Thursday, January 05, 2006
Hesitating? I sure am. When opportunities knocks..i should grasp them fast, yet why is there a stutter? When i was asked what's there to think about, i cant really answer too. But all i know is, its something important, i need more time. But, looking at e way things goes now, its obvious what e answer will be. Thinking is unecessary, it seems.
Had gone into e topic on marriage today and realise some married for e sake of marrying, cos they wanted to settle down and probably they didnt even love their partner much. I'm shocked, amazed, cos i thought these belonged to e olden days. Yet, right infront of me, there is such a typical case. Marriage without love, absurd it seems, but like what von said, due to peer pressure etc, one might just jump straight in. I affirmed i wouldnt, but von thought likewise. But at least, for now, i find it absurd to marry a person you didnt really love. But, for e sake of having a family, some might. Probably, i still believed in too much of the fairy-like world. Hmph..its time i landed back on e harsh reality. All those fairytales, they are nothing much but a fairytale. Probably the thought of ending up alone is too terrible to bear, so most people chose e easy way out. Me?I believe if i promise you what you ought to have, i rather say i dont love you. Just like in a love triangle, i wouldnt even be e connecting block in e first place. Is it fair to say you love that person so, yet cant even provide e most basic stuff in a relationship? Am i being too serious? Probably.
As i stood there before of e traffic light
you came to my mind
as i stood infront of e window display
i thought of you
i'm sitting there
alone
munching away
dazing away
and you came to my mind
a cake blessed with happpiness
yet why do i taste loneliness
i know
i understand
cos happiness merely enshroud me
yet deep inside
loneliness embraces me
agony
tears
they soon became a single entity
it is called loneliness
Was having a slight headache as we're moving stuff earlier on. Soon, e room was emptied. As i re-entered e room once more, e cool breeze welcomed me. Everything felt and smelled so familiar. Strangely, i thought e days when i was in e chiller of e store doing stocking up of e bottled drinks.
Had gone into e topic on marriage today and realise some married for e sake of marrying, cos they wanted to settle down and probably they didnt even love their partner much. I'm shocked, amazed, cos i thought these belonged to e olden days. Yet, right infront of me, there is such a typical case. Marriage without love, absurd it seems, but like what von said, due to peer pressure etc, one might just jump straight in. I affirmed i wouldnt, but von thought likewise. But at least, for now, i find it absurd to marry a person you didnt really love. But, for e sake of having a family, some might. Probably, i still believed in too much of the fairy-like world. Hmph..its time i landed back on e harsh reality. All those fairytales, they are nothing much but a fairytale. Probably the thought of ending up alone is too terrible to bear, so most people chose e easy way out. Me?I believe if i promise you what you ought to have, i rather say i dont love you. Just like in a love triangle, i wouldnt even be e connecting block in e first place. Is it fair to say you love that person so, yet cant even provide e most basic stuff in a relationship? Am i being too serious? Probably.
As i stood there before of e traffic light
you came to my mind
as i stood infront of e window display
i thought of you
i'm sitting there
alone
munching away
dazing away
and you came to my mind
a cake blessed with happpiness
yet why do i taste loneliness
i know
i understand
cos happiness merely enshroud me
yet deep inside
loneliness embraces me
agony
tears
they soon became a single entity
it is called loneliness
Was having a slight headache as we're moving stuff earlier on. Soon, e room was emptied. As i re-entered e room once more, e cool breeze welcomed me. Everything felt and smelled so familiar. Strangely, i thought e days when i was in e chiller of e store doing stocking up of e bottled drinks.
# posted by momaurskox : 11:05 PM
