigh. Bo Xin as usual.
Finished witch yoo hee. It's a nice show, but probably a lot of redundant plot to stretch e show.
This song by Jay, so so bei. First saw e mtv in bangkok and found e mtv gloomy. Why? I thought it wassnt such a gloomy song.
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
WAs so tired on thursday that i'm glad to be able to left early. Right after e appointment, i just wanted to hop on for home.
With moo land being postponed, i suddenly realised i'm supposed to meet wg initally. As i was kinda angry why he took so long to reply. I realised that i forgot that he's wasnt feeling unwell. Sigh. Bo Xin as usual.
Finished witch yoo hee. It's a nice show, but probably a lot of redundant plot to stretch e show.
This song by Jay, so so bei. First saw e mtv in bangkok and found e mtv gloomy. Why? I thought it wassnt such a gloomy song.
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Just a quickie.
Up to some lameness and quickly designed and wrapped Von's pressie. Yea..it's his. Fun to let my lameness spill all over e plain paper.
Mad rush to town today and brother followed suit. Geez, such a last minute decision and met corn.
Got e comic from corn. Must say he is efficient.
Was trying to narrate e situation. Was ??? that i appeared so comical to corn. ok, i was kinda tired and blabbering nonsense anyway.
Felt like wanted to more like mong ryong. He's outright, positive and ever optimistic personality. Just make people going duhh, yet laughing.
Sometimes its okay to be e clown so as long people around you are happy.
Used seen everything and was scolded by corn. Not to use that so lightly as its not like i've really attain that stage anyway.
Freaking duuuuhhhh!!! that e deal was over when i surf e webbie for a quick peek. So there goes e freaking cheap catch again.
Missed enchanted. Hmm, was it a blessing or disguise?
2 more days to moo moo land. Feel like taking a break on thurs. *Evil grins*
Up to some lameness and quickly designed and wrapped Von's pressie. Yea..it's his. Fun to let my lameness spill all over e plain paper.
Mad rush to town today and brother followed suit. Geez, such a last minute decision and met corn.
Got e comic from corn. Must say he is efficient.
Was trying to narrate e situation. Was ??? that i appeared so comical to corn. ok, i was kinda tired and blabbering nonsense anyway.
Felt like wanted to more like mong ryong. He's outright, positive and ever optimistic personality. Just make people going duhh, yet laughing.
Sometimes its okay to be e clown so as long people around you are happy.
Used seen everything and was scolded by corn. Not to use that so lightly as its not like i've really attain that stage anyway.
Freaking duuuuhhhh!!! that e deal was over when i surf e webbie for a quick peek. So there goes e freaking cheap catch again.
Missed enchanted. Hmm, was it a blessing or disguise?
2 more days to moo moo land. Feel like taking a break on thurs. *Evil grins*
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Wtf Jingles!!! hehes, you're full of nonsense again! So how did you discovered that you're my crush for 2 years?! JJ told you? Too bad i dont love you anymore!! so shoO!!! hehes.
Somehow ended up having dinner with Geely today. Yea..not duck rice but noodles with vegetables this time round. Its just as great. Sometimes, its not e food that matters, but e company you're with. Topics flew today and more on everything.
Its amazing how a pair of heels can set e vast height difference between us! We're almost e same height. Oh boy.
Though caught golden compass e other day, was asked if i want a second round. Cant believe i almost wanted it. Cant believe how easily swayed i am. Ok, i admit e show is so nice.
Forgot to eat e muffin bought during tea and offered it to Geely instead. Hah, so glad that e muffin was given to someone who can enjoyed it. But no bubble teas for me today though Geely got hers. Seems like we both like e same taste. Actuallly nothing so amazing, cos Fin like that flavour too. Too bad there's classes today, else might have gone shopping with Fin instead. Freaking cold.
An sms from von totally spoilt my mood during diinner. Luckily i shoved my phone aside and forgot about it soon after.
" When you see 1111, it means someone is thinking of you or you're missing someone?. But, i didnt see 1111 leh but **** instead, so duh, cos it reminds me of von. Geeexx.
But i feel not too accurate, cos you can still miss someone if 1111 doesnt appear.
X_x
Somehow ended up having dinner with Geely today. Yea..not duck rice but noodles with vegetables this time round. Its just as great. Sometimes, its not e food that matters, but e company you're with. Topics flew today and more on everything.
Its amazing how a pair of heels can set e vast height difference between us! We're almost e same height. Oh boy.
Though caught golden compass e other day, was asked if i want a second round. Cant believe i almost wanted it. Cant believe how easily swayed i am. Ok, i admit e show is so nice.
Forgot to eat e muffin bought during tea and offered it to Geely instead. Hah, so glad that e muffin was given to someone who can enjoyed it. But no bubble teas for me today though Geely got hers. Seems like we both like e same taste. Actuallly nothing so amazing, cos Fin like that flavour too. Too bad there's classes today, else might have gone shopping with Fin instead. Freaking cold.
An sms from von totally spoilt my mood during diinner. Luckily i shoved my phone aside and forgot about it soon after.
" When you see 1111, it means someone is thinking of you or you're missing someone?. But, i didnt see 1111 leh but **** instead, so duh, cos it reminds me of von. Geeexx.
But i feel not too accurate, cos you can still miss someone if 1111 doesnt appear.
X_x
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Hey Jingles, PLEASE dont be funny and use that sl again k? I wont be able to differentiate between you n my friend lor. I know your initals are sl too, but erm, dont be so duh k?
Yesterday was really burnt out. Slept at 6am and woke at 2. Supposed to meet xh and eil but i simply couldnt get myself up after e nap i've gotten myself into.
Caught golden compass and its awesome. Like LOTR, that's stupid sequals to it that would probably stretch a few years to complete. The setting is so out of e world though. Imagine in another world , e species are borne with a demon which takes e form of an animal. Imagine you can just sit on your demon and move around. Pengz cool!!
The scene of e polar bear is damn hilarious too. Geexx, cant wait to complete it.
Spend practically e entire day with Ru. Seems so long since i last spend long hours w someone. I recalled saying to Hm that we spent almost 14hours together at that time. Its almost like from e time i woke up till e part we slept. Geex. I was so tired at e end, i'm almost too honest with what he asked. Nah, i said i'm not going to say it out now and i meant it. But sometimes, you just go soft-hearted when one pleads too much.
WP and binz ended up quarreling. Hmm, luckily it doesnt concern me. If it was that long ago, who would have been able to remember it? Wp mentioned a possible secenario which just seems damn funny if it was to be true.
Caught Witch Yoo Hee and was addicted to it. Geeeex..one should never trust those lame reviews. It was being branded as so lousy yet it turned out to be so nice!!!
Yesterday was really burnt out. Slept at 6am and woke at 2. Supposed to meet xh and eil but i simply couldnt get myself up after e nap i've gotten myself into.
Caught golden compass and its awesome. Like LOTR, that's stupid sequals to it that would probably stretch a few years to complete. The setting is so out of e world though. Imagine in another world , e species are borne with a demon which takes e form of an animal. Imagine you can just sit on your demon and move around. Pengz cool!!
The scene of e polar bear is damn hilarious too. Geexx, cant wait to complete it.
Spend practically e entire day with Ru. Seems so long since i last spend long hours w someone. I recalled saying to Hm that we spent almost 14hours together at that time. Its almost like from e time i woke up till e part we slept. Geex. I was so tired at e end, i'm almost too honest with what he asked. Nah, i said i'm not going to say it out now and i meant it. But sometimes, you just go soft-hearted when one pleads too much.
WP and binz ended up quarreling. Hmm, luckily it doesnt concern me. If it was that long ago, who would have been able to remember it? Wp mentioned a possible secenario which just seems damn funny if it was to be true.
Caught Witch Yoo Hee and was addicted to it. Geeeex..one should never trust those lame reviews. It was being branded as so lousy yet it turned out to be so nice!!!
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
So, everything is more or less settled and master has been informed. Though master anticipated it, but shock and sudden helplessness was written all over e face.
Sometimes when we probed further, you end up receiving unexpected news. Like hearing e bad news from Geely. Dont really concern her also, but made me felt how duhh i was. Its like here you're at 1 end rattling on about e happy stuff to person A, yet this same person is at e other side hearing all e bad stuffs from another party.
Do I feel bad? No, someone has to make e move first and I'm ahead of Fin. Talking about people i'll miss, definitely Fin is one of them. She's such a darling. JJ's away so he's definitely e last to know. Ru is another one. I'll miss lotsa laughter certainly.
Hmmm, looks like it's some good news you've got over there eh, Jingles? hehe, so happy for you!! Looks like e dinner went great for you! Must constantly keep me updated about you and JJ. You know, I'm very curious too. Curious, i repeat, not KP.
Sometimes when we probed further, you end up receiving unexpected news. Like hearing e bad news from Geely. Dont really concern her also, but made me felt how duhh i was. Its like here you're at 1 end rattling on about e happy stuff to person A, yet this same person is at e other side hearing all e bad stuffs from another party.
Do I feel bad? No, someone has to make e move first and I'm ahead of Fin. Talking about people i'll miss, definitely Fin is one of them. She's such a darling. JJ's away so he's definitely e last to know. Ru is another one. I'll miss lotsa laughter certainly.
Hmmm, looks like it's some good news you've got over there eh, Jingles? hehe, so happy for you!! Looks like e dinner went great for you! Must constantly keep me updated about you and JJ. You know, I'm very curious too. Curious, i repeat, not KP.
Monday, December 03, 2007
Walking in e cold on e way, i cant felt feeling it's all so familiar. I wasnt really freaking cold, but something very familiar striked me. I pondered, but i couldnt recall. WAs it those nights of star-gazing? Then i remembered. It was when i was freaking cold and you wrapped me in a towel. It was just a plain simple way of showing concern.
To be blunt and honest, i guess i simply couldnt. There are times when there is a lot of things i wanted to say but couldnt. Yes i know i am such a moron, dont remind me about it.
Seeing babies on board e train today, so cute and adorable. Yeah, they do deserve to live a blissful life.
Today was like a walk down e memory lane, memories came back. Songs, they played a part too.
Blabbered all my concerns to Eva today. Though she said she could carry everything, i'm glad i was there to carry some stuff for her. Lazied a while before moving off.
Today's exercise was pretty intense! Dinner followed suit. WAs very guilty over a blunder i made. Fancy offering to help but spilling tea all over e poor folk. Corn asked if e poor folk was angry. Of cos not, at least not showing it to me, since i was trying to help. But that made me felt even more guilty and that's a real spoiler.
Yet another day.
To be blunt and honest, i guess i simply couldnt. There are times when there is a lot of things i wanted to say but couldnt. Yes i know i am such a moron, dont remind me about it.
Seeing babies on board e train today, so cute and adorable. Yeah, they do deserve to live a blissful life.
Today was like a walk down e memory lane, memories came back. Songs, they played a part too.
Blabbered all my concerns to Eva today. Though she said she could carry everything, i'm glad i was there to carry some stuff for her. Lazied a while before moving off.
Today's exercise was pretty intense! Dinner followed suit. WAs very guilty over a blunder i made. Fancy offering to help but spilling tea all over e poor folk. Corn asked if e poor folk was angry. Of cos not, at least not showing it to me, since i was trying to help. But that made me felt even more guilty and that's a real spoiler.
Yet another day.
Sunday, December 02, 2007
geeezz.. wind so strong just now that e slipper flew into e sea. There it goes. But it's fun walking barefooted, ;P
Hmm, yummy chicken wings.
All set for the Hero dorama.
All geared for ...........
All set for bed.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz..............
Hmm, yummy chicken wings.
All set for the Hero dorama.
All geared for ...........
All set for bed.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz..............
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Caught the girl who leapt through time from corn. Its really nice. The secenary is beautiful. The evening sky and the plot is great too. So sad towards e end but it ended well. Might not be a bliss to act as you wish at times. Thinking what seems right might end up wrong. Like e part about leaping back when Chaki said that and seeing them getting rammed by e train.
So Gaara was revived. The good thing about Naruto is that major players were never totally eliminated. Even they seems totally beaten at e fight, they regained their skills, lives and composure eventually. Strange was if Gaara got his powers back..given that it was being extracted out earlier on.
Too bad I'll miss Luffy and folks for e time being.
Being worried for nothing this week. Fancy checking the post everyday and finding nothing. But all ends well. Just need to finalise on some details and i'm ready. Sometimes you realise what you want when this happens. Was thinking about xh's issue earlier on and wondered what i would have done if it was me. Asked rain e same question and her answer was direct and straight to e point. Sometimes, we need to look at e whole picture. We might not lose as much as expected.
When all is coming to an end, i suddenly felt everything went so fast. I couldnt even recalled half of it. Like e part about Cathy mentioned it, then i realised what I bought for christmas last year. With JJ somemore. Hmmm, blogging seems inevitablely important, as its a valuable source of retracing my memories.
All that assumptions seems redundant and I guess e reality was far from what i've assumed. But e truth remains buried. Nah, i dont like to be bothered by this kinda mind-boggling stuffs. I prefer some laughter from corn.
I'm glad to be out of e poo though. Though Ju seems to have landed in deeply. The vicious journey has begun, and how long can Ju withstand? Like i told Fin, e barn is nothing but a battlefield and like Tsumade, I've feel i can trust fully. But e thought of steering clear of e poo and landing into a pretty much poo-like area seems equally pathetic though.
Guo Jing's song is nice, but I've yet remembered how e whole song goes.
Attained level 25 status today. Hmm, after no mapling for so long, this seems pretty much an achievement.
As for facebook, it depends on mood. Like CY, e invitations are more than i can manage and there's a long list awaiting and i'm reluctant to sit there clearing all of it.
So Gaara was revived. The good thing about Naruto is that major players were never totally eliminated. Even they seems totally beaten at e fight, they regained their skills, lives and composure eventually. Strange was if Gaara got his powers back..given that it was being extracted out earlier on.
Too bad I'll miss Luffy and folks for e time being.
Being worried for nothing this week. Fancy checking the post everyday and finding nothing. But all ends well. Just need to finalise on some details and i'm ready. Sometimes you realise what you want when this happens. Was thinking about xh's issue earlier on and wondered what i would have done if it was me. Asked rain e same question and her answer was direct and straight to e point. Sometimes, we need to look at e whole picture. We might not lose as much as expected.
When all is coming to an end, i suddenly felt everything went so fast. I couldnt even recalled half of it. Like e part about Cathy mentioned it, then i realised what I bought for christmas last year. With JJ somemore. Hmmm, blogging seems inevitablely important, as its a valuable source of retracing my memories.
All that assumptions seems redundant and I guess e reality was far from what i've assumed. But e truth remains buried. Nah, i dont like to be bothered by this kinda mind-boggling stuffs. I prefer some laughter from corn.
I'm glad to be out of e poo though. Though Ju seems to have landed in deeply. The vicious journey has begun, and how long can Ju withstand? Like i told Fin, e barn is nothing but a battlefield and like Tsumade, I've feel i can trust fully. But e thought of steering clear of e poo and landing into a pretty much poo-like area seems equally pathetic though.
Guo Jing's song is nice, but I've yet remembered how e whole song goes.
Attained level 25 status today. Hmm, after no mapling for so long, this seems pretty much an achievement.
As for facebook, it depends on mood. Like CY, e invitations are more than i can manage and there's a long list awaiting and i'm reluctant to sit there clearing all of it.
