Tuesday, January 31, 2006
I realised something, i really ought to write down things somewhere, least i forgot all about it in e days to come.
Bohnanza and Loco! were e games we have been playing e whole night! I must really admit e Bohnanza was so fun and hilarious that i wished we've played more. Strange, really strange, e games people come up with. Who would have thought a card game on beans and farming would have been that fun. Hmm, let's see. Wax,Soy,Chili,blue,black-eyed,red,cocoa, garden and etc beans. I guess its was fun cos its funny how e extent of "lame-ness" we can get so that we can get e cards we want and of course ultimately, earn more money. Basically, it starts off with everyone having 5 cards in their hands. Not allowed to pick any card at random, they're to place 1-2 cards on e table(to plant e beans). Next, collect 2 cards from e deck and put on e table. Either trade with others or plant those beans. But, the crucial thing here is we only have 2 fields to start with and each can hold only 1 type of bean. Blahh.... blah...blah... heheheh, lazy to state e whole rules here, after all, who knows when i'll get to play this game again.
As for Loco!, its even more interesting, with just a deck of cards and some chips, there goes a game that can be learned in a mere 30 secs. Yeah right, 30 secs. Kinda exaggerating though, cos who e hell can finish explaining in 30 secs?! But its pretty interesting though, cos one really need to play a lot of rounds to be able to come with some strategies. But then again, this game doesnt have much logic, so to come up with strategies from e logical point of view, its futile.
Well, that's basically how my new year was spent. First day at mel's place, second at fai's and third day on my bed, trying to catch up with my beauty sleep. Relatives did pop by on e first night and somehow, i'm kinda glad i'm home instead of outside. Though kinda disappointed that xl gave a lame excuse for not meeting me. The reason for being glad? Probably cos they did made an effort to come and i'm there to serve them drinks? and chat with them?
Frankly, new year is fun and sickening in some ways. This year, was e first time i didnt really went visiting relatives. Staying at home and having to eat e same dishes over and over again is really dreadful. Worst of all is that after e food are done with , instant noodles or fastfood outlets are all we have as no other shops are open. Food these past few days are so terrible that i cant wait for the holidays to be over. I bet i must have lost some weight these couple of days.
Bohnanza and Loco! were e games we have been playing e whole night! I must really admit e Bohnanza was so fun and hilarious that i wished we've played more. Strange, really strange, e games people come up with. Who would have thought a card game on beans and farming would have been that fun. Hmm, let's see. Wax,Soy,Chili,blue,black-eyed,red,cocoa, garden and etc beans. I guess its was fun cos its funny how e extent of "lame-ness" we can get so that we can get e cards we want and of course ultimately, earn more money. Basically, it starts off with everyone having 5 cards in their hands. Not allowed to pick any card at random, they're to place 1-2 cards on e table(to plant e beans). Next, collect 2 cards from e deck and put on e table. Either trade with others or plant those beans. But, the crucial thing here is we only have 2 fields to start with and each can hold only 1 type of bean. Blahh.... blah...blah... heheheh, lazy to state e whole rules here, after all, who knows when i'll get to play this game again.
As for Loco!, its even more interesting, with just a deck of cards and some chips, there goes a game that can be learned in a mere 30 secs. Yeah right, 30 secs. Kinda exaggerating though, cos who e hell can finish explaining in 30 secs?! But its pretty interesting though, cos one really need to play a lot of rounds to be able to come with some strategies. But then again, this game doesnt have much logic, so to come up with strategies from e logical point of view, its futile.
Well, that's basically how my new year was spent. First day at mel's place, second at fai's and third day on my bed, trying to catch up with my beauty sleep. Relatives did pop by on e first night and somehow, i'm kinda glad i'm home instead of outside. Though kinda disappointed that xl gave a lame excuse for not meeting me. The reason for being glad? Probably cos they did made an effort to come and i'm there to serve them drinks? and chat with them?
Frankly, new year is fun and sickening in some ways. This year, was e first time i didnt really went visiting relatives. Staying at home and having to eat e same dishes over and over again is really dreadful. Worst of all is that after e food are done with , instant noodles or fastfood outlets are all we have as no other shops are open. Food these past few days are so terrible that i cant wait for the holidays to be over. I bet i must have lost some weight these couple of days.
Monday, January 30, 2006
Byakuyakou dou FMA
Its not what it seems
running from fear
it isnt so
looking for them
that's what it is
Al
not daring to say
wasnt because hesitatinh to tell you the truth you imagined
but to ask
if you hated the thing i've done to you
Think twice, that's what we really ought to do
3 mins..that's all it took for e a quarter of the sun to set
split second...that's it took to see your invisible tears
and there i stood
in a daze
in the rain
pondering what you have said
Yukiho
could i have been better off not knowing you
no, the answer was no
cos without you
i would never have learnt to smile
the day you enshroud the sun from my sight
my world didnt grew dark
cos there you are
my sun
running from fear
it isnt so
looking for them
that's what it is
Al
not daring to say
wasnt because hesitatinh to tell you the truth you imagined
but to ask
if you hated the thing i've done to you
Think twice, that's what we really ought to do
3 mins..that's all it took for e a quarter of the sun to set
split second...that's it took to see your invisible tears
and there i stood
in a daze
in the rain
pondering what you have said
Yukiho
could i have been better off not knowing you
no, the answer was no
cos without you
i would never have learnt to smile
the day you enshroud the sun from my sight
my world didnt grew dark
cos there you are
my sun
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Anger is like a hot coal you held in your hands, wanting to hurl at others.
In e end, e one that really gets hurt is yourself.
What an interesting quote and how true it is. Many a time, we just couldnt take it and get so angry over silly things. To attain e state of reverse physchology is just so tough. Havin those tough words thrown right in your face, but remain totally unruffled and maintaining a smile. Hmm, i've a long way to go. This applies to some lousy memories we have too.
Time really flies
Fast, so fast
once we stood together
embracing e future before us
now we stood apart
embracing e future before us
the playground is still that fun
the grass is still that green
the sky is still so blue
the bird deserves e sky
its time
its time
In e end, e one that really gets hurt is yourself.
What an interesting quote and how true it is. Many a time, we just couldnt take it and get so angry over silly things. To attain e state of reverse physchology is just so tough. Havin those tough words thrown right in your face, but remain totally unruffled and maintaining a smile. Hmm, i've a long way to go. This applies to some lousy memories we have too.
Time really flies
Fast, so fast
once we stood together
embracing e future before us
now we stood apart
embracing e future before us
the playground is still that fun
the grass is still that green
the sky is still so blue
the bird deserves e sky
its time
its time
Thursday, January 26, 2006
To someone who flirts outside, despite having an nice wife waiting at home. To someone so petty, narrow-minded, dont mean what he say, demanding, think so highly of himself, who always act like he is so busy(dying from e loads of work, yet still have time for idle chat), who doesnt treat people with respect and worst of all, gossipy, I'M DISGUSTED WITH YOU.
Idiotic dodo. If i can keep miles away from you, i will.
Beauty, its really nothing found at e surface, but deep inside. Its a wonderful thing that not only brings a smile to someone, but also makes one's day.
The best part about holidays and weekends is being able to recuperate from e internal injuries delivered from dodos. A dodo a day can easily shorten one's lifespan. SO GLAD ITS FRIDAY!!! Thank GOD ITS FRIDAY and i can live in a dodo-free environment for a week!! Hurray!!!!
No matter how long it has been. Some songs are just ever-lasting classics that never fails to bring back some emotions in me. Each song seems to represent a delicate part of my memory and through them, i recovered those hidden feelings and emotions that seemed forgotten till i stumble on them accidentally. Each song is like a story between me and someone else.
Listening to Another level-From the heart now. Cant really remember nor connect anything, but nonetheless, it still a really nice song. As for classics from westlife to A1, who can forget them, after all, they've had unknowingly formed a huge segment of my memories. I wonder if i were to suffer from a loss of memory one fine day, would these songs aid in my recovery process? It might, but it wouldnt be much help though, since not much people really know what songs i really like! Hmm, if i were to lose most of my memory, or e whole of it, i wonder what would come to my mind first? Who would i remember first.
Could be your eyes
could be your smile
could be the way you feel my mind
your precious touch
carress my soul
you gave me everything i need
and now i'm lost
lost forever.....
lost forever....
Idiotic dodo. If i can keep miles away from you, i will.
Beauty, its really nothing found at e surface, but deep inside. Its a wonderful thing that not only brings a smile to someone, but also makes one's day.
The best part about holidays and weekends is being able to recuperate from e internal injuries delivered from dodos. A dodo a day can easily shorten one's lifespan. SO GLAD ITS FRIDAY!!! Thank GOD ITS FRIDAY and i can live in a dodo-free environment for a week!! Hurray!!!!
No matter how long it has been. Some songs are just ever-lasting classics that never fails to bring back some emotions in me. Each song seems to represent a delicate part of my memory and through them, i recovered those hidden feelings and emotions that seemed forgotten till i stumble on them accidentally. Each song is like a story between me and someone else.
Listening to Another level-From the heart now. Cant really remember nor connect anything, but nonetheless, it still a really nice song. As for classics from westlife to A1, who can forget them, after all, they've had unknowingly formed a huge segment of my memories. I wonder if i were to suffer from a loss of memory one fine day, would these songs aid in my recovery process? It might, but it wouldnt be much help though, since not much people really know what songs i really like! Hmm, if i were to lose most of my memory, or e whole of it, i wonder what would come to my mind first? Who would i remember first.
Could be your eyes
could be your smile
could be the way you feel my mind
your precious touch
carress my soul
you gave me everything i need
and now i'm lost
lost forever.....
lost forever....
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Was and wasnt isnt e same....stop makin e same mistake!!!~ Grrrr...
Happiness, a lot of things can cause it. And today? My feelings are pretty. For one, i seems to recall quite a lot of things. Things that people said. I used to not remembering things people told me. Was it because i never tried putting effort to remembering them, but instead, chose to remember it at that point in time and erase off once the conversation is closed. Yet today, i tried running through what was said to me and seriously thought about it.
Today was like another adventure. Did a lot of things, like getting poked. I never really thought of it as a big deal, but just kinda worried as i didnt ate anything before that. But all ends well. Then, its chinatown again. Was there e previous night but e feeling was different. Probably it was e period of e day, e weather or e person. Today was fun, cos e weather was great, though i was perspiring like a dog. There were quite a lot of things i spotted and i was really keen on getting them, but decided to give it a miss in e end. I guess i still belonged to type 2, e kind that need to throughly think about it before i can settle down on purchasing it. WY say that would be a real waste of time, as there isnt really anything thats absolutely perfect. No matter what you settle down with, something better is bound to come along e way. So, what ultimately is crucial is how you face it, i guess.
Met e supposely birthday people and some fellas for dinner. Its pretty interesting as everyone shared their gossips and views etc. Probably cos i wasnt directly irritated by someone, so i sort of thought someone was perfectly alright. Being slow, insensitive, hesitant seeems perfectly fine to me. Was it cos i was like that at times? So that's why i can think in her shoes?
They say love can change a person and i have to agree with that. One can be drastically changed at times. It all depends on e type of relationship between e couple. Like who is dominant or submissive one, or is it a equal situation. At one point you can totally dont give a damn to e other yet in e other case, you're totally willing to give in.
Time for bed. Was so tired today. Haha, its funny when u have to shaken yourself up when you're in e mist of state where you're in deep sleep. Was i? Nah...but i guess i probably just entered e state of sound sleep yet somehow i opened my eyes and realised i'm home. Though subconsciously wanted to just freak it and go back to slumberland, yet have to force myself to fully awaken and take a good look at e surroundings. Wondered how i managed to think that i've reached and actually stood up, half steadily going to e exit to alight, and half peering through e window, at e world outside e bus. Then ..... i realised, hey, that wasnt e stop!!!! but close to it. *grins* Looks like it isnt only e booze that does funny stuff to one...
Today was like another adventure. Did a lot of things, like getting poked. I never really thought of it as a big deal, but just kinda worried as i didnt ate anything before that. But all ends well. Then, its chinatown again. Was there e previous night but e feeling was different. Probably it was e period of e day, e weather or e person. Today was fun, cos e weather was great, though i was perspiring like a dog. There were quite a lot of things i spotted and i was really keen on getting them, but decided to give it a miss in e end. I guess i still belonged to type 2, e kind that need to throughly think about it before i can settle down on purchasing it. WY say that would be a real waste of time, as there isnt really anything thats absolutely perfect. No matter what you settle down with, something better is bound to come along e way. So, what ultimately is crucial is how you face it, i guess.
Met e supposely birthday people and some fellas for dinner. Its pretty interesting as everyone shared their gossips and views etc. Probably cos i wasnt directly irritated by someone, so i sort of thought someone was perfectly alright. Being slow, insensitive, hesitant seeems perfectly fine to me. Was it cos i was like that at times? So that's why i can think in her shoes?
They say love can change a person and i have to agree with that. One can be drastically changed at times. It all depends on e type of relationship between e couple. Like who is dominant or submissive one, or is it a equal situation. At one point you can totally dont give a damn to e other yet in e other case, you're totally willing to give in.
Time for bed. Was so tired today. Haha, its funny when u have to shaken yourself up when you're in e mist of state where you're in deep sleep. Was i? Nah...but i guess i probably just entered e state of sound sleep yet somehow i opened my eyes and realised i'm home. Though subconsciously wanted to just freak it and go back to slumberland, yet have to force myself to fully awaken and take a good look at e surroundings. Wondered how i managed to think that i've reached and actually stood up, half steadily going to e exit to alight, and half peering through e window, at e world outside e bus. Then ..... i realised, hey, that wasnt e stop!!!! but close to it. *grins* Looks like it isnt only e booze that does funny stuff to one...
Saturday, January 21, 2006
OMG...felt like a jinx today. First wy lost e atm card then e new pants. Cant believe that we carried e paper bag all e way only to find a hole at e bottom of it at e end. But luckily, e pants was found in e end.
Today was like going on a travel show, cos we covered so much terrain in a day and did so much.vrooommm, stand, talk, eat, talk, walk, talk, shop, walk, talk, sit, talk, rain, walk, sit, talk, walk, stop, walk, vrooooom, walk, talk, rain, walk, eat, talk, walk, stand, talk, walk,
vrooomm, -THE END-
Time for a quick shower, then some FMA and bed....
Today was like going on a travel show, cos we covered so much terrain in a day and did so much.vrooommm, stand, talk, eat, talk, walk, talk, shop, walk, talk, sit, talk, rain, walk, sit, talk, walk, stop, walk, vrooooom, walk, talk, rain, walk, eat, talk, walk, stand, talk, walk,
vrooomm, -THE END-
Time for a quick shower, then some FMA and bed....
Friday, January 20, 2006
version 2 is born!!
Yeah!!! version 2 of my blog is born today and i really love it.But, more things need to be done, thus construction is still in progress. Meanwhile, all that triggered this major revamp is some random sketches i've done.
But, geez....photobucket is down and i cant upload a single thing up to share with everyone.
meanwhile.....what kind of drink are you to me?
But, geez....photobucket is down and i cant upload a single thing up to share with everyone.
meanwhile.....what kind of drink are you to me?
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Lets cross our fingers.....
Somehow, i cant find Guo mei mei's gou gou shou lyrics despite searching the net.
The lyrics is something like this.......
Heart, being blown by the sea breeze
A kind of salty freedom
It still aches badly
When the sun fell silent
Our story continues
Pain, being blown by the time
Today's freedom
Is a bridge of rainbow
led me in welcoming the brightest skies of tomorrow
I walked on with the tears
using smiles to exchange for those seagulls of happiness
Lets cross our fingers
Dont say you aint happy
just discard all the unbearable feelings
memories became e wind.....blah .....blah....
Lets cross our fingers
If we met someone better
Must be more courageous and go for it
and blah blah....
Realising of the things i'm unaware of, i felt fortunate of who i am and what i have.
At least i dont go through e horror of waking up one morning realising something is not right
realising that i might be someone of the opposite sex?! What horror it must have been, for those 1 in 10,000 people, who had been brought up like a girl, but realising she is a guy and vice versa.
I remembered that the doctor said clearly that babies are born having their sexes determined by their physical appearances. But, a person could have genetically been a guy having xy chromosomes, but somehow having a perfect woman's body at birth. What a cruel joke God has played on mankind, or rather him/her.
If present infront of you, is a path that led to a house that offers you a night of warmth. Would you decide to forgo it and turn into e other path that leads unknowingly on, full of uncertainties but knowing that you would enjoy e sights you see along e way. Ok, it wasnt really what i meant, but pretty close to e question that was thrown to me.
As i talked to paula, i begun to thought of things too.
The lyrics is something like this.......
Heart, being blown by the sea breeze
A kind of salty freedom
It still aches badly
When the sun fell silent
Our story continues
Pain, being blown by the time
Today's freedom
Is a bridge of rainbow
led me in welcoming the brightest skies of tomorrow
I walked on with the tears
using smiles to exchange for those seagulls of happiness
Lets cross our fingers
Dont say you aint happy
just discard all the unbearable feelings
memories became e wind.....blah .....blah....
Lets cross our fingers
If we met someone better
Must be more courageous and go for it
and blah blah....
Realising of the things i'm unaware of, i felt fortunate of who i am and what i have.
At least i dont go through e horror of waking up one morning realising something is not right
realising that i might be someone of the opposite sex?! What horror it must have been, for those 1 in 10,000 people, who had been brought up like a girl, but realising she is a guy and vice versa.
I remembered that the doctor said clearly that babies are born having their sexes determined by their physical appearances. But, a person could have genetically been a guy having xy chromosomes, but somehow having a perfect woman's body at birth. What a cruel joke God has played on mankind, or rather him/her.
If present infront of you, is a path that led to a house that offers you a night of warmth. Would you decide to forgo it and turn into e other path that leads unknowingly on, full of uncertainties but knowing that you would enjoy e sights you see along e way. Ok, it wasnt really what i meant, but pretty close to e question that was thrown to me.
As i talked to paula, i begun to thought of things too.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Stairway to heaven
Started watching a new series yesterday. To be precise, on late friday night. I reckon i caught 3 + plus episodes till almost 6am. Thats when i suddenly found myself falling asleep on e chair. The last thing i can remember was i was preparing e bed before i dozed off. Hmmm, it isnt really new considering that it has probably finished on the local tv. But, hearing on how great it is, i decided to take a peek. Well, it got me hooked. Stairway to heaven is its english-translated name.
Its interesting to know that its one of e shows that got me crying almost every episode since. Though before i actually sat down and watched this show, everyone was telling me how lousy Han Tae-hwa was. Though cruel, he still decided not to lie his way through when he finished that wall painting and decided to tell Han Jung-suh/Kim Ji-su about it. For that, we can see he is not rotten to e extreme and i admire his honesty in e end. The thing i remembered he said was, he thought by keeping Jung-suh by his side, he would achieve happiness. It does not matter if he gets into hell by doing that, at least he has her by his side. But, he was enjoying the bliss happiness while feeling tortured too.
As for Jung-suh, she's just far too kind, thoughtful and pitiful. Who would have guessed that idiotic step-mum of hers was putting up an act in liking her. The worst thing of all is that she decided to put up with all e abuse so that her dad would continue to be in his new-found happiness. To think that she didnt even fight back when Yuri treated her so badly. If it was me, i would have slapped her upside down. It even puzzles me more when she regained her memory, but didnt told Cha Song-ju that she is actually Jun-suh. What's holding her back really?
AS for Cha Song-ju, i guess i remember his characteristic mischivious wink. It really fustrating how he couldnt simply forget Jun-suh, yet still decides to have an engagement with Yuri. What e heck is he thinking. I wont know, cos i'm only halfway through. But, i'm glad for his persistance in Jung-suh though.
Overall, i really like this drama. Though there are real mean characters who fakes their way through things all e time and i really hate them for it! I cant really remember if other korean shows are like this, in e sense everyone just kept crying and crying. It isnt those loud Boo-hoOs, but those silent ones with tearing flowing non-stop. The amount of sorrow that is within ..., that one experiences.
Hmnmm, this show has really rekindles my lovc for korean drama!~ *grins* I have decided to slow down my pace in this show, least i cant remember it in e days to come when i'm done with e show. Though i'm really eager to see how things would turn out, but i guess its worth e wait. But, its a amazing feat considering i managed to finished about 9 episodes in a day. Geez....
As for the music/songs in this show, without a doubt, they're excellent. Keke, guess my ears would suffer from numerous repeats of these tracks in e days to come. Its amazing how e visual effects and the outcome of hearing numerous times can do to a person. One can grow from feeling nothing to them to liking them to a huge extent and having those tracks repeatedly playing in e head! One of e tracks is by chopin. Of course, its e music that Cha Song-Ju played on e piano. Hmmm, i never knew Chopin produced such nice pieces, no wonder Jay Chow has named his latest album after him. Well, i only realised today who 萧邦 was.
Cha Song-ju:
--as a teen: Baek Sung Hyun (Damo/Sweet Bear)--as an adult: Kwon Sang Woo (Delicious Proposal)
Han Jung-suh/Kim Ji-su
--as a teen: Park Shin Hye --as an adult: Choi Ji Woo (Winter Ballad/Beautiful Days)
Han Tae-hwa/Han Chul-su
--as a teen: Lee Wan (Snow White)--as an adult: Shin Hyun Joon (Wedding Dress)
Han Yuri:
--as a teen: Park Ji Mi (Kukhee/Cinderella) --as an adult: Kim Tae Hee
Tae Mira
(Tae-hwa & Yuri's mom, actress): Lee Hui Hyang
Its interesting to know that its one of e shows that got me crying almost every episode since
As for Jung-suh, she's just far too kind, thoughtful and pitiful. Who would have guessed that idiotic step-mum of hers was putting up an act in liking her. The worst thing of all is that she decided to put up with all e abuse so that her dad would continue to be in his new-found happiness. To think that she didnt even fight back when Yuri treated her so badly. If it was me, i would have slapped her upside down. It even puzzles me more when she regained her memory, but didnt told Cha Song-ju that she is actually Jun-suh. What's holding her back really?
AS for Cha Song-ju, i guess i remember his characteristic mischivious wink. It really fustrating how he couldnt simply forget Jun-suh, yet still decides to have an engagement with Yuri. What e heck is he thinking. I wont know, cos i'm only halfway through. But, i'm glad for his persistance in Jung-suh though.
Overall, i really like this drama. Though there are real mean characters who fakes their way through things all e time and i really hate them for it! I cant really remember if other korean shows are like this, in e sense everyone just kept crying and crying. It isnt those loud Boo-hoOs, but those silent ones with tearing flowing non-stop. The amount of sorrow that is within ..., that one experiences.
Hmnmm, this show has really rekindles my lovc for korean drama!~ *grins* I have decided to slow down my pace in this show, least i cant remember it in e days to come when i'm done with e show. Though i'm really eager to see how things would turn out, but i guess its worth e wait. But, its a amazing feat considering i managed to finished about 9 episodes in a day. Geez....
As for the music/songs in this show, without a doubt, they're excellent. Keke, guess my ears would suffer from numerous repeats of these tracks in e days to come. Its amazing how e visual effects and the outcome of hearing numerous times can do to a person. One can grow from feeling nothing to them to liking them to a huge extent and having those tracks repeatedly playing in e head! One of e tracks is by chopin. Of course, its e music that Cha Song-Ju played on e piano. Hmmm, i never knew Chopin produced such nice pieces, no wonder Jay Chow has named his latest album after him. Well, i only realised today who 萧邦 was.
Cha Song-ju:
--as a teen: Baek Sung Hyun (Damo/Sweet Bear)--as an adult: Kwon Sang Woo (Delicious Proposal)
Han Jung-suh/Kim Ji-su
--as a teen: Park Shin Hye --as an adult: Choi Ji Woo (Winter Ballad/Beautiful Days)
Han Tae-hwa/Han Chul-su
--as a teen: Lee Wan (Snow White)--as an adult: Shin Hyun Joon (Wedding Dress)
Han Yuri:
--as a teen: Park Ji Mi (Kukhee/Cinderella) --as an adult: Kim Tae Hee
Tae Mira
(Tae-hwa & Yuri's mom, actress): Lee Hui Hyang
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Pinku
Lame. But that's how japanese would pronnounce pink i guess. Not making fun of them, but its pretty funny e way they added some other sounds to produce a nEW word. keke.
The sun still remains hidden away, tucked nicely from us all. Sheesh. When will e sun be back? The cool weather is cool, but guess i still prefer pespirating like a mad cow than this. This coolness is just too cold for comfort. Brother used to say that not being able to see e sun for long, really dampens one's spirits. I wonder if it did, for many people?
Mine wasnt really much affected. Probably cos WY managed to cheer me up a bit. But realising that e rain is going to sustain till Feb gives me e shivers. How can i survive till then?
Stumbled upon e topic of people with e tendency of self torturing. Nuts, i'll say. Its about inflicting pain upon oneself, serious pain, how can one possibly like it? If its about booze, at least one is numb, but cutting oneself? Crazy. But, its a crazy world out there. So, if at least that can release e immerse stress, why not?
Probably when it first started, it really hurts, but soon after, it became a natural response. Just like e way we felt e itch and we start scratching. Its all so automatic that you didnt even realise it. But, e pain one experiences, its really hard to deciper.
Though i felt i said my piece. Somehow, was amazed when E suddenly agreed with my viewpoint. Geez...i instantaneously felt a sense of guilt. I really didnt want her to embark on that path. Though i sounded dead serious and i'm certain of what i said. I felt kinda uncertain too. What if she's right? What if she should really have been much happier e way she is now? The future, is something we're all uncertain of. If she isnt going to be much happier than she is now, i rather she stay put. You're right, he might not be e one, but there's no promises by moving on, you might meet e one. But, staying on, and not being fufilled, that doesnt make much sense too.
Cups and e water they held
are just like e things and life we have
many a time
we chose to focus on e cups
the quality
the color
but what really matters
is e water we'll drink
If e water tastes utterly terrible
who cares about e cup
the quality
the color
they wont change a thing
sadness
memories
it isnt that one has forget
but throughout all this time
one has got so used to all of it
its not that it no longers hurts
its just that one has grown accustomed to it
The sun still remains hidden away, tucked nicely from us all. Sheesh. When will e sun be back? The cool weather is cool, but guess i still prefer pespirating like a mad cow than this. This coolness is just too cold for comfort. Brother used to say that not being able to see e sun for long, really dampens one's spirits. I wonder if it did, for many people?
Mine wasnt really much affected. Probably cos WY managed to cheer me up a bit. But realising that e rain is going to sustain till Feb gives me e shivers. How can i survive till then?
Stumbled upon e topic of people with e tendency of self torturing. Nuts, i'll say. Its about inflicting pain upon oneself, serious pain, how can one possibly like it? If its about booze, at least one is numb, but cutting oneself? Crazy. But, its a crazy world out there. So, if at least that can release e immerse stress, why not?
Probably when it first started, it really hurts, but soon after, it became a natural response. Just like e way we felt e itch and we start scratching. Its all so automatic that you didnt even realise it. But, e pain one experiences, its really hard to deciper.
Though i felt i said my piece. Somehow, was amazed when E suddenly agreed with my viewpoint. Geez...i instantaneously felt a sense of guilt. I really didnt want her to embark on that path. Though i sounded dead serious and i'm certain of what i said. I felt kinda uncertain too. What if she's right? What if she should really have been much happier e way she is now? The future, is something we're all uncertain of. If she isnt going to be much happier than she is now, i rather she stay put. You're right, he might not be e one, but there's no promises by moving on, you might meet e one. But, staying on, and not being fufilled, that doesnt make much sense too.
Cups and e water they held
are just like e things and life we have
many a time
we chose to focus on e cups
the quality
the color
but what really matters
is e water we'll drink
If e water tastes utterly terrible
who cares about e cup
the quality
the color
they wont change a thing
sadness
memories
it isnt that one has forget
but throughout all this time
one has got so used to all of it
its not that it no longers hurts
its just that one has grown accustomed to it
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
It been freaking cold since sunday. Geez..wonder how long would carry on. Can hardly take it.
Caught king kong today. Didnt expect to watch it after all, since its been out for so long. But oh well, i caught it anyway. Geez...i just love e setting so much. Set in 1930s, i think this movie did a really fantastic job cos everything was done so perfectly. Can remember e 1930s now in color.
But still, i'm amazed as to why i got so drowsy that i dozed off during e show. At one point, i was dead for who knows how many donkey mins. But, thinking back, i dont recall how ann was being persuaded to board e ship.
Hmm, time to get more beauty sleep. Was utterly shocked to see my reflection in e train today. Not standing too near e glass, yet, i could clearly see my eyebags from there!!
There we are
on the gravel grey patch
observing the grass green patch
that lies beyond e gravel grey patch
noticing e blurred line that seperates grey from green
realising e brighteness beyond
grey and green
Caught king kong today. Didnt expect to watch it after all, since its been out for so long. But oh well, i caught it anyway. Geez...i just love e setting so much. Set in 1930s, i think this movie did a really fantastic job cos everything was done so perfectly. Can remember e 1930s now in color.
But still, i'm amazed as to why i got so drowsy that i dozed off during e show. At one point, i was dead for who knows how many donkey mins. But, thinking back, i dont recall how ann was being persuaded to board e ship.
Hmm, time to get more beauty sleep. Was utterly shocked to see my reflection in e train today. Not standing too near e glass, yet, i could clearly see my eyebags from there!!
There we are
on the gravel grey patch
observing the grass green patch
that lies beyond e gravel grey patch
noticing e blurred line that seperates grey from green
realising e brighteness beyond
grey and green
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Geez..was pretty pissed by e fact that i had to wait a whole half an hour for them. Real hate it. How can people just make people wait like that without even having e sheer sense of informing. Right then, i thought, if somehow, my handphone battery is going flat on me, i'm going to head right home. No big deal really, at least i would be back home, all nice and cosy. It must be my stomach, i was so hungry...yet i had to wait.
Caught a lame show earlier on. For e first time, though didnt get down to getting some icy cool stuff down my throat, i didnt get really *grumble* *grumble*.
I think i really asked for it. Fancy me not being honest enough. I wanted it, yet i didnt say so. Hmph..now its getting me all uneasy. Darn, what a ass i am. Talked about enjoying my weekend, i guess i just ruined it. Oh great.
I thought of this name Nelen and it was chosen. haha, i thought it sounded real nice.
As i ate e pastries today, i realise this one which had a bombastic name, was actually e same old stuff i had tasted before. So much of e fanciful name, its just e name of a particular location where e pastry was produced. Supposely, its a branded stuff and taste exceptionally delicious. But, to me, it taste as normal as those ones i bought in e local stores. My tongue sure is easy to please.
Saw e pics Zf took from TLA, sure is nostalgistic. It as though auntie has intergrated to be my relative. i was definitely excited when e updates from e time we left till now. Though it was a short 3 weeks, i guess it wouldnt be easy to forget.
Some things, though left unsaid, remains deeply rooted in your mind.
Caught a lame show earlier on. For e first time, though didnt get down to getting some icy cool stuff down my throat, i didnt get really *grumble* *grumble*.
I think i really asked for it. Fancy me not being honest enough. I wanted it, yet i didnt say so. Hmph..now its getting me all uneasy. Darn, what a ass i am. Talked about enjoying my weekend, i guess i just ruined it. Oh great.
I thought of this name Nelen and it was chosen. haha, i thought it sounded real nice.
As i ate e pastries today, i realise this one which had a bombastic name, was actually e same old stuff i had tasted before. So much of e fanciful name, its just e name of a particular location where e pastry was produced. Supposely, its a branded stuff and taste exceptionally delicious. But, to me, it taste as normal as those ones i bought in e local stores. My tongue sure is easy to please.
Saw e pics Zf took from TLA, sure is nostalgistic. It as though auntie has intergrated to be my relative. i was definitely excited when e updates from e time we left till now. Though it was a short 3 weeks, i guess it wouldnt be easy to forget.
Some things, though left unsaid, remains deeply rooted in your mind.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Hesitating? I sure am. When opportunities knocks..i should grasp them fast, yet why is there a stutter? When i was asked what's there to think about, i cant really answer too. But all i know is, its something important, i need more time. But, looking at e way things goes now, its obvious what e answer will be. Thinking is unecessary, it seems.
Had gone into e topic on marriage today and realise some married for e sake of marrying, cos they wanted to settle down and probably they didnt even love their partner much. I'm shocked, amazed, cos i thought these belonged to e olden days. Yet, right infront of me, there is such a typical case. Marriage without love, absurd it seems, but like what von said, due to peer pressure etc, one might just jump straight in. I affirmed i wouldnt, but von thought likewise. But at least, for now, i find it absurd to marry a person you didnt really love. But, for e sake of having a family, some might. Probably, i still believed in too much of the fairy-like world. Hmph..its time i landed back on e harsh reality. All those fairytales, they are nothing much but a fairytale. Probably the thought of ending up alone is too terrible to bear, so most people chose e easy way out. Me?I believe if i promise you what you ought to have, i rather say i dont love you. Just like in a love triangle, i wouldnt even be e connecting block in e first place. Is it fair to say you love that person so, yet cant even provide e most basic stuff in a relationship? Am i being too serious? Probably.
As i stood there before of e traffic light
you came to my mind
as i stood infront of e window display
i thought of you
i'm sitting there
alone
munching away
dazing away
and you came to my mind
a cake blessed with happpiness
yet why do i taste loneliness
i know
i understand
cos happiness merely enshroud me
yet deep inside
loneliness embraces me
agony
tears
they soon became a single entity
it is called loneliness
Was having a slight headache as we're moving stuff earlier on. Soon, e room was emptied. As i re-entered e room once more, e cool breeze welcomed me. Everything felt and smelled so familiar. Strangely, i thought e days when i was in e chiller of e store doing stocking up of e bottled drinks.
Had gone into e topic on marriage today and realise some married for e sake of marrying, cos they wanted to settle down and probably they didnt even love their partner much. I'm shocked, amazed, cos i thought these belonged to e olden days. Yet, right infront of me, there is such a typical case. Marriage without love, absurd it seems, but like what von said, due to peer pressure etc, one might just jump straight in. I affirmed i wouldnt, but von thought likewise. But at least, for now, i find it absurd to marry a person you didnt really love. But, for e sake of having a family, some might. Probably, i still believed in too much of the fairy-like world. Hmph..its time i landed back on e harsh reality. All those fairytales, they are nothing much but a fairytale. Probably the thought of ending up alone is too terrible to bear, so most people chose e easy way out. Me?I believe if i promise you what you ought to have, i rather say i dont love you. Just like in a love triangle, i wouldnt even be e connecting block in e first place. Is it fair to say you love that person so, yet cant even provide e most basic stuff in a relationship? Am i being too serious? Probably.
As i stood there before of e traffic light
you came to my mind
as i stood infront of e window display
i thought of you
i'm sitting there
alone
munching away
dazing away
and you came to my mind
a cake blessed with happpiness
yet why do i taste loneliness
i know
i understand
cos happiness merely enshroud me
yet deep inside
loneliness embraces me
agony
tears
they soon became a single entity
it is called loneliness
Was having a slight headache as we're moving stuff earlier on. Soon, e room was emptied. As i re-entered e room once more, e cool breeze welcomed me. Everything felt and smelled so familiar. Strangely, i thought e days when i was in e chiller of e store doing stocking up of e bottled drinks.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Finally back from my trip..keke. Finally?? Sounded like i cant wait to get back. Not really so....its great to go on trips and forget about stuffs here. Not that here is really terrible that one needs to forget all about it. But, its about recharging.. about totally emptying e thoughts in e mind and refilling everything again. Sounds like defragmenting my brain. haha.. anyway, its great to forget about everything here for a couple of days and having no one bothering you on e phone. Hmm, e thought of going MIA is great. This couple of days, my mind has been thinking of nothing, nothing much, but stuff on e trips itself and probably a couple more. Thinking about what to buy, stressing over e shortage in time for shopping, whether to purchase that or not, piss that i didnt bring my compact flash card.
Goshhh...that's e worst thing that can happen on e trip. Going on a trip and leaving my cf card at home. Left w only a 32mb card and karen's camera, cant do much really. Well well, have to make do with whatever we have and scrimp and save on e shots.
Zy asked how i would evaluate this trip as compared to e previous times i was there. I would say its great, as each time i gathered different experiences and thoughts. Like e first time, it was an time-rushing maddening experience, e second time was a super duper budget sight seeing experience and this time? It was a super time-wasting shopping cum sight-seeing experience.
We basically spent so much time travellling everyday. But somehow, though e amount of time we spent shopping reduced so drastically, e girls sure had lotsa great buys. Geez, its amazing how one can buy so many things within such a short span.
The first day, we had a sumptuous meal of pizzas and cola. Not forgetting e creamy soup.. In an attempt to save money, we decided to purchase e tickets to those rides only at 6pm. With e sky going dark, and us growing tired, we carried on screaming on way through. Okok....i admit, only me and pl were e real scaredy cats here, cos we screamed way loud and pl was blabbering loads of rubbish as we were approaching e peak of e roller coaster ride. I just freaking hate e free fall feeling. To those who kill themselves by jumping off buildings, kudos to you...The good thing about entering e theme park so late is e queues seems to have subside. Yeah, no freaking long queues but freaking cold weather. How can i be wearing a supposely fights-off-all-cold jacket yet still felt so cold?? Silly, but we went on e merry-go-round again. Hmm, not sure about them, but i was up there before. Kekek..like little kids. I thought this and e other spinny ride looks real awesome. So magical, so splendid. I wonder why i didnt snapped any photos then.... ~_~
Oh yah, i went to e casinos too. Hmm, ok...not really what i expected in dramas or movies. But, i'm amazed at how e dealers didnt fall asleep. I meant, they aint talking to anyone, but basically working monotonously in silence. As for e gamblers, ok...those who were gambling there. Kudos to them too. Cos i cant bear e thought of spending e whole day there. Yeah, i dont like to gamble cos i felt that e thought of losing money is too heart-wrenching.
Its pretty silly, keke, thinking back on how i trekked so far and up, only to realise people had taken buses and coaches and seeing e vast land below, stiffing in those fresh air and smiling. But i guess its e process that makes e difference and not e ultimate product.
The second day was spent getting down, some solid shopping and ended with some supper at chinatown. Third day was more travelling. An hour of train, 30mins of ferry, an hour plus of seafood?, an hour of walking around-playing arcade-pop pop-bananas, followed by an hour of train and 30mins of ferry before more shopping and a white christmas shot. Then, its late dinner followed by get ready for calvin's bday suprise. Amazing, we had a blackout before e actual time came. Karen got 5 different slices of cakes and e one i like best was e mashmallow one and e chocolate. Since everyone had their preferences, i'm glad to just munch on e ones i like.
Fouth day, we're off to e famous cave. Wonder why it was dripping wet in cave. Water just drip and drip from e cave celing. At one point, i decided to look right up at where e water droplets. Talking about looking at things from a different perspective, its truly magical as e droplets inched closer and closer, coupled with e close breeze in e air. As we proceed right to e end, e monkeys await. So interesting humanly, yet so amazing agile. They completely caught my attention. Like e mum and kid duo, how can a baby so small like that know how to held on to e underneath of e mama and not fall off? Anyway, i found day 4 real draggy, cos we took awefully long to get back to e city, have lunch and more train rides before finally shopping.That day, they isnt much shopping to talk about as e girls decided on some pedicure pampering sessions. Thought they would put some designs on those nails, but they didnt really. I thought e aim of these whole thing is to get those really nicely-decorated nails at e end. If not, spending all those money on just painting a single hue of color on e nails seems a total waste of money. Dinner was great, sushi buffet. Hee, eat all one can. But its a pity i only had 1 miserable tamago sushi. The day ended with some fireworks and carrot cakes. Too bad there isnt booze to drink.
hmmm, yume has to end, and it did. Back to reality and a monotonous year ahead.
Goshhh...that's e worst thing that can happen on e trip. Going on a trip and leaving my cf card at home. Left w only a 32mb card and karen's camera, cant do much really. Well well, have to make do with whatever we have and scrimp and save on e shots.
Zy asked how i would evaluate this trip as compared to e previous times i was there. I would say its great, as each time i gathered different experiences and thoughts. Like e first time, it was an time-rushing maddening experience, e second time was a super duper budget sight seeing experience and this time? It was a super time-wasting shopping cum sight-seeing experience.
We basically spent so much time travellling everyday. But somehow, though e amount of time we spent shopping reduced so drastically, e girls sure had lotsa great buys. Geez, its amazing how one can buy so many things within such a short span.
The first day, we had a sumptuous meal of pizzas and cola. Not forgetting e creamy soup.. In an attempt to save money, we decided to purchase e tickets to those rides only at 6pm. With e sky going dark, and us growing tired, we carried on screaming on way through. Okok....i admit, only me and pl were e real scaredy cats here, cos we screamed way loud and pl was blabbering loads of rubbish as we were approaching e peak of e roller coaster ride. I just freaking hate e free fall feeling. To those who kill themselves by jumping off buildings, kudos to you...The good thing about entering e theme park so late is e queues seems to have subside. Yeah, no freaking long queues but freaking cold weather. How can i be wearing a supposely fights-off-all-cold jacket yet still felt so cold?? Silly, but we went on e merry-go-round again. Hmm, not sure about them, but i was up there before. Kekek..like little kids. I thought this and e other spinny ride looks real awesome. So magical, so splendid. I wonder why i didnt snapped any photos then.... ~_~
Oh yah, i went to e casinos too. Hmm, ok...not really what i expected in dramas or movies. But, i'm amazed at how e dealers didnt fall asleep. I meant, they aint talking to anyone, but basically working monotonously in silence. As for e gamblers, ok...those who were gambling there. Kudos to them too. Cos i cant bear e thought of spending e whole day there. Yeah, i dont like to gamble cos i felt that e thought of losing money is too heart-wrenching.
Its pretty silly, keke, thinking back on how i trekked so far and up, only to realise people had taken buses and coaches and seeing e vast land below, stiffing in those fresh air and smiling. But i guess its e process that makes e difference and not e ultimate product.
The second day was spent getting down, some solid shopping and ended with some supper at chinatown. Third day was more travelling. An hour of train, 30mins of ferry, an hour plus of seafood?, an hour of walking around-playing arcade-pop pop-bananas, followed by an hour of train and 30mins of ferry before more shopping and a white christmas shot. Then, its late dinner followed by get ready for calvin's bday suprise. Amazing, we had a blackout before e actual time came. Karen got 5 different slices of cakes and e one i like best was e mashmallow one and e chocolate. Since everyone had their preferences, i'm glad to just munch on e ones i like.
Fouth day, we're off to e famous cave. Wonder why it was dripping wet in cave. Water just drip and drip from e cave celing. At one point, i decided to look right up at where e water droplets. Talking about looking at things from a different perspective, its truly magical as e droplets inched closer and closer, coupled with e close breeze in e air. As we proceed right to e end, e monkeys await. So interesting humanly, yet so amazing agile. They completely caught my attention. Like e mum and kid duo, how can a baby so small like that know how to held on to e underneath of e mama and not fall off? Anyway, i found day 4 real draggy, cos we took awefully long to get back to e city, have lunch and more train rides before finally shopping.That day, they isnt much shopping to talk about as e girls decided on some pedicure pampering sessions. Thought they would put some designs on those nails, but they didnt really. I thought e aim of these whole thing is to get those really nicely-decorated nails at e end. If not, spending all those money on just painting a single hue of color on e nails seems a total waste of money. Dinner was great, sushi buffet. Hee, eat all one can. But its a pity i only had 1 miserable tamago sushi. The day ended with some fireworks and carrot cakes. Too bad there isnt booze to drink.
hmmm, yume has to end, and it did. Back to reality and a monotonous year ahead.
