Monday, February 26, 2007
Was pretty surprised when Karen mentioned that some friends are leaving and she just went " why must they go?" That stumped me bit. To me, its like she sounded despondent. Not really, i found out, its just that she 'll miss them.
Anyway, JJ bought KK last friday. Hmm, strange how things goes. We started at e same point, departed along e way and experienced different things from then on. To me, indeed i was surprised. Never doubt e influence of a person and this person, i guess this person just have a magical influence on JJ? Shrugs, i guess i still couldnt get that question out of me. Well, of course, is there something between them? lol...why, why me, always e one to know all e darkest secrets yet had to keep them all to myself. Sighs...
Nothing much really, just that i got home early today and seemed to be of better mood. But i was deat beat. Obviously didnt rest well at all last night, needless to say.
Oh ya, thanks to sl, i busied myself with e blog background again. What to do, i received complaints. So this is the third time i'm revamping it. Ok, there was a version 4a before the 4b right here. But, 4a never lives to see the broad daylight cos it was exterminated when i accidentally close the template before i save.!!!!! Arrrghhh....
So, that's a picture i drew. Anyway, i'll just put it in my gallerry.... and here too. hehh
What e heck is this? This is art, its abstract. haha, you should be able to see 3 people inside. Well, what does it potray? me wanting to race all e way up to the position in e spaceship? Shrugs?
Yea, e other guy is high up yet sat motionless. Why?
By the way, i wasnt thinking of anything when i drew this, purely letting my hand be in full control.
Anyway, JJ bought KK last friday. Hmm, strange how things goes. We started at e same point, departed along e way and experienced different things from then on. To me, indeed i was surprised. Never doubt e influence of a person and this person, i guess this person just have a magical influence on JJ? Shrugs, i guess i still couldnt get that question out of me. Well, of course, is there something between them? lol...why, why me, always e one to know all e darkest secrets yet had to keep them all to myself. Sighs...
Nothing much really, just that i got home early today and seemed to be of better mood. But i was deat beat. Obviously didnt rest well at all last night, needless to say.
Oh ya, thanks to sl, i busied myself with e blog background again. What to do, i received complaints. So this is the third time i'm revamping it. Ok, there was a version 4a before the 4b right here. But, 4a never lives to see the broad daylight cos it was exterminated when i accidentally close the template before i save.!!!!! Arrrghhh....
So, that's a picture i drew. Anyway, i'll just put it in my gallerry.... and here too. hehh
What e heck is this? This is art, its abstract. haha, you should be able to see 3 people inside. Well, what does it potray? me wanting to race all e way up to the position in e spaceship? Shrugs?
Yea, e other guy is high up yet sat motionless. Why?
By the way, i wasnt thinking of anything when i drew this, purely letting my hand be in full control.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Sure is glad that i went for dinner instead of going home at e last minute. Yea i was sleepy, but cooping myself at home on a friday night seems kinda duhh.
Anyway, was so full from e enormous burger from carl that i simply couldnt stuff e last bite down. Chuck it in e wrapper and continue sipping e home-made lemon tea. I thought my stomach would burst.
Ok, gathered a lot of interesting facts which caught my attention, like the y-layout, e truth and fake reasoning behind e road change etc. The view up on e roof was so soothing. Phew...
Then, we went for some mudpie. Ok, so i guess i never tried to remember e difference between tiramisu, brownie and mudpie except they all seemed like some chocolate or coffee beings to me. So, a mudpie is a ice-cream! Whatever!
Kinda silly but i really went to thank crapping mate for inviting me for dinner, least i'm not back at home. Yea, to save me from instant noodles, it claimed.
So, i'm meeting xh and e animals after all and going for just 1 dumb lesson after that. Sheesh, tell me, why did i give in again? To think i was lamenting to JJ earlier on how angry i was as to why i'm e only one accomodating to their requests and not vice versa. Things should and ought to work 2 ways, else its tiring to carry on. Sure is. Yahh, sometimes i just get so tired of abiding by people's requests. Did anyone ever be kind enough to abide by my wishes too? For those who did, Thanks!
Sometimes things just rolls on so smoothly
that a smile develops on that face of yours
and people wonder what's that grin for
as they noticed you
right before their eyes
that's why you realised that
smile that appeared from nowhere
I simply love Fruit basket.
Being peculiar, there's nothing wrong with it.
Being foolish, there's nothing wrong with it either.
It's because of you, that life became better!
I guess we should never find ourselves silly, dumb whatever.
Cos no matter how lousy we've been and how many times we fell and lost our source of strength. Always remember to re-focus and remember where our source of strength is.
Yea, it's from the people that cherish us so.
Anyway, was so full from e enormous burger from carl that i simply couldnt stuff e last bite down. Chuck it in e wrapper and continue sipping e home-made lemon tea. I thought my stomach would burst.
Ok, gathered a lot of interesting facts which caught my attention, like the y-layout, e truth and fake reasoning behind e road change etc. The view up on e roof was so soothing. Phew...
Then, we went for some mudpie. Ok, so i guess i never tried to remember e difference between tiramisu, brownie and mudpie except they all seemed like some chocolate or coffee beings to me. So, a mudpie is a ice-cream! Whatever!
Kinda silly but i really went to thank crapping mate for inviting me for dinner, least i'm not back at home. Yea, to save me from instant noodles, it claimed.
So, i'm meeting xh and e animals after all and going for just 1 dumb lesson after that. Sheesh, tell me, why did i give in again? To think i was lamenting to JJ earlier on how angry i was as to why i'm e only one accomodating to their requests and not vice versa. Things should and ought to work 2 ways, else its tiring to carry on. Sure is. Yahh, sometimes i just get so tired of abiding by people's requests. Did anyone ever be kind enough to abide by my wishes too? For those who did, Thanks!
Sometimes things just rolls on so smoothly
that a smile develops on that face of yours
and people wonder what's that grin for
as they noticed you
right before their eyes
that's why you realised that
smile that appeared from nowhere
I simply love Fruit basket.
Being peculiar, there's nothing wrong with it.
Being foolish, there's nothing wrong with it either.
It's because of you, that life became better!
I guess we should never find ourselves silly, dumb whatever.
Cos no matter how lousy we've been and how many times we fell and lost our source of strength. Always remember to re-focus and remember where our source of strength is.
Yea, it's from the people that cherish us so.
Monday, February 19, 2007
I was posted e question of what i was doing yesterday and i was stumped for a moment, yea what? I was puzzled as well. Then i recalled. I was fully engrossed in revamping e blog that i had no time for other things.
Also, i did a lot of writing. Now, this is e fun part. Even more fun, was sitting down going through all those past pictures and videos collected over e numerous trips. Videos was really a fun thing, Well, it clearly depict the situation then. So seriously giggling to myself as i watched them. Hmmm, hermit's life again..lol.
Had wanted to do some drawings, but was at a loss who to draw. There has to be a purpose to start it in the first place. Like wt, for god knows what reason, i decided to draw a portrait of her. Hmm, probably it was for a DIY birthday card, but its sheer fun. But, drawing without a reason? Its hard.
Ohh ya, my sign this year mentioned that it would be great for me to go into something that involves creativity. Seriously, i've never asked anyone before if they had like the DIY things i've gotten them., so my taste, shrugs? But to go into something that involves creativty is tough, i reckon. Cos like the typical attitude of an eccentric artist, i felt that designing is all about feel, and not a task. So to design something for someone without having that person in mind (eg, not knowing that person at all is tough).
Strange, why did i suddenly side track into this anyway. Talking about signs, my lucky number is 3 and 8 i think and color is blue and lucky direction is south. Reminds me of the Chuuuuuuu bird in ONE piece lol. To have e head facing south regardless of the direction its flying. Woot, that would be tough.
Parts of the sayings of the sign were true though, like me disliking to butt into people's business. Getting into trouble is the least i ever wanted and thus to avoid them is a must. Next, like to be different and wanting to get attention. Hmm...
As for crapping mate's sign, this year seemed like a utterly bad year. Everything is down down down. But, this kinda thing, is entirely up for one to view it. I guess e rule of equivalent trade works still, so it cant be that bad.
The most spectcular thing about the lightup is the brightly lit-ed padagon (Ermm, obviously i had no idea how to spell). Made of latern-like creme paper in hues of red and green. The whole padgon was luminated using small bulbs stuck in between 2 sheets of creme paper that made up e wall. Its unimaginably beautiful. Reminds me of the japanese movie. Shrugs, cant remind the title. The one by the same director that made howl's moving castle.
Awed from the ridiculous-ness of people though, like e obaasan that overturned her umbrella, all ready to capture all e gold flakes that would litter e crowd (Casted from the fortune god i was told) and flocks of people crowded near e fake fortune god.(anyone can tell he's just a person like you and me but dressed in an ancient outfit)
Just as i wondered if everyone was celebrating e new year in e embrace of their relatives, as i sat in e cold empty train, i realised where all the people were.
Also, i did a lot of writing. Now, this is e fun part. Even more fun, was sitting down going through all those past pictures and videos collected over e numerous trips. Videos was really a fun thing, Well, it clearly depict the situation then. So seriously giggling to myself as i watched them. Hmmm, hermit's life again..lol.
Had wanted to do some drawings, but was at a loss who to draw. There has to be a purpose to start it in the first place. Like wt, for god knows what reason, i decided to draw a portrait of her. Hmm, probably it was for a DIY birthday card, but its sheer fun. But, drawing without a reason? Its hard.
Ohh ya, my sign this year mentioned that it would be great for me to go into something that involves creativity. Seriously, i've never asked anyone before if they had like the DIY things i've gotten them., so my taste, shrugs? But to go into something that involves creativty is tough, i reckon. Cos like the typical attitude of an eccentric artist, i felt that designing is all about feel, and not a task. So to design something for someone without having that person in mind (eg, not knowing that person at all is tough).
Strange, why did i suddenly side track into this anyway. Talking about signs, my lucky number is 3 and 8 i think and color is blue and lucky direction is south. Reminds me of the Chuuuuuuu bird in ONE piece lol. To have e head facing south regardless of the direction its flying. Woot, that would be tough.
Parts of the sayings of the sign were true though, like me disliking to butt into people's business. Getting into trouble is the least i ever wanted and thus to avoid them is a must. Next, like to be different and wanting to get attention. Hmm...
As for crapping mate's sign, this year seemed like a utterly bad year. Everything is down down down. But, this kinda thing, is entirely up for one to view it. I guess e rule of equivalent trade works still, so it cant be that bad.
The most spectcular thing about the lightup is the brightly lit-ed padagon (Ermm, obviously i had no idea how to spell). Made of latern-like creme paper in hues of red and green. The whole padgon was luminated using small bulbs stuck in between 2 sheets of creme paper that made up e wall. Its unimaginably beautiful. Reminds me of the japanese movie. Shrugs, cant remind the title. The one by the same director that made howl's moving castle.
Awed from the ridiculous-ness of people though, like e obaasan that overturned her umbrella, all ready to capture all e gold flakes that would litter e crowd (Casted from the fortune god i was told) and flocks of people crowded near e fake fortune god.(anyone can tell he's just a person like you and me but dressed in an ancient outfit)
Just as i wondered if everyone was celebrating e new year in e embrace of their relatives, as i sat in e cold empty train, i realised where all the people were.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Its e 3rd time i actually revamped e blog. First version was green header, then orange and the latest comes with this wallpaper (God knows where i downloaded it from ages ago?). I've been wanting to give my blog a decent skin but hasnt got e time and patience to sit down and do it. Its pretty fun to twitch parts of e blog though its really time consuming (as i'm really a goonball with html, let alone css). Guess there's still lots things i can improve on if i had e time to read up on this.
I guess changing the words to pink rather than dark green sorta livens the feel. Haah, and what a coincidence too, i bought a bright pick tee today!!
What got me really fustrated as i was revamping the blog was e constant humming of the song. So much so that i swopped the current song off immediately after works were completed. You just have no idea how scary it is to hear repeats of the song for like tenfold over times.
WAs strolling back home from another route today, e uncommon path i normally wont take and it was such a beauty. I meant the surrounding. Seldom do i pass by this stretch nor did i really halt to admire the beauty of it. Was it because i was light-headed that things seems way nicer? Shrugs..
I guess changing the words to pink rather than dark green sorta livens the feel. Haah, and what a coincidence too, i bought a bright pick tee today!!
What got me really fustrated as i was revamping the blog was e constant humming of the song. So much so that i swopped the current song off immediately after works were completed. You just have no idea how scary it is to hear repeats of the song for like tenfold over times.
WAs strolling back home from another route today, e uncommon path i normally wont take and it was such a beauty. I meant the surrounding. Seldom do i pass by this stretch nor did i really halt to admire the beauty of it. Was it because i was light-headed that things seems way nicer? Shrugs..
Friday, February 16, 2007
Started on a new anime series today. Wasnt really new, in fact its so so old. Was stuck at Goong and was wondering what to watch next and fumbled through my collection.
So, i started watching fruit basket, the much raved about anime that was aired on tv couple months back?
So it's nice, what can i say? Typical anime that leaves you grinning at points of it. Phewww, a solid 24 episodes, should be able to be done with it when this festive holidays ends!!
I wanna go blading too, but can I? sighs.
Probably i should have engaged in some new stuffs.
So, i started watching fruit basket, the much raved about anime that was aired on tv couple months back?
So it's nice, what can i say? Typical anime that leaves you grinning at points of it. Phewww, a solid 24 episodes, should be able to be done with it when this festive holidays ends!!
I wanna go blading too, but can I? sighs.
Probably i should have engaged in some new stuffs.
I'm not being mean, really aint.
Mum always like to say,"why dont you just cancel it." Darn it man, what's this? Stay at home and look at you? Oh you meant to say that this would be more fun?
Coming to think of it, like Eva too, i wish for a home of my own. I can live life as i wish and not subjected to any fuss and definitely more privacy. No fuss from mum asking silly questions like
"So you dont want to throw this away?"
"Nope"
"Why dont you want to? Place it there for what?"
*silence*
"Do you want to throw it away?"
Darn, how many times do i have to repeat myself? Geeexx.
Probably that's why i like to stay out.
Sometimes its not hard to imagine why crime rates are so high these days.
Mum always like to say,"why dont you just cancel it." Darn it man, what's this? Stay at home and look at you? Oh you meant to say that this would be more fun?
Coming to think of it, like Eva too, i wish for a home of my own. I can live life as i wish and not subjected to any fuss and definitely more privacy. No fuss from mum asking silly questions like
"So you dont want to throw this away?"
"Nope"
"Why dont you want to? Place it there for what?"
*silence*
"Do you want to throw it away?"
Darn, how many times do i have to repeat myself? Geeexx.
Probably that's why i like to stay out.
Sometimes its not hard to imagine why crime rates are so high these days.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Hmmm, doubt my taste at times, haah. Sometimes can be pretty insistant in what i believe in and seems to shut off all other stuffs. Like yesterday, i somehow decided the only worth-while movie to catch was protege.
Ok, its a typical hong kong movie where efforts had been put in to ensure its quality. But, its kinda too serious and depressing for me.
“究竟是吸毒恐怖，还是空虚恐怖!” The show started with this and ended with this. But humans, we're just humans. Just like e way i like to immerse myself in e booze and the dancefloor at times. Self-control, its important not to lose sight of it. But, at those moments of desperate, does your mind still functions?
Yea, like a silly dodo, i prefer a more light-hearted flick like Norbit. If only i havent shut in off e moment i saw its poster as i thought of it as some super lame one.
But eddie murphy is really good man..haah, was laughing through the trailer of Norbit. Strangely, he just like to portray many characters in a single movie.
There's classes today as well, but there's a huge gap of like a solid 5 hours in between. Should i just shuffle the last lesson to another day so i'll be off for the day? But, i dont really feel like procasinating. This week is pretty much a loaf around day so i should clear whatever clutter i could first, shouldnt i?
Long time since i walk in the night. Just enjoying e night breeze and not in a hurry to get home. Gosh, i gonna become a hermit at the rate i'm going, or am i already one??lol.....
Sighs, almost time for classes!!!
Ok, its a typical hong kong movie where efforts had been put in to ensure its quality. But, its kinda too serious and depressing for me.
“究竟是吸毒恐怖，还是空虚恐怖!” The show started with this and ended with this. But humans, we're just humans. Just like e way i like to immerse myself in e booze and the dancefloor at times. Self-control, its important not to lose sight of it. But, at those moments of desperate, does your mind still functions?
Yea, like a silly dodo, i prefer a more light-hearted flick like Norbit. If only i havent shut in off e moment i saw its poster as i thought of it as some super lame one.
But eddie murphy is really good man..haah, was laughing through the trailer of Norbit. Strangely, he just like to portray many characters in a single movie.
There's classes today as well, but there's a huge gap of like a solid 5 hours in between. Should i just shuffle the last lesson to another day so i'll be off for the day? But, i dont really feel like procasinating. This week is pretty much a loaf around day so i should clear whatever clutter i could first, shouldnt i?
Long time since i walk in the night. Just enjoying e night breeze and not in a hurry to get home. Gosh, i gonna become a hermit at the rate i'm going, or am i already one??lol.....
Sighs, almost time for classes!!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Nostalgic
That's e word i wanna use but somehow cant manage to spell it out in e last blog entry. That's just so lame. Worse still, i realise i dont even know how to pronnounce it. Little wonder why i cant even make out the spelling. lol.
Today seems like a pretty happy day. Stayed up real late last night as suddenly felt like doing some more clearing up before Zzz and e more i did, e more enthuestic i get. So, before i know it, its almost 3am. Gosh...so i practically didnt want to get up in the morning for medicine when the alarm goes off. After a hard time, i got up, dump e pills in and Zzzzzz till 130pm.
Its real scary to go back to bed when one is in an unclear state!! I could have missed my lessons today!!
Anyway, its good to go out for a breather though it look ridiculous with that face of mine. lol. Fortunately, people were nice enough not to stare or did I not notice it?
Anyway, i better Zzz earlier tonight and wake earlier tomorrow. Tons of errands tomorrow. Phew, luckily mum aid me in clearing those piles of rubbish down those recycle bins. Actually i was a bit hesitant after e first round, but hey, i saw 2 bags waiting neatly at the doorway. So, there goes e second trip. But its really nice to see e table so clean and free of clutter of plastic bags and rubbish.
I end off with a song from ages back. I realise Ren Xian Qi 's songs are really nice. Hmm and its been ages since i last heard it, thanks little fella!! Well, he always seems to have that Xiao1 Sha3 and Shuan4 Qi image. Even in this song, he project that exact same feel. Like tears never seems to land in his dictionary and that he takes everything with a pitch of salt. Thought of him when i heard the song, like how he is in "Marry a rich man".
Absolute happiness? I seriously dont believe in it. Even when things just goes unbelievely smooth and blessed. Am i a pesimistic? Probably, i just have this believe that nothing lasts forever and happiness? Its not here to stay for long, though it all depends on how long you thought of it to be. So, enjoy it while you're in the midst of it. lol.
And i'm munching on some pineapple tarts now. Shhh.....
I wanna add on that despite having 3 meals of porriage (without any meat in it, just totally plain, but containing e taste of a typical pork porriage), i still go gaga for more. Its just so deliciously yummy. You should have looked at my glutton look, hahaah.
Today seems like a pretty happy day. Stayed up real late last night as suddenly felt like doing some more clearing up before Zzz and e more i did, e more enthuestic i get. So, before i know it, its almost 3am. Gosh...so i practically didnt want to get up in the morning for medicine when the alarm goes off. After a hard time, i got up, dump e pills in and Zzzzzz till 130pm.
Its real scary to go back to bed when one is in an unclear state!! I could have missed my lessons today!!
Anyway, its good to go out for a breather though it look ridiculous with that face of mine. lol. Fortunately, people were nice enough not to stare or did I not notice it?
Anyway, i better Zzz earlier tonight and wake earlier tomorrow. Tons of errands tomorrow. Phew, luckily mum aid me in clearing those piles of rubbish down those recycle bins. Actually i was a bit hesitant after e first round, but hey, i saw 2 bags waiting neatly at the doorway. So, there goes e second trip. But its really nice to see e table so clean and free of clutter of plastic bags and rubbish.
I end off with a song from ages back. I realise Ren Xian Qi 's songs are really nice. Hmm and its been ages since i last heard it, thanks little fella!! Well, he always seems to have that Xiao1 Sha3 and Shuan4 Qi image. Even in this song, he project that exact same feel. Like tears never seems to land in his dictionary and that he takes everything with a pitch of salt. Thought of him when i heard the song, like how he is in "Marry a rich man".
Absolute happiness? I seriously dont believe in it. Even when things just goes unbelievely smooth and blessed. Am i a pesimistic? Probably, i just have this believe that nothing lasts forever and happiness? Its not here to stay for long, though it all depends on how long you thought of it to be. So, enjoy it while you're in the midst of it. lol.
And i'm munching on some pineapple tarts now. Shhh.....
I wanna add on that despite having 3 meals of porriage (without any meat in it, just totally plain, but containing e taste of a typical pork porriage), i still go gaga for more. Its just so deliciously yummy. You should have looked at my glutton look, hahaah.
Monday, February 12, 2007
aaaaww, feeling sleepy since i got home. Nah..dont think the anesthetic that strong. Geexxx but didnt really felt like wasting my time in bed.
This time round, it hurts more. Gosh, and the anesthetic hasnt even worn off, god knows how much it'll be later. And here it was, more blood than before. The sink was covered with it and it kinda freak me out.
Shrugs, was kinda freak out during e op, as though i wont be able to make it and some faces appeared infront of me.
continued at 730pm
blood seems to clear, cos didnt feel those blood clots there anymore, phew, but gonna just let the pressure stay a little longer. Arrrghh,, i'm hungry!!
WAs pretty worried yesterday as there's aching around e joint and op might be forced to be aborted. Luckily, some antiseptic mouthwash saved e day. The thought of aborting it and going back to the barn seems really unpleasant.
Sometimes cannot not believe the sheer concidence in life. Like earlier on, i decided to go to that particular stall, and probably pl and folk landed in that particular table. So, i heard a familar call for my name and Tata!!
Checked out the lubricant for the blades before going for op. Geezz, was utterly wrong, so i didnt have to apply any lubricant between e surface where the bearings meet the "stick".
shopped a little too. Hahh, saw some really nice clothes and really felt like buying. But too bad was really short for time. duhz. Yea, should just leave earlier next time.
These couple of days was like some travelling into the past, was exposed to old diaries and songs that i used hear. You know, sometimes when time passes, your perception of the event gets distorted and the whole thing just gets more vague. But, e old diaries revived e entire truth. But, e handwriting of mine is really atrocious, can hardly understand what e fuk i wrote, lol. Yea, i should really make a effort to write everyday. But i'm lazy to write leh, i rather type my way through it.
Oh yahhh, was reminded of how your QAF and decided to see it again. Strangely, i've never properly sat down and watched through e entire series. Guess i cant behaved nochalently like you bah. Gravitation has been that awesome. And i was reminded how i craze over the ost and the characters.
As usuals, its something i can rave about only to myself. It seems like i'm some alien that decended from a distant planet. Things people might have experienced it now, i've done it a thousand light years ago and things i've done, probably they've never done it before and never will.
Looking at the things you like
Hearing the things you like
A bittersweet feeling surfaces
how can something i like so much
be so bitter to me
Like surfing a rough patch of sea
the waves makes you wanna puke
yet e excitment that runs in e blood
is so welcoming
Ever had people asking you why you like this so much and how you got to eat or know a particular thing or why you behave in that manner? I did and i'm left speechless. I guess there's a lot of things you've no answer for. No, not really no answer, but just that one doesnt wanna reveal that e answer has been in the pocket all along. So, a mere ignorance seems better.
The past is over and i never want to go back to it. A second time did not meant things will turn out better. Me, i can only live to revive the memories of it. I realised i've been too much of a worrier, always worrying over this and that. Would I have been happier if i've been honest with how i felt? Definitely. I would have be able to explain how i behave that way.
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看著凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
This time round, it hurts more. Gosh, and the anesthetic hasnt even worn off, god knows how much it'll be later. And here it was, more blood than before. The sink was covered with it and it kinda freak me out.
Shrugs, was kinda freak out during e op, as though i wont be able to make it and some faces appeared infront of me.
continued at 730pm
blood seems to clear, cos didnt feel those blood clots there anymore, phew, but gonna just let the pressure stay a little longer. Arrrghh,, i'm hungry!!
WAs pretty worried yesterday as there's aching around e joint and op might be forced to be aborted. Luckily, some antiseptic mouthwash saved e day. The thought of aborting it and going back to the barn seems really unpleasant.
Sometimes cannot not believe the sheer concidence in life. Like earlier on, i decided to go to that particular stall, and probably pl and folk landed in that particular table. So, i heard a familar call for my name and Tata!!
Checked out the lubricant for the blades before going for op. Geezz, was utterly wrong, so i didnt have to apply any lubricant between e surface where the bearings meet the "stick".
shopped a little too. Hahh, saw some really nice clothes and really felt like buying. But too bad was really short for time. duhz. Yea, should just leave earlier next time.
These couple of days was like some travelling into the past, was exposed to old diaries and songs that i used hear. You know, sometimes when time passes, your perception of the event gets distorted and the whole thing just gets more vague. But, e old diaries revived e entire truth. But, e handwriting of mine is really atrocious, can hardly understand what e fuk i wrote, lol. Yea, i should really make a effort to write everyday. But i'm lazy to write leh, i rather type my way through it.
Oh yahhh, was reminded of how your QAF and decided to see it again. Strangely, i've never properly sat down and watched through e entire series. Guess i cant behaved nochalently like you bah. Gravitation has been that awesome. And i was reminded how i craze over the ost and the characters.
As usuals, its something i can rave about only to myself. It seems like i'm some alien that decended from a distant planet. Things people might have experienced it now, i've done it a thousand light years ago and things i've done, probably they've never done it before and never will.
Looking at the things you like
Hearing the things you like
A bittersweet feeling surfaces
how can something i like so much
be so bitter to me
Like surfing a rough patch of sea
the waves makes you wanna puke
yet e excitment that runs in e blood
is so welcoming
Ever had people asking you why you like this so much and how you got to eat or know a particular thing or why you behave in that manner? I did and i'm left speechless. I guess there's a lot of things you've no answer for. No, not really no answer, but just that one doesnt wanna reveal that e answer has been in the pocket all along. So, a mere ignorance seems better.
The past is over and i never want to go back to it. A second time did not meant things will turn out better. Me, i can only live to revive the memories of it. I realised i've been too much of a worrier, always worrying over this and that. Would I have been happier if i've been honest with how i felt? Definitely. I would have be able to explain how i behave that way.
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看著凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Geexxx..just as i wanted and ready to step out of the house, bro reminded me again that he's selling e old computer and i have to clear whatever i want from it by tomorrow or never. So, there goes my plans of going out earlier.
Pretty insane, but i woke up at 5 today. Had a shower and started rumbling through my stuffs. Cleared much but left much behind. The next task was some quick sweeping and shifting to make way for e table.
So, DIY things aint that easy after all. They come cheap for a reason. Spent probably 6 hours fixing it??! yea..and ended with a blistered hand. Fortunately i need not hold a pen much. Well, e horror from this was fixing part of it up only to realise i got it wrong. REDO..!! That's how it ended with a recording-breaking 6 hours. Others would be trying to get the freaking screw into e un-threaded wood. Geeeexxx..
Guess i must really be becoming deity. Havent been eating since yesterday. Not breakfast, lunch or dinner. Nor today's breakfast or lunch. Dont ask me why, just didnt somehow. All i had was bananas and pineapple tarts and my stomach felt slightly hungry now.
Hey pal , your cambodia entry looks tempting, but hmmm, dont think i can join. Sorry.
Yea, and mentioning about fly-aeroplane bin. She won big time. Flew it this morning and didnt even bothering saying so. Luckily i was busy clearing stuffs, else i would have blown my top.
Pretty insane, but i woke up at 5 today. Had a shower and started rumbling through my stuffs. Cleared much but left much behind. The next task was some quick sweeping and shifting to make way for e table.
So, DIY things aint that easy after all. They come cheap for a reason. Spent probably 6 hours fixing it??! yea..and ended with a blistered hand. Fortunately i need not hold a pen much. Well, e horror from this was fixing part of it up only to realise i got it wrong. REDO..!! That's how it ended with a recording-breaking 6 hours. Others would be trying to get the freaking screw into e un-threaded wood. Geeeexxx..
Guess i must really be becoming deity. Havent been eating since yesterday. Not breakfast, lunch or dinner. Nor today's breakfast or lunch. Dont ask me why, just didnt somehow. All i had was bananas and pineapple tarts and my stomach felt slightly hungry now.
Hey pal , your cambodia entry looks tempting, but hmmm, dont think i can join. Sorry.
Yea, and mentioning about fly-aeroplane bin. She won big time. Flew it this morning and didnt even bothering saying so. Luckily i was busy clearing stuffs, else i would have blown my top.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
I look happy but i'm not.......
I dont even find it true, cos i dont think i look happy.
But i ought to be. So why aint i?
Realised people i thought are doing well, aint really. WG is fed up with work, so is sh and bin. Is it that hard to get a decent cosy job? Why e heck do we have to work like a mule and been put through all those things that worked against our principles? It just feels so good to share it with someone who understands it.yea..i'll learn to keep by it.
Geexx..after much delibrate delays, i finally got my mp3 player. WAs really in a terrible headache as to which to choose and whether i should just heck it and part with more $$. Then , like godsend, i saw it appearing with a price drop. Geexxx, typical mindset of a well brought-up country folk, i guess there must be some catch to it and whether to quickly grab it before its all sold out!! Geexxx..i did of cos, and came home to surf e site only to realise e price drop did not apply only to that shop because of opening sales!
But anyway, I GOT IT!!!!
Usuals will be thrown into another round dilemna of whether to pay a little more to get a whooping 4G, or just be overwhelmed with the price drop in 2G and snap it. Geexx.. i never failed to be amazed at the little things that can drain my brain juice so.
Its a really a brilliant little fella and i love it so. Was thinking initally that i'll get it only if i get my license , as some sort of rewards, but hey whhoooh..I GOT IT.
Wednesday was fine, managed to roam a little in chinatown to get some stuffs. Didnt really mingle into the crowded streets to experience the festive moods though. Merely passing by it. Dinner wasnt that fine though. Though everyone was gathered there, there isnt really much communciations between everyone. I thought too that e postcard was kinda lame, but at least it served its purpose. Frankly, you dont need a woohoo expensive card to get e message across. Usuals, people just wrote on typical best - of - luck messages.
Best of luck for me-operation on monday!!!
But i ought to be. So why aint i?
Realised people i thought are doing well, aint really. WG is fed up with work, so is sh and bin. Is it that hard to get a decent cosy job? Why e heck do we have to work like a mule and been put through all those things that worked against our principles? It just feels so good to share it with someone who understands it.yea..i'll learn to keep by it.
Geexx..after much delibrate delays, i finally got my mp3 player. WAs really in a terrible headache as to which to choose and whether i should just heck it and part with more $$. Then , like godsend, i saw it appearing with a price drop. Geexxx, typical mindset of a well brought-up country folk, i guess there must be some catch to it and whether to quickly grab it before its all sold out!! Geexxx..i did of cos, and came home to surf e site only to realise e price drop did not apply only to that shop because of opening sales!
But anyway, I GOT IT!!!!
Usuals will be thrown into another round dilemna of whether to pay a little more to get a whooping 4G, or just be overwhelmed with the price drop in 2G and snap it. Geexx.. i never failed to be amazed at the little things that can drain my brain juice so.
Its a really a brilliant little fella and i love it so. Was thinking initally that i'll get it only if i get my license , as some sort of rewards, but hey whhoooh..I GOT IT.
Wednesday was fine, managed to roam a little in chinatown to get some stuffs. Didnt really mingle into the crowded streets to experience the festive moods though. Merely passing by it. Dinner wasnt that fine though. Though everyone was gathered there, there isnt really much communciations between everyone. I thought too that e postcard was kinda lame, but at least it served its purpose. Frankly, you dont need a woohoo expensive card to get e message across. Usuals, people just wrote on typical best - of - luck messages.
Best of luck for me-operation on monday!!!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Geeez..my voice just cracked and trailed off as i sang along with e melody. Just realised today that e new song on my blog is purely melody. Nevertheless, its just as nice. After all, i've got his voice played along in my brain.
Hmm, you should have give some credits to the food in the new food court, after all its once from the infamous canteen. And i thought cruising around in the heavy downpour was more scary and tedious than the babies and sisters alone.
yea..disgusting black holes ...with ever-gaasping appitetes for food bits sounds so familiar.
Today seems kinda relaxing though it didnt really started well. Woke up late realising i have to leave for driving soon. As usuals, was up to mischief first and rushing like mad after that. Put up the cny decos i bought in moo land excitedly only to receive dis-heartening remarks from mum. Well, she never fails to dampen one's moods. Thanks mum, thanks!!
Rushed to shower, ate and out to board the train. Alas, missed the bus and walked crazily to the centre. Was like a mad man with bushy hair when i reached. Today was fun. Screeching sounds of tires!! and sudden brakes. As if on some joy rides.
Went hunting for tables today all e way down east. Could have not ventured that far, but thought of exploring. Well, not much of choices since pretty much know what i want.
Learn a couple new stuff today, like a brand new way to mathematics and e amazingly yummy porriage. If only everyday can be so relaxing and blessed.
Bluiey shark ,
hey you look so fine
you blow my mind
Can i?
discard e worldly views ..........
back at 0218h geez..interrupted just now......
finished packing some presents i received just now..hahahaha. didnt expect so many though and had a hard time fitting them in. I recounted them, its 8, though i somehow remembered them as 9. YeaaH!! my first twig in a box..*grins* Now there is another first after the jumbo box i received!!
Hmm, you should have give some credits to the food in the new food court, after all its once from the infamous canteen. And i thought cruising around in the heavy downpour was more scary and tedious than the babies and sisters alone.
yea..disgusting black holes ...with ever-gaasping appitetes for food bits sounds so familiar.
Today seems kinda relaxing though it didnt really started well. Woke up late realising i have to leave for driving soon. As usuals, was up to mischief first and rushing like mad after that. Put up the cny decos i bought in moo land excitedly only to receive dis-heartening remarks from mum. Well, she never fails to dampen one's moods. Thanks mum, thanks!!
Rushed to shower, ate and out to board the train. Alas, missed the bus and walked crazily to the centre. Was like a mad man with bushy hair when i reached. Today was fun. Screeching sounds of tires!! and sudden brakes. As if on some joy rides.
Went hunting for tables today all e way down east. Could have not ventured that far, but thought of exploring. Well, not much of choices since pretty much know what i want.
Learn a couple new stuff today, like a brand new way to mathematics and e amazingly yummy porriage. If only everyday can be so relaxing and blessed.
Bluiey shark ,
hey you look so fine
you blow my mind
Can i?
discard e worldly views ..........
back at 0218h geez..interrupted just now......
finished packing some presents i received just now..hahahaha. didnt expect so many though and had a hard time fitting them in. I recounted them, its 8, though i somehow remembered them as 9. YeaaH!! my first twig in a box..*grins* Now there is another first after the jumbo box i received!!
