I wanna have an alice too!!~

So now i know. Summer and Auutmn cant exist at the same time. Really, in e dreams only. But alas, dreams...they stay that way.

Frankly, i dont give a freaking damn about it. Call me mean. I dont care. After all, i've been Mr nice guy for so long, its time to air the cushion and let it have a breather. Like what i used to say to Y. I dont give a damn, all i care is ...what i really cared about. It sounded mean, it sounded harsh, but its a fact.

But the rain wont stop
and maurfus just stood there dazed
hazy
its time to move on
to the apple tree
munch on the apple
it came
it did
it stopped
grinned
and left
maurfus should too

Its cool to have someone to crap to during this period. No obligations. No questions asked. Just pure crap.

Heard a really nice song just now by Wham. Last christmas ...

Last christmas
I gave u my heart
and the very next day
you gave it away

Seems like the season is drawing near and xmas song just flooded the radio. One of the DJ mentioned that its pretty strange that despite such a happy season, sad xmas songs existed too

As if retribution, I'm getting what i've given to others.

Why cant things be simpler.
Why cant you just tell me exactly how everything is.
Why cant i just understand what e whole damn thing is about.
Why cant i just forget about this whole damn thing

As for e JJs, i was tempted to ask if my guesses were right, but i kept refraining myself from doing so. Such a simple task, just ask a question, yet its so hard to carry it out.

As for kids, they're just so adorablely innocent. All you have to do is to fill them some food and you've gained their trust. I was pretty amazed myself. Kids, they're indeed fun creatures, no wonder sl loves joash so.

I dont like to divert my path
I dont like to wonder
I like to walk a straight path
yet things are never that simple
circumstances
they are always exist to complicate matters

Mentioned that i was at lost soul's blog again and was surprised that JJ remembered how i was kinda saddened that time when i mentioned it. So i was at the blog again, probably re-reading those entries again. He placed sort of disclaimer... not meant for the depressed. So depressing it was. JJ said friends should have noticed something is wrong from the blog and do something about it and not lamering about it when things are over. But, who could have noticed it. Its sounded so much like some pure grumbling session, some place where one vents their fustration.

Barrrh..time to go driving. Geez...

Sooon..
soon, i'll be to slow down my pace
and rest at the apple tree
enjoying the serenry
enjoying the breeze

Yea, that's me at the fake summit....

Oh well, we didnt make it to e real summit, but who cares? I guess we'll seen e niceest view up there and to me that's pretty sufficient. haha. at least i made it to next highest point i think. (initally thought of giving up and staying halfway with sl, but decided to climb all e way eventually.) Definitely glad i did, cos the view is simply awesome as well.

The view up those mountains is just so nice lor...hahaha. Imagine LOTR. .

Oh yaa....forgot to mention i was off trekking in indonesia, at an island called lombok. Rijani is the name of the volcano i think. First time trekking at such a high altitude and i was left breathless. Eager to trek fast, i found myself out of breaths. The way up on the first day was maddening tiring but the scenary was maddening beautiful. Despite bringing along my thermal wear, i left it in another bag and was left utterly unprepared to face the harsh weather. Obviously i underestimated the terrain and over-packed ..resulting in a really heavy bag. So much that so that i even had to have lessy carry for me. *grins* Lessy...obviously that wasnt his name, but its funny if you know what i'm laughing at. . Cos Lessy is e name of a dog they somehow came name it as and lessy can also be related to someone else. Overall, the terrain is super steep, so steep that one can literally go tumbling down if one dont watch it. To run down or to steadily tread the way down, each have their style.

The terrain is damn dusty. Dusts just flew up when one steps slightlly harder on the ground. As i was often out of breaths, i used my mouth instead to breathe. Geezz...no wonder my throat was gone so fast.


Bali
its maddening beautiful too. But too bad we only spend a day and a half there. Thanks to Ma-de for droving us around, we managed to go to some of the niceest pplaces at bali. I cant believe that i couldnt even recall e name of the places i've been to. Hehe, i searched on the internet and these are the places:

Dreamland Beach
is a beach located on the Bukit peninsula, on the island of Bali, Indonesia. It is located at 08°47′58″S, 115°07′04″E. The beach provides basic accommodation and cafes for surfers and day trippers. One of the most beautiful beaches on the island, it is also renowned for its dangerous shorebreak. It is the site of the failed Pectau Graha development, planned by Tommy Suharto, the corrupt youngest son of the former president Suharto.

Uluwatu temple
At the western most tip of Bukit Peninsula, this is of one bali’s nine “directional” Kayangan Jagat Temples. The location is dramatic, perched on the edge of a high cliff with a picturesque sunset view. The temple was first used for worship by the holy 11th century priest, Empu Kuturan, who came to Bali to bring religious law and to form Desa Adat (traditional villages). Filled with the scent of frangipani blossoms and is also the home of friendly monkeys.



Tanah Lot
k, we went there for sunset, but it wasnt nice to me, at least.


Back to the harsh reality once again.. *sulk*

Wooohooo, got home at 630 today. pengz cool!!!

I replied that i was feeling damn sian today and not feeling a wink bit of efficiency there too.
"Wanna go?"
"ok, give me 5 mins" i replied spontaneously.

What's wrong with me these days, i wondered? To say i'm burnt out? Not really the case, considering i was paid to go and play for 2 days. Well, tactically i am, but realistically, i am not. Like BB said, didnt really feel like i enjoyed myself much nor relaxed much.

Was pretty caught by surprise by Von's comments. Kk, that just proved how narrow one's perspective can be. A simple thing to you can meant a world to someone. Really creating a molehill out of ......

Still, i felt that it isnt really much of an issue.

Sometimes, before we even made a move
we've decided how its all gonna be
that imaginary divider we've drawn ourselves
has unintentionally complicated things
unknowingly
shutting us from the others
not allowing anyone to draw near too

Went to the orthodontist today. Woohooo..talking about a huge word. I shone a face of ??? when someone first spoke of that word to me. Still am now, but no, i got to get the word by heart cos i'll be frequently using it soon enough.

Never imagined my teeth had that much problems. Sometimes, we really dont have a choice. I thought they aint that bad and i could just heck it. Geez, so what if i didnt have the perfect smile in the world? If i had to dump all those money in to get it, i'm fine without it. But, things aint that simple. Now what?! I risked getting my teeth worn off and other major problems if i'm going to leave them alone. What e freak. Talking about having choices in life..what's there left for me? lol

The thought of having braces on for 2 donkey years seems like a feat initally, but hey no, was slightly shaken when i mentioned it Root. Anyway, i seems too old for these nonsenses!!! To think i'm even going to embark on my first physical surgery. I never thought have getting anything like that done on me. Seriously, i somehow have e mentality that we should stick to whatever we're born with and not making any attempts to change any of it. Yet, i'm going to doing something to my teeth...hmmmm.

Oh yaahh...drinking on a weekday is really suicidal . Had a split headache the next day and yet have to act like everything's perfectly alright. Geezz....can't possibly tell e whole world right? But, the beer was shiok...keke