Sunday, March 30, 2008

I figured out that i cant study anyway.

So i decided to blog instead. Bleah!~

Today's dinner is like What? and What! .

Reason is because everyone seems speechless most of e time and i'm e one trying to dab a foot in to stir up new topics consistently.

Rain said i've become witty suddenly. Nah, like yukino, just suddenly becoming more myself. What ever i feel like doing, just do it. Be it i'm evil, i'm not afraid to let it known.

Yes, i am evil.

Realised that i made a blunder and come to think of it now, i'm surprised that it didnt hit me deeply. Why? Has e stress finally decided to lead a different path finally?

Like a ham out of e cage, exploring e terrain and finding everything seemly interesting. Forsee myself dabbing more into this in e days to come and it's a good headstart, though at a wrong period.

Caught a movie alone for e first time in my life and it didnt seems that bad. If it wasnt for that, i wouldnt done it anyway.

Vantage point is kick ass. Shockingly saddening and impactful. Damn.

Was surprised when Naru presented it to me. It was an awfully nice gesture!! Was reminded of how after Clare, Naru was e next to present it to me.

Went to take a walk near popeye. Finally it's open and all ready for business. The scenary was brilliantly delightful. Corn was right about shoving right through. What a sight it would be to race through and be presented with a splendid sight of e city.

Some random pictures to summarise e past events. At least that's out of e norm,




Drawn out of boredom. E scene that's from e outside of window, rain plattering on e window panes. Trees of a brilliant green hue, sky casted in a pale grey and occassional pedestrains busied through.


Pen and Paper


Paintings sold at e mart. Freakingly nice paintings with a pricy tag.

Monday, March 24, 2008

それを知っていた

I knew it.

Its tough to stop eating apples altogether.

What is life?

Life is having shooting stars flying across when you stop looking at e sky

What's next?

To laugh at e sheer absurdness of it?

There it is

Reaching out e hand

Yes, e palm does covers it entirely

Grasping it

Realising that its beyond reach

*Gaasp*

Been tuning to e radio recently all over again.



Otters!! So sweet....

Sunday, March 23, 2008

So DODO birds do exist.

Phew, e morning was pretty fun but guess i over-exerted myself.

But, was surprised that someone is interested in nature as well.

View was spectacular!

Though e lake was of a chocolate color, probably due to e effects of rain e night before, e place was cast with a layer of mist.

I must be too tired that i'm being too honest. Geex.

Kai is flying off to an awesome holiday .. wow. I also want.

Are you experiencing something I'm not?

Are you going through something I'm not aware of?

I dont' know

And I don't think I'll ever know

Sometimes one feel like giving up, so what's that lingering for?

I dont' know also

Good bF!!!!?

Fang said i'm e one being missed. For that i can only burst out into laughter.

Obviously there is someone, but e time aint ripe yet.

It's only when i saw e video again that i realised what a geezer i was.

The very things i wanted to include in it, i didnt

I dreamt of another blog

one where i spoke e truth

these days

i forgot that diaries do exist

its just that i forgot about its existence

OMG...it should be JJ, what a charming voice.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

而我的 . .
不听使唤的
走向哪儿

And I
I can no longer differentiate
What is this all about,

My hand
no longer wishes to reach up
for e stars in e sky

Stars
are nothing more than an impossible to reach feat

Cat gets tired of chasing rats too
It is time for a break under e apple tree

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Today is shiok.

Doing all that's so familiar...

though i didn't expect to be burnt

when there is no sun.

Probably inspired by you

Decided to go get e stuff

and you

that i recalled i didnt exercise for so long

But

Basket

apple basket

I forgot to stretch

Geeex.

Guess i still couldnt get over myself anyway

seems like asking Ling for opinion also pointless

I decided to get it done after all

being that ever so nice person

that i always was

Basket

Anyway e long flight of stairs is fine

but not e continuous peddling that got me hooked

Almost thought there's gonna be another biking trip to look forward to

But probably not.

Sighs

Darn.

Damn late.

Another Dodo in e horizon tomorrow.

Cant wait for jumper.

Jump. Jump.
Jump. Jump.Jump. Jump.
Jump. Jump.Jump. Jump.Jump. Jump.Jump. Jump.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Watched secret again, for e 3rd time.

And

It is still surprisingly funny yet saddening.

Am i supposed to be more proactive?

Probably.

Then why aint i doing it?

How come you're more nervy than i ought to be.

What am i missing?

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Ok, feeling a little guilty over choosing to play e game rather than talk to you!! Muahaha, but that shall be in my heart only.

It's hard to say it out i guess.

So e well wishes didnt work and Geely flunked eventually. Hmm.. better luck next time.

Guess i resembles Arima a lot.

WAs i really evil? Probably, was feeling e evil tips of e roots emerging out from me. Anyway, all is left is e empty shell. The larve? Gone with e wind.

Umm. It's a pity that your favourite day of e cycle is my most hateful one. E afternoons were poorly spent and an often grumbling stomach is making things worse. ITs not that i did not fed it, but it jus goes hungry again.

But its a good indication that i can stuff more down, but e feeling aint good.

Was talking to Ling about weddings and he said he wont spent a bomb on e event definitely. Hmm, but most people tend to want to make it big, cos it's a thing to remember for life, and somemore, with your loved one!

But, what if that person aint really e one you really love, loVE, LOVE so so sO SO much?

I still cant understand why some can seems so cool when mentioning about their weddings. They should be hyper, excited, overwhelmed instead of being so cool-headed about it. Come on..!!! Its your wedding we're talking about.

Seems like everyone is having nightmares!! Not a good sign.

Corn wrote that the worst thing is to have 2 hearts seeing but not reaching each other. But i felt what's worst is seated beside you, not being able to tell you how much i love you.

That's how i felt at times.

But, being able to just be beside that person seems good enough sometimes. Seeing that person smile and you smile too, seeing that person fall and you give that hand, seeing that person cry and you offer that tissue. It aint that bad. Really isnt.

Anyway, being hyper does helps. Being insanely cranky helps too. My mood was pretty much up-lifted last night. Thanks for unknowingly aid it.

Monday, March 17, 2008

I cant believe that today is my turn to feel a little depressed/ moody.

Sometimes, one just woke up at e wrong timing and everything turns out terrible.

Had a splitting headache earlier on and a very LATE dinner.

Hmm, sometimes you meet caring people, sometimes you meet people who dont care a damn for you.

Received a sms and straight away knew there's something more to it. A person who cant even be bothered any further, definitely wont be bothered to start off in that manner.

And

I was dead right.

It was to ask for a favour.

These days i just get very weary of these.

Probably we're all so busy.

Probably.

Anyway, i didnt felt like being Mr MacDonalds. I didnt felt like putting on that stupid wide grin. You can solve it yourself.

Thanks.

But then, i must admit that i'm like that at times too.

So much so that i do felt somethhing cringing when crapping mate said there's some travel gifts for me. .

Probably acting all hyper can try to lift up my spirits.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Ti Amo = I love you

Simply love it.

炎亚纶 is not only suave but has a awesome voice too.

And

this is definitely one of the best love songs of 2008!

Almost done with kknj!! Finally, i'm sitting down looking through it. Hmm, its really nicely done!

Yea..seems like as i'm seated at e desk, everyone has already moved on far off. Either indulging in some new skills or taking up a new course or language. Yet, i'm still at where i am.

Is this how i wanted it to be?

Though e path ahead is dreadful. .
but as long e faith is there
E sunshine seems delightful
Its okay to be white
POWDER
is equally attractive too

But, despite basking in e sun, enjoying every moment of e heat against my skin, e holy-ness brightness it brings along with it is unbearable.

Like a corpse that's weary of e sun, i cant wait to crept back into e dark corners of e side alley.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Its not surprising if i dont mean what i say
after all people can laugh out yet cry inside

Yea, i do agree that Fan Wei Qi sure sounds very sentimental in her songs..

Shark? I look forward to seeing it for myself. *Memerised*

Dont be surprised. Cos i'm surprised too at e stupidity i can push myself to..

I'm sorry to know your day is spoilt cos of e lameness of e ill-mannered. But ill-manner-ness dont get to me, so what if your son used to pour dungs? Geex..i used to be dung master too! Do i smell any more shitty than your precious son?

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒


我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒


我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

Why do you feel sad?
"I dont know", the boy said
PRobably cos e apples are out of stock
Probably cos I wont get to eat apples anymore.


Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Ling!~

amazed me again.

Strangely, i felt more of absurdness than disgusted-ness..

Sl!! we have a match...!!!!hahah.

Have a safe flight!!~

Just like you dont understand me, i dont understand you.

As you travel around e world by air, i travel around e world by hands.

Cows,elephants,giaffees...its an animal galore!!~

Monday, March 10, 2008

Toddlers?

I dont like waiting, but i almost felt like waiting.

I dont want to ask, but i really felt like asking.

Why the photo of slippers?

But, e angle..

probably we percieved it differently.

Totally.

30 minutes is nothing if you have e time of your life

Remember to share e strawberry story with me...

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Come to think of it, i think geely has already quited.

Taking care of babies now? hmmm...ok la, besides e boo hoo and e poos, it seems fun too. Imagine Joash.

Kaka's mood swings seems tremendously severe. Strangly, despite e massive blown-up, her moods were splendid it seems. Was even more surprised at e encounter.

Yaah, people all wear masks, i dont dispute that, just that i'm surprise to see another mask. Is this a thinner mask?

Seems like e ache is getting better. Definitely more chirpy too with e throat infectiion subsiding.

E external help seems nothing but trouble. Geex.

Is that a cockroach? Shugs, cant see at this angle. But e feelas sure are long.

I'm missing noodles!!~ Missing you.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

geeex, waking up at a weird timing. ..! What to do next?

Been blowing nose non-stop since i woke. What is this man?!!

Looks like i still havent fully recovered.

Was being very harsh it seems. Just want to end it and that's it.

Only jingles will understand.

ok..its been almost an hour since i woke. Ready!

Just that my nose aint.

And my hands are freaking cold.

Damn e nights!! lol.

Yet another hurdle. Seeing bin making through it and yet i'm still at e same spot.

Watching.

I want to get it done and get over with soon.

But everything is uncertain still.

Darn.

Its very funny when i happened to tilt my head to see e stretch of ants moving up e wall.

"i'm going home...to e place where i belong.Where your love has always been enough for me..~"

started ringing in my head..haha

Its funny cos of what happened beforehand.

The ants were very much e ones that creapt up e table, made their way into e lollipop through e handle that's apparently hollow on e interior.

And a smart skox removed e lollipop to e dump.

With e loot gone, its time for e ants to head home.

Suddenly, you see more ants going home..

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Damn upset at myself today.

But i rather hear about your concerns than blabber about mine.

I feel like i'm too eager to solve e problems ahead that i lost sight of other things totally.

I must be mindful.

Must be.

Definitely.

Are we pushing ourselves too hard?

Stressing ourselves too much?

I dont even see e end.

When is it coming?

Stuck in e world of trucks.. i found nothing but my stubborness.

But stubbornness do gets things accomplished.

I guess it's wearing us out.

Everyone.

When?

Can we be hauled from this

total crap?

Hf asked.

I replied e same old shit

uncertain

i simply hate this uncertainty

and i shall break it tomorrow.

For now

i need to re-focus my composure

Oh lord.

It is through time likw this that i realise

i've become so accustomed to reaching for you in these moments of weariness

but

it's not good to be so dependent on something

suddenly i realise i'm one of e most fortunate ones around.

He who doesnt get pinched

has no idea what's pain like

Me? Can i have an apple please?

Mayday is confirmed. At least there is something to look forward to.

MAy e stock shares rise tomorrow.

Monday, March 03, 2008

only 8 and i'm feeling Zzz. Must be e after-effects of dinner.

Tonight is pretty cold as usual. The coldness is probably one of those things that prevent me from liking e night.

E fish burger is eeky. But oh well, at least i try.

Bought e stuff and soon headed for a stroll. As i passed through e miniture stream, i was surprised to see ripples (MAny!!) among e seemingly calm surface. Tak Faham. Looking closer, i spotted what causes those ripples!!!~ It's fishes.!!! Geex.. i was memerised by e sight.

E decision to venture further up along e stream proven fruitful as i spotted a bird along e bank, trying to peck at e fishes or purely having a sip?

Didnt expect to be at e same session as Ger. She does look more youthful with that hairstyle. What meant to be direction-guiding landed me up at a temple. Its been a long time since i've seen something as serene as that in Batam. I cant really explain what it is, but it is e sheer simplicity and cleanliness of it. Ger say it gives a calming effect.

As i was shown e way to pray and pay respect to this god, i cant help feeling how great this lord must have been , to enable its devotees to bow down all e way, with e forehead touching e floor.

As though everything has been pre-planned, i was roped into knowing more and more of it. Probably e destiny lies here and not elsewhere.

Reading from a book i've gotten e temple. There's this story on handful of leaves. This guy with apparently super long name..ask a group of god-knows-what cluster of people

Are there more leaves in his hand or on the grounds of e trees that stood around them

Even i would say the ground of course. ! But this story, like e typical lame questions would of cos say the hands. Bingo! This was compared with e knowledge he shares with them and that he posseses.

There's no point possessing all those leaves if what's relevant and necessary are e ones in your hand.

I guess buddhism held that mysterious charm within cos of these things that were mentioned and relates to us so truthfully.

Like it was being mentioned previously, its not about praying to buddha but achieving the state of enlightenment like he did.

The state that Shanks achieved, the state that you're insulted right in e face and you can laugh it off just like that.

Reventured into OP again as well as refreshing my memories of e old ones again.

It was damn hilarious right from e beginning.

Sighs, as usual .. i'm preaching too much.

Noticed e little female turtle . Was it there all along or was it a new addition.

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