I wanna have an alice too!!~

The dream so vivid. Geex.

Imagine moving in shown e way to a room with 3 beds laid in a similar fashion side by side. The windows are at e far end tightly shut. Few of e indian girls were seated on their beds. The floor is full of fine brown dust, similar to that i used to experience in a dusty, noisy, enclosed environment where dust filled e air and clearly visible under light. As if i was on a beach but the ground was casted with a centimeter of fine dust that covered e ground partially.

I was then brought to my room, 2 doors away from e first room. The house or apartment was of high ceilings and e walls were of white color.

Similar to e first room,one bed stood aloof against e wall, of direction perpendicular to that of e beds in e first room. Similarly, a simple metal silver frame with white bedsheets. Similar yellowish-brownish dust filled e floor and a similar noise came from e window. I decided to open e window and i saw e dirty-green duct bent in a similar fashion, vibrating. Afar, probably across e street, rows and rows of flatted industrial plants stood. Suddenly i understood e reason for e dust. Dust flew in so rapidly that i quickly shut e window after that. No wonder e window was shut all e time. I felt that how could this kind of harsh living conditions possibly exist in our modern day and e girls aint even complaining about it at all. Later on, i saw wilson telling me he had no choice as he wasnt allowed to view e room before he signed e contract.

In a totally separate dream, i tried to scale up a bright yellow spiral metal stairway to e top, using my hands to grab and pulling myself upwards.

If you asked me why i had such an absurd dream, i have no idea. Nothing seems to be related to me, what i'm up to lately. But probably some points in my recent events sparked off that. Like wilson not as a person, or e brief view of e barn.

That aside, i'm glad to have time to relax finally, after a hectic week, not having to be packed with endless activities. Seated infront of e computer, doing whatever, taking my time, and finally dozing off. Walking slowly in e mall, popping into e stores wherever something caught my eyes. Totally lost track of time. There isnt a need to check e watch, cos i'm not rushing. Great feeling!

Started on e animation works. I didnt realised it's so tedious. Or probably it was because i'm a layman. Frankly, i havent even begun e actual animation, merely getting e bits and pieces ready.

Jeff mentioned that's a little over-killed. But i was entirely puttting it together for god's sake, but a partially because i've always wanted to get started with it and now there's a reason for it. Suddenly it dawned on me that computer design/graphics really isnt easy. No wonder designers can spend hours and hours infront of e square screen.

Narnia. Would it be nicer than accuracy of death?

Done with fireworks, e ending is a little dang though. Why would she suddenly give up just like that? Really that much touched by e two of them? Did she ever loved him or merely making use of him throughout? Her intentions, i still cant farham.

But i guessed, you dont really have to be with e person to be happy? Being near, knowing he/she is doing well, happy and providing that hand wherever it is needed is good enough.

So it happen again. DAng.

Its really tough, believe me.

The sky is brilliant, so is e temperature. Luckily i'm not frozen.

Toads are scary and i cant help clinging as close as possible.

Waffle is strangely yummy.

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing

Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart

People often hesitate at the critical moments.

I did. In fact, i'm stumped. So stumped that i cant say anything. Not a single word. Just merely stoning as i sipped e drink. I cant believe that it's so hard to ask a simple thing.

Once, my hesitation caused my blunder too.

Twice, it shall happen again.

The burning question shall be asked.

The un-enlightened one shall be shown e truth.

And me, i promise to stay away for a week if my wish is granted. Please let me have my wish.

I'm in desperate need for rest. Fancy dozing off just like that on e bus and in a state of total confusion as to where i am. Geex.

Sometimes i take few steps forward, only to take a few steps backward.

Like that when will i be able to make it to e line?!

anyway,tomorrow is e day. Hopefully i'll be able to compose myself and get through it.

this was e opening theme for today's dinner. Lotsa of familar faces, some that probably one havent seen for so many years.

Seeing JK again after so long seems strange. Didnt really talked but merely stood together. Guess probably we didnt wanted to be reminded of it again.

Was Vern like that in e past? I cant remember. Some people just seems like a passerby in your life. You knew of their existances but somehow you didnt really knew them well. So, it's damn damn damn difficult to strike a conversation, let alone maintain it.

The show in e afternoon is really nice. Geex. Probably i should had sat down and watched it ages ago.

Well, it's good to not think too much!
Just do it.
Be yourself.
Do the right thing.
Enjoy e moment.


The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

i didnt know that my words are that accurate.

So bad luck did arrive after all. If it wasnt as bad as Ed said, is something worser going to happen?

I seriously didnt like e idea that my outcome is partially in e hands of someone who probably didnt have a good opinion of me.

I didnt like it even more that i still cant escape e clutches of e barn. Put it plainly, i didnt really want to have anything to do with e barn anymore. Why am i stil being dragged back in again?

That aside, recalled something said to me.

A yellow cloth covering it doesnt meant that
what's beneath is a table
A glittering yellow metal
does not meant a gold ring is what it is
Isnt it time for us to learn to look beyond e box?

ME? yer, i'm learning to break out of e routine. Out of my little habit.

But why am i asking someone else when i dont really feel okay myself?

Not feeling depressed, just a little disturbed by e letter.

Suddenly i felt like i'm forcing my thinking across again.

Probably i felt that you're thinking this way, and i trying to help you attain it, but is this really what you wanted?

Judging from e article, i think i might really be suffering from e syndrome. After all, my activity rate seems to have decreased rapidly since then. No wonder i'm feeling so tired these days. I'm not being lazy, hahah, i'm just sick.

still waiting for my turn for a hot shower. Erm, probably cold instead since it's freaking hot these days!

Ok, you're right about getting together allows everyone to know everyone's preference better. And, i'm sure amazed at you guys. Your ablilty at those fast tracks and getting so high, entertained and engrossed in it!

Umm, e next challenge would be to master some of e fast ones though that seems a pretty unattainable feat!

The trek was insanely delighting! Though i missed joining e folk at kk, god unveiled a pleasant surprise for me, if i'm willing to accept it. I did, chose it over a dip in e pool and i was rewarded with abundant greenery and much untouched habitat. Though i was perspiring profusely, e amazing sight was definitely worth e effort. E bridges we covered and e sunset, oh well, missed it just by a bit. Though e sun got behind e trees, e sunlight that beamed through tained e sky with orange hue, matched with e greyness of e clouds.

I almost forgot i'm right smack in this island.

The moon was such a beauty but sadly e camera failed to capture it. So big, so memerising. But, tonight's was of a brilliantly bright clear mode.

Ummm... well like her, i cant felt thinking something seems like it's bound to happen when i feel that i'm so blessed.

blogging at a very weird timing.

WAs clearing my emails and rampaging through some mails. Mails are a good thing cos it brings back memories, which that's practically none left in my brain.

Reading those mails, i can still feel e anguish, anger and sadness in them. But what was my reply most of the time, i seriously couldnt recall. I was surprised as well in e rare mail, those that contained what i wrote when e sender replies me together with what i wrote earlier on.

Whatever that happened. As time passes by, things get distorted, facts get distorted by my silly brain, but e emails serves to be a clear indicator, some evidence of what really happened. I realised my grammer and spelling are horrendous in those days.

So i did backed out far more than i expected it to be. Why? Sorry, but i had chosen not to say and lamely covered it by giving a generalised answer. Things, they are better left unsaid.

Though i said such things, sometimes i preferred communication through e virtual world as well. It seems easier, way easier to talk about anything under e sun.

Everybody has a story to tell. I disappeared in you, you disappeared from me.

Nothing much again, lol. Just that some events that happened recently got me reminded of this song by Tao Ze. Used to be one of my favourites on my playlist.



Was stunned that i felt that way for what caught me unwaware.

Forbidden kingdom was lame, not much, given a strong cast and for a heavily-invested movie? But e part about white hair lady using her own hair to climb up was hilarious though someone thought "why can't it be a running monk" is more funny.

If i were to compare, i guess neither ironman nor forbidden kingdom is insanely awesome..

The art of combat, or rather self-combat was really delightful to learn but irkingly painful. But, e experience was great.

The ring. Was dazzling beautiful though.

Nothing much, just that the conscious cant never overpower e sub and e oblivious state killed us all.

Dreams can only be dreams unless e wimp decides to react differently.

I wish i can look longer,
I wish i can talk more,
I wish..

I cant do it after all. .

Maurfus did e ultimate deed again. DAMN.

Ger said that it's strange that a young lad like me yearn for a simple life. Well, life can be very easily contented if you had what you wish for.

想太多 - 李玖哲 (MV)


我不配 - Zhou Jie Lun


It's kinda funny especially you dreamt of something and then something similar happens.

So maple syrup tastes this way. That distinct taste that's slightly different from honey.

so amazed. .

Like a little kid. .

being oblivious again . .