I wanna have an alice too!!~

Exposed to more ugly side of my working environment today. Really, i know this kinda of thing is unavoidable, but yet i still naively believed that there isnt this side of e wall till recently. Yes, its true that everyone seems like just 1 big family, but yet, it can be clearly be seen that there are a few clicks. . call me naive, all i wanted is a nice little environment where everyone live happily and treat everyone earnestly.

No wonder someone said that one day, you realise you have no one to trust, but yourself.

Was out in e sun for e entire day, half e time viewing e sea. Got quite a burn on e cheeks. Its still feeling hot! That ends my 2 day adventure on e island. Though seen and hear a lot these few days, i guessed i've gained a great deal as well. People, you just dunno what they're thinking at times and why they did such a thing. But like what someone once told me that

We cant please everyone, so we should just do whatever thats for e benefit of e team.

May god grant me e strength and luck to get through this period!bleah!¬

One piece has entered a new era with 152 and e straw hat pirates have entered e white sea!Anyone has problems with that? No....then, let's carry on. According to e knight of e white sea. E one luffy has always been in, be it grand line, all blue or whatever, its e blue sea. Above it, in e clouds, lies e white sea and above that is e white-white sea. Luffy and gang just entered e heaven gates without paying any extols (e currency they used, used to be beli), which means illegally!!! what awaits them? Wheee, cant wait for 154 for this out of e world plot!!!¬lalalaa¬
i wonder how much is 1 extol as compared to 1 beli..finally they left e part w e wu-kiki monkeys, that Chhhuuuuu bird and e old geezer. Yey, not forgetting that bellamy too.

when e story goes that slow, u cant help but want it to end quickly and get on with it. That's how addiction builds up? Cos, everyday, u probably keep checking when e next episode is out and unknowingly, this anime occupied much of e mind.

Naruto enters new level with mizuki's attempt to create havoc. . sheesh, this marks e start of another leg of naruto... The sickening part is that its gonna do with Orochimaru.Hmph, who cares about him anyway, i rather see more on Gaara or sasuke. But it looks like sasake wont appear so soon.. After all, Naruto has 3 years to find him. Ok, now i can understand how harry potter's readers felt. But, still, i still believe that visual is a better way of telling a story rather than an boring book (for fantasies?) Gonna add that in, else its like smacking my own mouth, cos i enjoy reading ..totally engrossed in my own little world.

ok, did some changes to e outlook of my blog.. yeah, no major changes, but it took me an awful long time to get through e script and i still havent figure out how to change some other stuff. I give up, its almost 10, time for other stuff, like pom pom..!

Finished high meadow yesterday. The ending, no drastic twist, Molly got well of cos and kate lives happily ever after with Daniel. Though, a simple plot revolving around kate as a single mother(and adopted her sister's son as her own)and daniel(Ben's real father), it turned out to be a pretty nice one.

Visited a flea market at havelock yesteraday. So far, havent been to much before, but i guess this is e best so far. There's just so much to look and see and at a low low low price. But, my nose wasnt behaving, thus wasnt really in e mood to look at anything. Fai bought this ridiculous Zoe's memorial book which was published in 1995 and went showing everyone he sees excitedly. Hee, its cool in a way, cos in it, there's lotsa of pictures of Zoe which i've never seen before. On top of that, there's her autograph on it! I didnt get anything, even though things are just dirt cheap. There's a fuuny guy at there who imitated e sound of a bird who makes a lot of noise at e wee hours of e morning, so hilarious! Had meatballs in a yummylicious sauce, but there's so much of it that i got quite sick of it towards e end. As we were eating, there's a little kid sitting next to us with her sister. She's frowning all e way whenever i turned to look at her. Finally, she burst into tears even though we're smiling at her!! Gosh...i guess adults to little kids just seems too imtimidating even though they appear friendly. This kid screamed so loud, that all i heard was her voice at 1 point in time. I find it kinda pitiful that i have no idea how to calm her down.

Watched CRYING OUT IN E CENTRE OF E WORLD today. Probably i had too high expectations for it, so it didnt turned out as well as i expected. I still find e drama of it nicer. Both were released in 2004, but e drama was 2 months after e movie. According to e magazine, e drama follows e novel more closely and makes more sense. I find the characters in e movie, e young Saku, to be too trendy to be a fella from 1986. Not convincing. Though e general events are more or less presented in e movie, due to time constraint, its not done in depth. Cant really tell just how much they love each other and that bitter sweet feelings in them. Uluru in e movie, just seems to be some place they randomly decide on, and it didnt bring out e beauty of it like in e drama. Hmm, i also didnt quite understand how saku(in e movie)can say he cant get over aki, yet is attached to another girl.

Ayer Rocks , Uluru
Someday, if i do have e chance, i do wish to be there to see it for myself.

extracted from websites....
There is something totally awe-inspiring about Uluru. There it sits in the centre of Australia. A huge monolith, 862.5 metres above sea level, 1395 km south of Darwin and 465 km south west of Alice Springs, rising out of the desert. No wonder the local Aborigines regarded it as a sacred site. The average white Australian, clinging to the shores of this vast continent, also regards 'the greatest stone on earth' as something very special.

There is some scientific disagreement about the origins of Uluru. The most widely held theory is that Uluru are remnants of a vast sedimentary bed which was laid down some 600 million years ago. The bed was spectacularly tilted so that Uluru now protrudes at an angle of up to 85°. The rock is actually grey but is covered with a distinctive red iron oxide coating.

Listening to Beautiful Life Theme (Cello & Piano Version), Autumn Story - Prayer

Geek..just saw wg's blog and was reminded about Harry Potter's new book... the half-blood prince or something. There's a poll there and 70% of e people in sg dont read harry potter, while e rest does. Seriously, what's all this craze about? I can understand if e kids are crazy over it, but adults too? Hmm, are e books meant for kids or adults? A colleague of mine read it too. In fact, it took her 6 hours to complete it. I'm amazed at her sheer speed in completing it and doubted e plot that supposely got so many hooked. When questioned which age group was e novel for, all she said was that as e series proceeds, e story becomes more "dark". As i was on e train just now, i spotted a guy reading it. Hmm, this is e new craze that's hitting town recently? For me, i rather stick to my novels.. Those down-to-earth realistic storylines. Harry potter? I'm pretty much fine with just catching e movies alone. Hee, just like naruto. I rather face colourful animation with great music packed into it, rather than black and white prints.The anime might be much slower, but, its definitely worth e wait, though e suspense is killing me.

There's so much things i wanted to do, yet so little time after work. Didnt want to on e computer today, least it zap up all my time, but i did again. Sigh. Was multi-tasking just now. Haah, half reading High meadow and half watching tv. I've halfway through e book, hurray!

There's a typhoon in taiwan yesterday. Messaged mel just now, glad to know she's back safe and sound. She asked why xh didnt turned up for my big day. *Shrugs* Somehow, i told xh before, and she didnt said anything as my big day drew near and somehow, i pressume she's not coming. I dunno why i came up with that conclusion. Strangely, none of us mentioned this. I wondered if they're back from Bangkok. Sheesh...if only i went too. But, seriously, i guessed i wasnt too sore about not being able to go. After all, i guessed e past two days were pretty well-spent.

Today was kinda a mental challenge for me. Fancy climbing so high up. The sheer thought of it gives me shivers. When i'm steadily up there, nothing fears me, but as i ascend upwards, e thought that i'm so high up and might just slip and fall makes me scared. In addition, e wind thats blowing so strongly on me, adds on to e fear intensity. But, i'm glad i made it to e top. Well, i guess life is all about accepting challenges. If i dont reach up there, i'll never know what's its like. I guess, e worst thing in life, is not knowing how things would be like if you've never taken that step. So, if there isnt adverse effects, why not?

Every choice we make in our life results in consequences, however slight they might be.... they're like e ripples in e pond.

Wheeeh, was near e padang just now and caught e fireworks. Its really nice and i'm glad that we waited for it!! Hell lots of things happening today. Caught WAR OF THE WORLD before that and was like transported to another world. One beyond imagination. The plot is not like those typical alien movie, but focused on other parts of humanity. Typical ones shows how people runs for their lives etc, but this shows how e truth of humans ... haah. Cruise was running for their lives on e only car that seems to move and others upon seeing it, rush over trying to stop him and take over e car. Under life and death circumstances, people will retort to anything to stay alive, even it means taking another's life, In a way, minus e alienic part, i guess i like e way e movie tries to express human's feelings.

Yesterday was fun! It didnt turn out to be so dreadful as i thought. Best part of all, is that e guys shown up! Really touched! Cos, fai said that e rest wasnt coming and he didnt wanted come alone. But they did in e end! Saw lotsa people whom never seem nor keep in contact for quite a while and took pictures with them. At one point, a couple of us came together and e cameras were snapping away. Haah, as if we're some superstars!!

The food was great too! Though i was told there's lotsa nice food like tempura, but all i had was fried rice and some doufu... sheesh! But, i managed to get some red wine!!! haaah, i just love free alcoholic stuff! Not forgetting e tarts too! Yummy!

Fai gotten us some souveniors. One is a hershey's lip balm and e other is a pouch containing paper dolls. I simply love e pouch's design. Its e first i picked out from e paper bag and it turned out to be e nicest around. But, e dolls is kinda freaky. Any worries i have, i can just tell those dolls. Erm... kinda like playing with spirits kinda thingy. That aside, e pouch could probably serve well as a lucky charm!

Kickboxing is tedious as usual. But, i'm really disappointed. I thought e class would be an more informative one whereby at e end of 12 weeks, we'll could have master some technique as to how to correctly give a punch and kick. But now, we only how produce those strokes. But, e accuracy of it... hmm..i dont even know if i'm doing it correct exactly.

woohhh....time for Gakuen Alice 10..

The day has finally come. Yup, the day thats marks the end of a period of my life. I didnt thought of it as such big an issue, but now that its finally here. I cant help but felt a little excitement. Its a pity that most friends are working on this day, thus they definitely wont be able to come. Is it really that important for them to attend my convocation? In a way, e answer is a yes. This marks such an important part of my life, thus i definitely wish they could be there with me to witness this moment. Disappointment is unavoidable.

So many issues going on recently. The most shocking one would be e charitable organisation issue. I didnt expect things to blow up so tremendously and people actually retort to vandalising to vent their anger. To me, this is something quite shocking, cos i've always thought that we're a group of people who dont care much and even if things do anger us, we'll just grumble and that's it. But this time round, it seems a little extreme.

What is our world coming to? Lotsa things are happening lately. Even in a peaceful place such as ours. Its appears that e world is getting more and more chaotic. Could it be e end of e world is nearing? Though i've drifted away from e religion, but things as such, still seems deeply implanted in my head. The world seems to be becoming a more and more peculiar place to live in.

Wonder what i have been busy with this week? It seems a long time since i last sat down and fiddle with e computer. Its kinda strange touching e keyboard all over again. Life these few days have revolve around many other things and this just has to be pushed aside. Haah, i'm not that busy, just working late on a couple of days and doing stuff most people would do, that is, not touching e computer! Some days, after work, i'm just so tired that i would rather sit infront of e tv. Cos work is getting physical these days and i guess i'm still not quite used to this drastic change. That's why. ..But, i pretty much like what i'm doing now. Yes, its really freaking noisy at times, but i guess i've grown to get used to it. Vin said that noise can make someone become tired.

Went to pluck my eyebrows e other day and e beautian said that once i'm outside at work, to put on skirts, dress nicely, and putting on makeup is inevitable..i laughed. Look at my case. Hmm, things...at times, they are beyond our imaginations. Just like e case of someone accidentally, seriously injuring another party. Though that person might not have e intention to kill e injured fella, but under those circumstances, i feel that it might be possible, probably after considering e implications involved.

High meadows by Joan Wolf...that's e book i'm reading e past days. It all begun when i happened to pick up a few books and this was one of them. This book, just drew me into it. Its been a long time since i last had a book that intrigue me so.

Current ringtone - Jay Chow's Hui Dao Guo Qu.
I admit, i just have a weak spot for sad songs. I guess its a way of venting my feelings? I have no idea too, but i just like to dwell in it.

Ok.. i'm flooding e blog again..haah, who cares, probably i'm e only one who'll read them. WAs talking to kor for a bit. He asked my opinion regarding whether he should catch snow lake by Jacky Cheung. I said why not, after all, its like a smashing hit in e earlier cantonese version and is of substancial standard. But of cos, i suggest that he get e best seats or at least e second best. He's like duh~, isnt that gonna cost a bomb? I've never been to any musicals nor concerts, but from my experience from free school concerts, it appears that you cant see anything if you're like 10 rows away from e stage. I thought since you're here to see them, their expressions, its pointless if you cant capture their expressions.

Talking about that, was at e driving centre to get my provisional driving licence. They requested for me to do a simple eye sight test. Freak.....those symbols are freaking small and i could hardly see them. E staff commented that if i cant see them, how to drive on e roads? But, in my assumptions, e symbols are like less than an mm thick and tall, how to figure out what is it? The symbols are basically four m in 4 different rotations. After much trials.. yeah, i managed to get e license. Hmm, i wonder what's e purpose for such small letterings, do we really have to see such small ones on e roads?

Cursed my phone..hehe, cos it really pissed me off big time. There's GPRS possibility, but it hung on me before it finish downloading. There's IR, but it wont connect to kor's phone. Lastly, there's data cable, but it doesnt connect e phone to e pc. So, i cant get anything at all. Games, sounds, pictures...none of it and i have to pay for e WAP bill at e end of e month. HMph!!~

Ohh ya, was at e swimming complex's dance studio for kickboxing earlier on and e moment i entered to e interior of e complex, i was like ehhh? Isnt this place where i came to when i was in kindergarden?? I remembered that there was a picture of me with a group of my classmates at that spot. Come to think of it, its my first time singing performance. Haah. So, i've been there before so long ago... Its a pity i cant remember a shit, but have to rely to a picture to proof i was there.

Time for one piece......

PS: naruto 141 total crap, fighting anishi-san, who is actually made up of a few people combined together. K, i cant really interpret what's going on, but i guess he absorbed these people and is able to use them. But, these people's head just blurge out from his back. Some kind of monster. Then, for his last move, he absorbed their chakra. Sakura is finally making some improvement... no more a burden to anyone, cos she's gonna become a great medic ninja in days to come.

Naruto said to Sakura " No, i never thought of you as my burden, in fact, it was you who inspired me not to give up" So sweet of him... though Sakura was indeed his burden, and resulted him in getting stabbed. He didnt blame her at all.

A simple word, put nicely, brings a smile to people, put worstly, brings tears to them.

Kickboxing course started this afternoon. Damn. Didnt know it would be that shag. But, i thought we'll be taught e basics in a more detailed manner. But, e instructor just explained everything briefly at 1 shot and here we go in e half an hour workout. Yes, she's right infront guiding us as we proceeds. But, even if our posture are wrong, she wouldnt say much. Its as though like we're just doing a workout of punching and kicking any-O-how.. Was so tiring, that we just cant possibly kick any further at times and just stand there while e others continue kicking. Haah, I realised i have coordination problem. Or rather, i have slow reflexs, cos either i'm slower or i did a wrong move.

Been keeping a lookout on watches. Hmm, digital ones, cos i thought that might be m0re useful in my work. That's e reason i've been wanting to get one!! Well, my fake swatch i gotten from KL served me well and is spoiled... Boo HoO, my beloved. So, left with only a metal casio. But, ermm, not appropriate to wear to work leh.

So far, nothing caught my fancy, except this brand i never heard of. Baby G's nice, but having it on my hand is ..... ugly. *Shrugs* i just find its frame too large on my hand and i find it yucky. But, this brand, its just nice. So how?? I dont mind dumping in money for a watch, so as long as i know it would last. But this watch, i'm having 2nd thoughts.. I really had e impulse to get it just now. Its not often you find stuff you like at e first sight, and it happens to be such an item. Sighhhs, that's me, i rather stick with some familiar brands which i know would taste nice rather than something new which might yucky or vvvv nice! But, i rather give it a miss most of times.

Not daring to venture further, here i am at my wonderland *grins* ..... but at e expense of forgoing paradise ~.~ ??

Listening to Lee Hom - Forever love ....AWwww..

Work starts to be coming in and today, i practically have to multi-task. Geez, real bad at it, cos i cant remember what i'm supposed to do, but it has been fun.A little of this, and that, and this and that. But nothing beats doing nothing at all. Anything to keep myself entertained will do just great. Time just seems to pass faster when i'm outside. Been conversing in English e entire day, and i find it naturally i'll ratter off as time goes by. Yup, just need some time to adjust to it. Vin said that i'm joining them at e dump next week. Hee, e work would start and end late. That means a whole morning free. Wheeeh..where should i go, where should i go? Hmm, airport? But, that's if he's back in e morning.

Britain suffered terrorist attack today and many were injured. Hopefully, there would be none of these attacks again, especially when some friends are away on holidays now.

Watched tv again today. Sheesh, becoming more and more of a potato couch. There's some nice ones on several channels, and i'm kept pressing e remote control. Amazed at these wizzy kids. Damn, those maths questions, they can answer them in 2 seconds?? Read, process, speak up.. NutS...that's way too short a time to do all those.

Superstar......Gosh! cant believe leon is only 18... cos he look as though he's in early 20s. Okie, he's got charm, looks like sun sie zi and can sing? No wonder e other competitor said he swept so many girls off their feet with his Lee Hom classics. Probably they are too nervous or what, they seems a little nervy to me and their actions are kinda strange. A bit jerky.. E other guy, that contestant 1, he has looks as well as voice. Keeping fingers crossed that both of them would stay. After all, e other 2 is nowhere comparable. For e girls, i guess only contestant 1 is great. E other girls are either too plain-looking or they should back at acting rather than singing. . But that contestant 1... e extent she has slim down, is kinda shocking, cos so much in such a short time? Besides, she's nicer with some meat on her face. Haah.

Pissed with e bank's toll line. Immediately upon getting through, i was told e number to press for which services, but before i can choose, i was put through to a telephone operator. So, i said, i want to use phone banking. So, i was transferred to more key pressing, entering of user id and transferred to telephone operator again?! Then, what's e point of transferring me here and there in e first place? Dumb bank services...... and i still havent managed to get to phone banking to check my stuff.

My phone, i still need more time to get used to it. Cos today, i want to write a new message, but upon completing it, i press send, then realised there's this default number where i can sent to if i press ok. Puzzled as to why this number was default, and somehow my pea brain led me into believing this might be e message centre. I press SEND. Silly, i didnt even press friend's contact, how would it know who to send to? So....it sent to this mysterious person on e other line. Moments later, a chinese-accented lady called and scream at me, letting me know, i'm not to harass her again.!!Of cos i act blur when she questioned about e messages i send her.

SONY... have you gotten your own plasma tv? lalalaah~

E new job is entirely different from e last one. No more seated in front of the computer and luxurious toilets waiting for me. Most important of all, i was forced to give up my beloved k500i. Arrrghhhh.. what can be worst than that? I thought? But, i came to realise, i survived well. even without her. Gotten a samsung phone from xh. My first clam phone in history. Come to think of it, to be down to basics isnt that bad. Its only then that i realised, i dont need a lot of things to stay happy.

Still trying to this totally different workplace. Not only e genre of e job is different, but, e company dynamics is different too. Changed to a real small department where everyone seems are like one big family. Changed from talking about struts, walers and splays to COD, chemicals, stacks etc.....indeed, a real drastic change.

Saw someone at workplace thats resembles SL so much, that it kinda freak me out. Haah, not that SL is scary, but e feeling is kinda strange. Its like you saw an old friend, but you know that this person in front of you is not her. Hmm, got to keep remind myself that she is not her. Sounds strange, but its true. Probably is her spectacles, or her eyes or her build. Yikes...the percentage of similarity is so high! SL, dont know if you know i'm talking about you... but hey, I FOUND SOMEONE WHO LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE YOU, ermm, but she's not as weird as you?? *grins*

For once, so damn tired that i wanna head for bed asap. Went blading with wp,hf and binz. SL didnt come in e end. So kinda pissed when i heard that. How can people just decided not to meet you in e end. Its like you're in lower priority as compared to other people or things. But, i wronged her. Cos she definitely had a valid reason to stood us up.But, as for people who wish to meet up, you agreed and some others agreed. In e end, probably this particular one decided not to show up. Well, what can i say? Their other friends' company are preferred over yours and your friends. This kinda people, i guess i dont really give them a damn. When counting in e fun, forget about them, cos at e last minute, when they found better company, they abandon you for them. As for SL, i really appreciated e thought of her calling up to explain that she couldnt make it. If its me, probably informing one person is sufficient.

"You're not e best, but its okie, better than nothing. . " from that person?

Blading sucks big time. E blades dont fit me well or i have dumb feet. Throughout e blading session, my feet felt so strained. Especially that arched part of my feet, poor thing. Hf said that she could see that my feet was like twisting from e blades as i moved. I give up. Not gonna touch anymore blades in e days to come. Probably when i remember how tortureous it is, i'll pick it up again. Besides that, i'm like on highwire, doing sudden attempts of stretching my arms straight or moving my body here and there to get back my balance. It must be very comical for an onlooker. *grins* e part i like best is e hump. I used to be real wishy washy when it comes to e hump. But, today, i glided gracefully over it most of e time. Sometimes, like a comical scene of a character moving his feet so fast on e same spot of e ice floor in order to prevent falling, that's what i did to prevent myself from gliding backwards, but to try at get over e hump.

What an accomplishment, haah, humps! i've conquered it!!

Though totally drained by e session, its as though i was on heels e whole day. Yeah, its that strenuous.. its been a great day! cos i gotten something i really like and its love at first sight. To buy something you really like a lot, e feeling is unimaginable. Not often does it happens though. Most of e time, they might be stuff you pretty like only.

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Dinner was great too. Porriage with century egg!!!~ Irresistable!!!~ *grins*

Bedtime....~ and then e choo choo train comes and take me away. .

July... a month with lotsa things worth anticipating for. Only :( is that i cant go bangkok anymore.

Gakuen Alice episode 9 is finally out. Geez, so addictive yet its released so slow. I meant e english subbed ones, chinese subbed ones are faster, but ermm, i cant read that fast.So? Spoil e show. But i kinda regret now. Cos, i dont even know if Naisho Fansubs will manage to release till 26. Skali halfway, e show is licenced, that's it!! Anyway, too late to get chinese ones now, cos they're up to 23 now. So earlier ones will be hard to find. Duh~

Eva said she dont understand my blog entries. Haah, who cares, this blog's main purpose is to serve as a reference point for me when i look back in e months to come. So, if people dont understand, might as well. Like WG, i sometimes get a bit paranoid too. Cos, i dont even know who's might have read this. Sometimes, i would rather nobody viewed e entries too.

Listening to Go Go and mei mei-Say forever, F4, Daniel Chan, Dai Pei Ni, Hou Xiang Ting etc etc. Nice, so nice. .

Beach day tomorrow! tsk tsk
E last time, i went with mel. So concidentally, JK and gang decided to go ubin that day too. When, could have joined them, but haah, i forgot mel is a beginner. Actually, seated near e beach, looking out at e vast sea, enjoying e breeze against your face, having heart to heart talks is really nice too.

At the gate, i started running towards the yellowish field. The sun shone brightly. The wind brushed against my face. Moments later, looking back, i could no longer see e gate. Here i am, amist this vast field.I continue sprinting forward at full speed. Ahead, a tiny image of a tree appeared. Soon, the tree became larger and larger, I have came to manificient looking tree. Like in a dream, i dont experience fatigue. Neither am i panting. Placing my hand on its trunk, feeling e rough bark against my palm. I looked at e leaf beneath my feet. I bend down to pick it up and smiled. Its all dried up and any slight force on it could send it shattering into pieces. With it in my hand, i sat down. Sat down, with my back against e tree. Enjoying the view before me.
*If i leapt into e air as i sprint, i would have leapt high up into e air, floating forward in the air. So peaceful, i just felt like smiling and smiling. *


Guan De Hui - Mei Mong Chen Zhen
Wo men dou you yi ke xiang fei de xin
yin wei wo men dou sheng sheng xiang xin....
Ming Tian jiang hui, you qian wan ge mong chen zhen
rang wo men dou da kai yi dao xi wang de men
Ming tian jiang hui, you qian wan ge meng cheng zhen
Yin jie mei ge zhen cheng de meng
Jiu xiang ling yi ge xin de luu cheng
^_^

Ohh ya, i must get an IRA soon. Gaahhh...have a change of e themes, next is e games!!~ To splurge 30 bucks on it isnt that overboard ehh? Cos say 2 years down e road, even if i have e money for this kinda stuff, i'll probably change to a 3G phone lor. .

By: 温岚,周杰伦

我知道伤心不能改变什么　那么　让我诚实一点
诚实　难免有不能控制的宣泄　
只要关上了门　不必理谁

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面　手机　让它休息一夜 　＊
难　像切歌切掉回忆的画面　眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐　我对自己说　＃
蜡烛点了　寂寞亮了 　
生日快乐　泪也融了　
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你　带一点恨　△
还要时间　才能平衡 　
热恋伤痕　幻灭重生　
祝我生日快乐

Repeat ＊,＃,△,△

Today is my last day at work and from monday onwards.. i'm going to embark on a new journey. My venture into a new job. Uncertainities, its wearing me out. Foolish? Probably, i kept asking myself whether to accept this offer. But, seriously, i'm tired, tired of waiting aimlessly for dunno what! Fai used to say cant possibly have people making decisions for me, but i really dont know what I want. I just know I'm sick and tired of waiting for something..that something which even me, myself wasnt certain what to expect. I just wanna land and settle down at a harbour somewhere. Be it an old and dilapidated one, or even just a small fishing village. I just wanna settle down and venture through something new. Probably through this, i might discover what i really want. But, if i continue staying on e ship, i'll never know what to expect. Probably i have to do it e harsh way.

Worst of all, few days i accepted this offer, out came another headache. I received another offer. Damn, if this had come earlier, i might go for it. No, i dont have a right to choose anymore. But, i cant helped but think about it.

Absurd? That's what i thought too. Cos when people ask, i wasnt for sure what e job gonna be like. Its like, i jump into it without knowing much. Then, they asked about benefits, i said there's none. Their eyes grew big and one of e collague said, " yeah, just like a typical youngster embarking on their first career, money, benefits, none seems to matter as much as e job itself." For me, its a mixure of that and a determination to get out of my present state. Insane, probably. Cos without e benefits, wasnt i back to square one again? Its as though i'm back to my old job. What e difference? Exposure, i guess. I really hope i do gain something out of this venture.

If i say i dont miss e people at my company, i lied. How can i not? Each and everyone of them have their own and unique personalities, its been great knowing them. Fancy being able to help him. Arrghh, cant remember his name, but this 1967 chap. People, its really hard to guess their ages these days. Sometimes, i thought, this person dont look like 28, but hey, i know he looks like few years older than me. So, he's got to be around that age etc. But, look at me, i dont look like my age too, no wonder its that hard to determine a person's age visually. Back to him, he's patient and so willing to explain things to me in great detail. Like a big brother like that. Yup, its not like my sup doesnt explain to me, but hmm, he didnt do a good job, i guess. But, him, its really a joy to work under him. He would make e whole session so casual that i dont feel any stress. But, hey, its hard to imagine he's that old. I thought he's at most 30.

Things, they have to come to an end eventually. So, to leave that place is unavoidable. No matter how much i've grown to like that place, i cant possibly stay on. Actually, i could. But, call me a coward, its such a stressful place that i'm afraid i might burn out. That's why despite so many people asking/telling me, i didnt thought of converting. Yaah, that's why i'm so eager to get out of there.

XL supposed to set off for aus at 950am. But alas, e plane was delayed due to techinical problem. I thought at most it would be ready by 12. But no, only by next day 1am. Nuts... that's e first time i heard of airline companies being so inefficient and that's not even a budget flight. So, other passengers and her were put up at a hotel. Kinda strange, cos she's in singapore, but spending a way different day.

Was on mediacorp webbie and went through e clips of e contestants from JUe Dui Superstars. Some have looks, but lousy vocals. Basically, e moment they sang, you'll know. Their voices just aint rich enough. But, this visually handicapped guy, Weilian. He really got me. I saw his performance clip and he sang "i believe". Its so fantastically done. His emotions, i can feel it. Its as though he sang it from e bottom of his heart. Its as though he's believing that he'll make it into e finals despite his handicap. But, its a realistic world after all, so there's no way he would win it. Cos, i doubt there's much market out there for him.

Landy, Wen Lan. Hmm, dont really like her. But, wow, captivated by a song sang by her. Errmmmm, just realised its by her.*Amazed*

Oh yah, i had some chocolates with me just now. Stephen happened to walk past. So i told him if he's interested in them, he can take from e plastic bag. Moments later, i was searching for another ferro roche given by KL. But, its gone!!!~ hmph, must be him. duh~ Anything but that....after all, its given by someone. Not too nice to give someone something that's given to you by someone else, right?