I wanna have an alice too!!~

Lame...i got it wrong again. So it wasnt you on e phone. lol. I remembered way back, when i was pretty young, i called a friend. Someone picked up. Hearing the voice, i recognise it as my friend's. That person insisted he's not. I said, cant be, stopped playing pranks. But he insisted. Can any 2 persons have such a similar pitch and tone in the voice. Even e way they speak sounds so similar.

Today was pretty fun. Once again, i went to places i've never really been to. It started with me wanting to go blading and there! I ended at bb nature reserve. Geez..e slope was insane and i skidded my way down it. Poor guards...they're all badly scratched. We're both beginners but JJ acted like a pro, fancy zigagging e way down and there i was acting silly. Trying hard to brake so that i wont go so fast but ended with many dramatic falls. Hey, i'm not trying to make a scene, but purely trying to break a fall.

The reserve is awesome. So...one can get close to trekking experience without actually going far. The air is fresh and the place was left e way it was. The way up was steep at times but manageable. Finally, its 5 times up and down those giant steps. Compared to yesterday, i was seriously out of breath and gasping for air halfway up. Talking about wobbly legs on e way down, i guess my thighs might ache if i did not take care.

My inital chripy mood was dampened with e Sad love story OST. lol...these songs are so influential.

Chatting with JJ made me realised there's so much i can do with rs. Yea..decided to venture into it again after leaving it untouched for long. But, rs threw temper on me and throw me out soon after. Oh great, just went i decided to peek-ka-boo.

Facing a hurdle in life
rather than staring at it and backing off
why not give a smile and overcome it

Talking to someone, its not really about how this person will reply to what i said. As though i'm talking to myself, i figured out some geez to it along e way. No, i dont want to lament on my pathetic life. i want to improve it. Just like e way i did when i first stepped into that unfamilar terrain.

The lamb continues its journey
searching for something unknown
an unknown that probably holds the truth
the truth to the meaning in life

But shugs .. who cares about finding it. sometimes we're so overly concerned over the end result, we forgot to stop and enjoy the gentle breeze on your face, the fuffly filled sky and the buddy beside you.

Today. Today, Today,Today,Today
is a day worth mentioning about, cos its e day bb dilion came. Its e day i went to ABC area ever since like 10 years ago. Its the day i conquered the almost 20 storey terrain 5 times. Its e day i scaled up there to take a look at the surrounding, panting away. Its e day i continued with deathnote manga and anime!!!

Lastly, its e day i tried so hard to suppress my laughter over e phone. Was it you? It sounded so much like you that i almost couldnt contain it within me when i talked to "you". There we are, sounding so proper...i bet its you, it just got to be you.

Last sunday, i went to catch Deathnote.



The name is nothing new to me but the details of the plot was. Heard of deathnote when the manga was first released and caused a commotion. Like FMA, its seems to be a really awesome one. Gonna catch its anime and manga. Come to think of it, i've not read FMA's manga before either. Nahhh...compared to reading or watching it as a motion picture, i prefer the latter. lol.

In fact, caught the 1st episode of the deathnote anime last night, and chapter 1 of the manga. The plot is closely followed, but the anime seems more confusing. Am I dumb or what, duh. Cos the anime comprises of lots of flashbacks? and not properly identified. *a head of confusion*

Raito...the main character in Deathnote.



Wonder why people kept calling him Light , i find it ridiculous.
Although the japanese would pronnounce his name as Lai-to...but he's still raito, not light .

Geez...in the process of inserting pictures, i somehow deleted all that i've wrote. Am i dumb or duh..

Mood now is ......


Come to think of it ....its 2 weeks away to the much anticipated hols....!!!!!

was fiddling with the emails earlier on and i'm amazed with the



Jek actually sent me the prove on 0.999=1. Of cos i didnt read all the prove from wiki..but i snatched the picture of , cos it looks cool....

And then i took off in the foot prints i started off with
to you

Was reading through some emails and i saw these...find the pictures + captions really hilarious!! *grins*


Please papa, don't leave me behind!






I told you, don't pull my ears, didn't I?





I've got my hair cut done at the famous hair saloon across the road!




Woo...high tide, don't block my way!



I am still sleepy, hmmm




hehehe.... The new Titanic



Is this child yours?




yum!

hi fou bu gai ai ni
PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE LOVED YOU

zhe yang bi ci shang xin
NOW THAT BOTH ARE HURT

wei he ren qun dan zhong
WHY IS THAT AMONG THE CROWD

wo meng zhe yang lao lei
WE'RE THAT TIRED

ye xu bu gai guai ni
PROBABLY SHOULDNT HAVE BLAMED YOU

shi wo rang ni shang xin
ITS ME WHO MADE YOU SAD

qing ni wang ji wo ba
PLEASE FORGET ME

ke yi ma
CAN YOU

jian dan yi sheng xie xie
A SIMPLE WORD OF THANKS

shi ni jui hou dao bie
IS SAID BEFORE YOU BID GOODBYE

qing ran wo song ni ba
PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU

ru ni xi wang yi yang
LIKE YOU WISHED

wo reng hui huo kuai le de huo zhe
I'LL STILL LIVE MY LIFE WELL

hui jinG li zhe yang de
WILL TRY HARD TO

na pa you yi tian
WHO KNOWS ONE DAY

ji shi bei ni yi wang
EVEN IF YOU FORGOT ME

zi yao shi wei le ni
ONLY FOR YOU

wo ding hui nu li de
I'LL TRY MY BEST



ai ni shi zhong jui guo
LOVING YOU IS A SIN

ji li reng shuai ye wu fa kai tuo
DESPITE EVERYTHING STILL CANT ESCAPE

an pai ni wo xiang yu de shang di
THE LORD WHOM ARRANGE FOR US TO MEET

wo chang shi zhe yuan heng
I'LL TRY TO HATE HIM

zhi dao ru ci li bie
KNOWING THE DEPARTURE

wei he hai song ni lai (jian wo)
WHY STILL SENT YOU (TO SEE ME)

qing rang wo song ni ba
PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU

ru ni xi wang yi yang
JUST LIKE YOU WISHED

wo reng hui huo kuai le de huo zhe
I'LL STILL LIVE MY LIFE WELL

hui jin li zhe yang de
I'LL TRY MY BEST

na pa you yi tian
WHO KNOWS ONE DAY

ji shi bei ni yi wang
EVEN IF YOU FORGOT ME

zi yao shi wei le ni
ONLY FOR YOU

wang zhe yuan qu de ni
WATCHING YOU WALKING FAR

zhi neng mo mo zhu shi
CAN ONLY SILENTLY WISHED THAT

hao hai pa zhi ji
SO SCARED THAT I WOULD

bian cheng ni de fu dan
BECOME YOUR BURDEN

yin wei wo bu gou hao
COS I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH

This song was played when she leapt from Gun woo's car and ran back for jun hyung. Thought it sounded like what Gun woo would sang...

she me hua dou bu yao shuo
DONT SAY A WORD

bu xiang ting ni na bu shan chang de jie kou
NOT WISHING TO HEAR THAT LIE THAT'S SO UNLIKE YOU

ru guo wo shi ni de bao fu wo hui ran ni zou
IF I'M YOUR BURDEN I'LL LET YOU GO

shui ran shi ge bu qing yuan de li bie
THOUGH ITS AN UNRELUCTANT PARTING

dan bu neng zai zhua zhu ni bu fang le
BUT CANT HELD ON ANY LONGER AND NOT LETTING GO

shi dao ru jing yi bu neng zai xiang xing ni de ai qing le
AT THIS STAGE CANT TRUST YOUR LOVE ANYMORE

gei wo zhan xian de ni de ai qing dou shi xu jia de ma
IS THE LOVE YOU HAVE SHOWER UPON ME ALL FAKE

yi qi du guo de shui yue dou shi wei zhan shi ting liu de yan xi er yi ma
ARE ALL THE MOMENTS SPENT TOGETHER ALL BUT AN ACT

ni he wo yue ding de wei lai
THE FUTURE WE PROMISE

jiu shi ru chi tong ku he ku dan er yi ma
IS THAT PAINFUL AND LONELY

ru guo shi yu dao le bi wo gen hao de ren
IF YOU'VE MET SOMEONE BETTER THAN ME

wo bu hui zu dan ni de ai qing
I WONT STOP YOUR LOVE

dan shi qing shuo shen yi zhi yi lai dui ni de ai shi zhen de hao ma
BUT PLEASE SAY SO THAT THE LOVE HAS ALWAYS BEEN TRUE

Done with sad love story finally. Like pl said, there's a twist at the end. It isnt all ends well at the end, but yet there isnt a "aiya..how could it have ended this way" feeling.

Starring:
Kwon Sang Woo as Suh Jun Hyung, Kim Hee Sun as Park Hae In, Yun Jung Hoon as Lee Gun Woo, and Kim Yun Joo as Cha Hwa Sung.

So, by about 3 episodes towards the end, it seems all ended and jun hyung and hae in would live happily ever after, but who knows jun hyung would be shot and died at the end. But, the director did show us that they had some blissful moments together ..so it isnt so wrenching sad ending.

Yea..done with the show and done with the tears. *Grins*

http://www.sokorean.com/drama/review.php?p=41&more=1

But i guess i'm not done with the ost yet. Listening to them now..hmm..even though the show ended, the songs still brought so much sadness in it.

Supposed to meet rain for blading. Yea, as though i never had the intention to show up, i didnt in the end.

So, here i am, typing away a post.

*shrugs* 反符 the depressed spirit caught up with me and bestowed me with a depressing potion. Here i am, in a mist of depression.

Dug some old tracks and was listening to them last night, so am i now. Stumbled upon 动力火车's 还隐隐作痛. The lyrics? They're plain simple.

要伤心多久我才能看透
离开你多久手才会放松
是否我在你的心里还有一点痛
爱情随风心彻底放纵让自己疯
还隐隐作痛还记得你笑容
这回忆多么沉重宁愿没有过
还隐隐作痛还看见你放手
这回忆多麽美丽刺痛我心头
我心头

Von said i'm like to keep everything to myself and it isnt good. But, things, sometimes, they're better left that way.

A broken chair
left untouched
its still works
sat upon
it shatters into pieces

No, i dont feel like growing up.
I dont like to answer for my actions
I dont like to be mature
I just want to be me
just only me
is it that tough

There's this particular song i heard on the radio that i really really like it a lot....it goes something like

a word of i love you...blah blah blah.

of cos its in chinese. (主题曲 林宇中). Tried so hard to search for e lyrics but cant find a thing. GIVE UP!!

Sometimes i wonder why people chose to share their secrets with me. Geez and asking me to keep mum at all costs. Apparently, i'm the "first" to be let in on this super huge secret and i'm supposed to keep it all to myself till probably like next june? Its not like i'll let the secret out, so you dont have to constantly remind me. Anyway, its not like i'm eager to share it too, not at least to those critical folks whom i should strictly kept it from .

People's responses to things are very different i conclude. Was kinda upset when i waited, waited and waited but didnt get e response i need. Geez, was it that hard to just give a simple reply? Then, this maddening anger enlarged its scale and i decided not to ask since our dear friend didnt bother to reply. There it goes, the game of i thought and you thought begun. In the end? We didnt met up. WAs kinda apologetic in e end, as i let my emotions get ahead of me. Well, like i always told people, they think too much.

Apparently robie got her way and managed to drag us into the lebanese restaurant. I appluade myself at times. Despite being on msn and hearing her repeatedly mentioning about it, i have no idea why she was that keen on it, till we settled right in. So it was the papers! anyway, i thought that its a good way of earning money. To think we paid quite a bit, but there's no air-conditioning to talk about. The wallpapers are really nice. Well, its just indescribable. Sisars, ermmmm, if that's how you spell it. Tried a couple of puffs. The taste is just horrendous. Dont understand how anyone could paid like ten over bucks for it. Fai used to mentioned about being addicted to it. Just lazing the afternoon away, but geez, i just cant stand that burning taste of smoke in my mouth. Neither can bin. Good for us then, cos that should save us quite a bit. What a expensive and not e least interesting hobby. Luckily, i dont have a fancy for smoking. How could anyone have?

Spending say about 200 on blades or bag...how would you choose? No, i'll still take e blades. Who knows how often that i'll actually come to use the bag.

M A L U ....that's what it is. Well, you see, i wasn't really alert when i board the bus earlier. Geez...guess only less than 10% is effectively functioning while the rest is floating about in MooO mooO land. So there it goes, anything can happen. So there it is, i was obviously half dazing and the half wondering where i should sit. Then, e bus took off and i caught myself in an un-glam pose. I must have paused there for 10 secs straight, cos i remembered i stared quite long at the nice lady that was holding on to my hand (in case i flew all e way back). Just imagine having the portion of your lower legs perpendicular to the ground and having your back close to being parallel to the ground. That's the kind of pose i landed myself in .I find it real hilarious the last time i performed such a stunt. I must have laugh myself silly if i were to be a bystander.

Driving. Hmmmm, its seems such a breeze doing what i covered last lesson. But e chap beside me is a real weirdo. Not only he looks eccentric, he spokes so softly that i told him to speak up. He's like this cool chap sitting over there, saying nothing much but , "listen to what i say." Lol...was real demoralised by him as e time was almost over. I failed to come to a complete stop and he said that will be a immediate failure. But, anyway, driving is fun.

Tired.

Mood this kinda thingy is very strange one leh.

Sometimes you might get out of the wrong side of the bed, but your mood can still change for the better because of the things you encounter with.

Like today, i obviously didnt slept well and i was so sickened by it that i didnt felt like boarding the train to the slaughter barn but i did.

My mood still didnt improve on the train. Well, it definitely didnt improve either when i sat in the slaughter yard, but i guess somehow as i got busier and occupied, i forgot i was in a lousy mood. Geez.

Lame. But i like to act silly at times. Its like a form of destressing to me. haha. Like asking the obvious.

Perception. Thats something i have to work on. I tend to be too judgemental on certain things, like e way some others are towards me. I guess if not for some solid facts that i stumbled on unintentionally, i wouldnt have changed my view. Its great to know that's another anime fan hanging around.

Ten more minutes to finish noodles and off to bed. My mood now? Hungry but light-hearted and chirpy like Liang Jing Ru's Ning Xia. *Grins*

who cares what my mood would be tomorrow
so as long i'm happy now
Right in my heart
oh what a peaceful summer....~

Caught a movie earlier on and had lotsa of emotions ahhh....my moods lately has been bobbling up and down these days and i'm kinda at the lower tide now. Was at pl's place after e much anticipated ktv session for ps, but who knows she cant find the discs. Alas. Even the discs karen brought didnt worked either. So we ended up looking at those photo albums etc. Then after, she took out this bag containing all the letters pple ever wrote to her. Kinda memorable, cos after all, we've known each other for so long, and its kinda interesting to see those things that we used to give her so long ago. Geez, even birthday cards that i cant even recall a tiny bit of.

Looked through my stuff too. Though most of it from long time ago probably wasnt there anymore. Sloppy me, either i've misplaced them, or thrown them away.

Reading those letters/cards, i cant helped recalling the past. Those were the days. I was once told the definition of impermance. It simply meant nothing last forever.

Late at night when all the world sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i wish upon a star
that somewhere you are
thinking of me too
cos i'm dreaming of you tonight
till tomorrow
i'll be holding you tight
and there's no where in the world
i rather be
here by my side
dreaming of you and me

i think i've addicted to mahjong. There it goes, a new craze begins.

Ever had a missing portion in the puzzle and had someone fill it up for you? I had. Saw this phrase that seems so familar from E. Then, i know where it came from .. why of course, cannonball.

This past week has been really nerve-wrecking experience for everyone, so much so that even the poor girl fused. Who wouldnt? Its way too maddening tiring.

Was at this super dirty place. The degree of dirtiness is unimaginable. With a soft plod of the foot into the dust pool, as if like those martial arts flim, dust flew. Its hard to imagine next to this freaking low ventilation place, a serene lake lays beside. Happen to pop near 1 of the only 2 windows that opens and was freshen up by the Serendipity of it all.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Serendipity: to make discoveries, by accident and sagacity, of things not in quest of.

There's a slight haze and trucks move lazily about the shore. Not much movement on the lake, or rather sea and a really minitute sampan right in the middle.

Sometimes i wonder what's and where's my limit. Even at such a location, i felt perfectly alright, so as long there isnt some pesky cigeratte smoke and i'm well equioped with the appropriate protective gear. Well, of cos fatigue sets in real quick and everyone is tired soon enough though.

Talking about training up for the upcoming trek, i think this week has been a real good training ground. After all, I've my fair share of sweat and muscle aches.

TGIF again........

Tomorrow is gonna be another tiring day.

If you ask me what's the next most blissfully thing that can happen to me now,
I would say to doze off on the train
and not having to force myself to awake

Hmm, lotsa of thoughts just fly through as i was half surfing net. With one ear plugged into 933, there i was half listening to Jiahui. Before i could blog it down, i cant really remember what she was saying.

Think it goes something like this.....

Are you a pesmissist? If someone were to ask you what would the weather be tomorrow, what would your answer be like?

I grinned to myself when i heard that. GOsh...who in the world would ask me such a silly question. I'm not god, how e heck would i know. (Note: I'm someone who doesnt tune in to weather forecast)

Oh well, anyway, she was saying if you aint a pesimissist (<---darn my lousy spelling skill again), you would say well, the weather would be great tomorrow, at least it would still be even after a heavy shower.

Sip some tea and gaze at the moon upon you? Duh.. so un-me lor. hehe

Played Datona yesterday and was learning driving all over again today. Was pretty bored towards the middle of non-sensencial repeated turns i had to go through. Pretty upset that i wasnt really up to the "turning" standards set for me. But but , happy that i'm back in this game too, though kinda scared too. Fear sort of crepts upon me. Guess is the fear of not being able to perform up to standard. It often occurs after the engine stalls. Just so hard to get back in momentum. On the whole, i think i perform marvellously. hhaha, cos i'm pretty smooth in changing gears in general.

NO, i shouldnt be so conceited. Hahah, remembering i told E yesterday that i consider myself pretty fit now for rijiani...but hey, my breath got me today.

Was so shag from climbing the stairs today carrying that dumb pump i was out of breaths practically every 2 flight of stairs. Geezz... Though my legs aint aching from all that desaru slopes, it seems to start ache now. Somemore, i was out of breath as i ran with jj just now. Gosh, was i slow or was it our physical differences or just cos i'm plain bushed out from the earlier "workout".

Geeeezz...nice song now..... "Woooaaahhh....you're so beautiful.To me.. me ... me."

Hungry. Hurry to shower and yummy spicy korean noodles after i bathe...!!! But, i wanna finish this song first leh....

Von finally came to know that he's being "stabbed". Hmmm, looks like it didnt blow up like the way it was supposely described to be. As a bystander, i felt unjustice done. Hmmm, the killer was left scot-free again.

Reading a novel recently and came across this....
Probably we live in a god-less world, that's why evil continue to manifest...
the character in the novel didnt understand how god would allow evil to even dwell. But, god isnt evil, evil comes from man. My sediments exactly. How come god allowed all this? A friend used to say to me, " We aint beasts, we're treated like his equals, thus he allowed us the freedom to choose. " Still, i couldnt understand why he allowed suffering. Freedom is good, but excessive is .....

Time for shower...smelly me!!! kekek