I wanna have an alice too!!~

真命天女 is such a nice show. Sure am glad i decided to watch it after all. But stories like those revolving around xiao-nuo and liang zhi-hao will remain a fairytale and reality is reality after all. How many of us will actually be xiao-nuo and not lei-lei? Like 已开灌, i dont believe in long lasting love.

Had a nice chat with yoyo today. Though was gossiping about von, but i felt that i'm getting to know yoyo better in a way. It seems bad to be gossiping, but its great to know that someone else share the same view as you.

If you cant shower that amount of love and care
why bother making all those promises in the first place
if you cant be there for that person
why bother getting close in the first place
it would be better off having a pear

To read the e novel or watch e show now? Arrrggghh....if only i can have both e fish and e bear paw!! *grins*

But first, let me listen to 龚诗嘉.... just one more time!

As i'm listening...i might as well blabber more. I think i'm becoming a bookworm!!Yelps!!~ Even mum noticed i'm engrossing myself in lots of books. But, hmm, cant help it. Sometimes, when nice stuff comes along, you just cant resist e temptation. I'm even contemplating if i ought to bring one of them along for next week's trip! Hahaha...what a nerd i am!!!!! lalalalala!!!!~

I wanna know..... have you ever seen the rain...?

Once, i read this...
someone said to e other
wishing god will banish e other from heaven
and lock e other in hell for good
so e other will stay out of someone's sight
but will e other manage to stay out of someone's heart?

Do you miss me the way i missed you?

Hmmm, brainwashing is e worst process anyone has to withstand. Oh good lord, when would you remove me from e clutches of it? Geez.... complaining and more complaining, if one constantly complains to you, would you be able to stand it? No, I'll say, yet i did e same too. But still, i really cant stand Von's mouth. All those negative stuff. What's that about him being so great, putting with others' nonsense. Its more like people putting up with his buckets of shit. If being negative wasnt enough, he has to seriously exaggerate it. Sometimes, i wonder if everyone is really that bad. Not that i'm doubting you but, how can that be possible, old geezer. Seriously, i detest people who say something, yet dont practise it. If you cant achieve that, dont bother saying in e first place. At least that wouldnt make you look so bad. In short, i dont feel i have any respect for such a person. Tell me, what do you gain from making people look so bad? People, sometimes i dont understand a wink sense of what they're thinking. DO you mean to say you get a kick out of saying badly of people around you? Isnt it great that my ordeal has come to an end till next year?! I'm glad, definitely very glad.

Stumbled upon a few books that seems to look real good but not yummy though! Done with chapter 1 of White Rage. Hmm, time for some serious additive reading sessions once again. Hopefully I would be able to full utilised those hours onboard the bus for some kick ass plot.

Full Metal Alchemist!!! That's my latest anime craze. Its totally rocksSSS!!! Yeah, i just hope i would be able to finish e anime. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!~ Yup, and hopefully the ending will be real spectacular. No lame ones please!!!~ Mustang sure resembles someone. Why of course, our dear Konad(Ko-na-do) from Kyou Kara Maou. Though Konad isnt seems that shrewd though.

Finally, met up with one last member of my much anticipated year-end trip today! Sounds kinda strange, fancy going with people you met for less than 5 times. Hmm, if that's e case, going with people you hardly hang out with is fine too? Jus like raccoon messaged me, stating that she wished to embark on a trip and asked those who are keen to reply. Hmm, sounds like mass sms everyone and then go with anyone who's keen.

The past weekend has been pretty well-spent, considering that i managed to strike off a couple of things off my list of things to do. Firstly, i managed to finish Frankenstein Book 2. When did i exactly managed to finish it, i have no idea, but i do know i did it at an expense of risking some precious minutes of sleep. Sleep is important, but when you have more nonsensical tasks on hand, all seems worthwhile! *Grins*

Not much advancement in book 2, but i guess randell six is gone, while good old arnie, that smart lad is still pretty much alive and healthy. Dont you just love darlings like Arnie? Behaving as if he was totally in his own world, yet able to provide that few words of advice or comfort in e right moments.

Saturday ended in some tough board and card games. Tough because they are tons of things to remember and i always end up forgetting e same few things. Somehow, e devil in me remain unleashed that day and i was pretty at ease throughout e two games. While Bin and WP bickered with each other constantly, eva and i just sat there. That's e difference in mentality i guess. Whether it directly relates to our views in lives, i shant comment on that. But, to us, its nothing more than a game, so we didnt really care if somehow somewhere, someone didnt follow e rules exactly. Because we may be taken advantage of in e process, but what matters is, everyone had a great time.

On sunday, i managed to get my xmas present together and started e wrapping session. The end product? I pretty much like it, in fact, i find it damn nice, though someone commented today that it looks real ugly. Geez...and e worst part was e person obviously didnt realised that present was mine and just blabbered e whole thing out, without any sheer sense of holding back. Despite that, i heard others commented about it being artistic.keke. I guess e joy putting some effort in some self decorated card or present is that at e end of e day, e receiver is delighted at what he/she gets. Not forgetting that somehow, you get praised for e stuff you've done,of course. Its important, cos like an artist, its like people appreciates your style and work.

I also managed to develop e photos for e major events in my 2005. As i was re-arranging my photos, both 2004 and 2005, memories just came flooding back. Bitter, happy, sweet etc etc just came flooding back. I realised how much solemn i have become this year. Though times where i grin and showed my rows of teeth did occur too, i was pretty much off to e other side half e time.

*shrugs* The year is coming to an end soon. In fact, it would seems even shorter since on e trip, one dont really have time to sit down and ponder about things. Isnt that great?

and then i saw your face..
in a crowded place
and then i know i'll never be with you..
lalala~

I was reminded over what glad said over lunch that day. About people kept asking her about the price of her food everday. Hmm, i'll get real ..... too if people kept asking me. Sometimes, i do ask people about e price of certain stuff too. But at times, i guess we dont really have to that particular about it, do we? Like going to a nice cafe to waste e afternoon away or at some eatery for some delicious bites. If we had to be that concern over the cost of all those stuff, it really kills e mood. Imagine being so tired from all e walking and this eatery appeared infront of us. Everyone just wanted to plop down and have a rest. Yet, you rumble on about reasons to move on, cos it might burn a hole. Geez...

I saw this lady in a dark outfit and skirt, with nice long flowing hair. Yes, if Von were to see it, this lady will bound to get a high score. No doubt, i'll give her a nice fat score too. But, something isnt really right, e way she was walking infront of me. Just doesnt seems right. Walking for some time, i finally conclude my thoughts. Her butt is strangely protruded so far out that it looks kinda strange. Imagine a goose, and its neck symbolise her upper body while its body up to its tail symbolises her butt. Exaggerating, but her posture just seems so way out. Pity, its as good as those people who look totally awesome from e back and e moment they turn around, you wished they didnt.

Been half bored to death today and its really great that i had a good laugh at e end of e day. Happened to bump into PL as i was leaving, and we left together in e end. She wanted to add some weight to her present and ideas like stones and sand etc came up, but she find them too dirty. Then, i thought of using coins of e smallest denominations. Imagine e person opening up e present and finding hundreds of those coins in there. He would most probably scream at her when he finds out who she is. Some lame idea i have, but it would be real hilarious to watch that person's expression, especially if its jj. *grins*

Weekends is coming again! *thrilled*

Ok, i admit i was being kinda biased by saying that Jay's latest album isnt really as great as e previous ones. Sometimes, i guess i just need someone to alighten me, to point out certain things to me, before i actually come to notice it. Yes, thanks to shit and someone whom i cant remember your name for pointing it out to me.

Yeah, i sat down, and started listening to his songs again. Hmm, indeed, it aint that bad. But like what they say, e style is pretty much e same, except that e lyrics are different. But, i find both slow and fast tracks equally nice.

Hmm, meeting up with them again after so long is kinda strange. Its like total strangers. I really havent nothing much to say to them. Probably i'm just my usual self again. Being so aloof to people i'm aint familiar with.

Yup, we're playing mahjong. Something i really like, but i didnt really enjoyed it that day. Probably cos it involved e money factor and e rest seems so damn experts in them. To me, i guess i'll enjoyed it more as a game than something that was involved with money. Boy was i glad to be able to scramble off to e couch when i had e chance to. Later on, we begun some serious munching though i sworn earlier on that i didnt want any of e chips. Jenga, or what ever you called it. Its a funny game and i like it. *Wide Grins*

Wonder if rain told anything to others who were present today besides me. Probably yes and no. Probably cos i bothered to probe further or somehow e topic was right and things flow. The thought of being able to know about what's happening to e people around you is great. But it isnt when realising you cant really remembered exactly what is said to you. Just like Von claiming that he did told me yet i said he didnt. But as far as i can remembered, he did say, but not to e exact crucial parts, so its as good as not saying. Cos i wouldnt be able to realise how important it was.

Today was Von's birthday and wasnt expecting him to show up, thus i ended things off with a well-wishing. Of cos, he unexpectedly showed up. Everyone was equally amazed upon realising today was his big day. Yet me, despite knowing about it, didnt mentioned a word to them. Considering how Von initiated some sort of celebration for me, i felt kinda bad at not doing anything besides a good will wishing.

Gladie would be gone soon , hmmm, in a matter of 10 odd days. Looks like i'll miss some fun. I wonder how would e next person that comes in be like?

Listening to Sun Yan Zi - Yan Lei Cheng Shi

I'm crumbling...
Drats...

Today is a friday night yet i'm real glad to be home for once. It just seems a real long week for me, and i'm drained, really drained. With the computer not being itself, and e main one spoiled and brother away for 2 weeks, i'm left with practically nothing. Totally helpless. But, a good thing is that i realise it isnt really that bad an idea to come home and not switching on e computer.

Schin said she cant imagine someone coming straight home and the first thing is, to switch on e television. Hmm, that sure sounds familiar. *grins*

But, boy am i glad that e main computer is back with us. Though its not in full force yet, but hey, at least i can be sitting here comfortably typing away.

SL lamented about me not being direct enough with names i mentioned here. However, i felt its to protect their identities to a certain extent. Just like i didnt really like e thought of placing either friend's or my photos here.

Its a really great night on wed. Drunk on that one bottle of booze and just enjoying each other's company. Feeling so free and free of all restrictions. Being able to just say anything and everything. If only i can behave e same way with everyone. Being able to speak my mind with anyone. Wouldnt that be great?

Was off to a pretty nice place today. Though today was e second time i stepped my foot into this vast piece of land, yet e experiences were kinda different. The sky was as gloomy as before and had a runny nose like mine. Okie, i wasnt really suffering from flu, but i had its symptoms, does that count? Anyway, I'm glad to be spared from those smells that were found inside e building. They were made up of a mixture of raisins and grass for hamster bedding. Sounds strange but that's how it seems like to me. At one moment, i thought of raisins and e next, i thought of my hamster in its smelly little home.

Anyway, e day ended short and e rest was a time to laze around and take things at a slower pace. We could have acted likewise, but its friday, you see.

First, let me proceed to provide a definition of a word i have being thinking about as i hurried home.
-humongous-
As usual, i wondered about its existence and here's what i found from e internet.
Huge, enormous.
This American word has established itself so well in the language that William Safire reported a couple of years ago it had been put into the mouth of Thomas Jefferson in a television programme. If so, that was a sad anachronism, since humongous first darted on to the linguistic stage only about 1968, apparently as a bit of college slang, but hit the big time almost immediately and has been with us ever since. That’s despite grumpy comments like those of William Hartston in the British newspaper The Independent, who said it was “surely one of the ugliest words ever to slither its way into our dictionaries” and “a silly and affected synonym for huge or enormous”, adding that “it serves no purpose not covered by those words and is thus redundant”.
Steady on, old chap! It’s surely in the same class as skittishly humorous words like ginormous (which arose in World War Two military slang) and the set of words for large amounts based on creative augmentations of million, such as zillion, bazillion, gazillion, and squillion. Our word was probably based on an amalgam of huge and monstrous, influenced by the stress pattern of stupendous or tremendous.

Having explained myself, so i saw these humongous fishes. Sounds silly, but i actually unconsciously stated that one of e huge one looks like a dog. Geez...how lame can i get at times? A fish that looks like a dog? But, really, i did thought that way, somehow. lalalala~

Glad that i took some videos of them. Videos that nearly killed my talkie, cos it nearly went out of space. Was just so close. Phew.

I guess everyday is full of different experiences. Though things gets really dirty at times, like having oneself covered with dust. The thoughts that comes along with it is funny. Like that day at e shipyard, i thought of a scene in Terminator 3, probably when he was at a building that house the planes. In addition, it seems like i'm involved in a kungfu flick when e dust just all ouses up when air is blown near our feet.

Time for my favourite doze of serials on e televison. i luvvvvvv friday!!!!~

I know i said i didnt want to get Book 2 till Book 3 is out next year. But, hmm, i got it anyway. Have been visiting the online library catalogue these days to check e movements of it. Geez...that's e first time in my life i'm so spontaneous in keep track of books in the library.

This season is really an awesome season. There's just so many nice movies thats upcoming, one would be spoil for choice. Hmph, and i cant catch all of them, cos that would burn a real big hole in my pocket. Sheesh.

Nervy. Nervy.Nervy.

Darn, how can i stop myself from being so nervy.

Hmm, its about 2 more weeks to e deadline. Yup, to getting that christmas present and placing it at e tree. This is e first time i'm celebrating Christmas with a tree and i'm loving it. Not that its a huge magnificient one, but nevertheless, seeing it lighting up and filled with tons of goodies, it really brightens up my spirits. The funny thing is that we're supposed to secretly plant stuff at e tree. No idea how it all begun, but someone started a lame idea and everyone follow suit. Its fun to secretly place something there, and when it finally aroused everyone's attention. You'll join in and act all so delighted and amazed as to who's e one who placed it there. The worst thing is having to deny that you're e one who place it there.

Yeah! Yippee....3 more weeks to christmas.!!

Geez...now then i know that Dean Koontz's Frankenstein actually comes in a set of 3 books and the last one isnt due to be released till summer 2006. Looks like i dont have to be that eager to pick up book 2, cos there isnt gonna be book 3 waiting for me even if i'm done with e second one.

Was pretty much entertained by e magic tricks performed by Calvin. Seems pretty lame, but i guess i was slow, as it took me quite some time to realise what's going on. Karen was laughing at how silly his tricks were. But at one point in time, when i realise he was going to do some kind of tricks ith e coin, i thought he would probably place e coin on his hand, flick it in e air and somehow it would vanish. But of cos he didnt, but its somewhat similiar. Placing a coin in e hands, rubbing and more rubbing, then, opening his hands slowly, and it vanish too. To the back of his hands it went.The other one was the magic floating finger and e coin in e glass.

Pl mentioned that it seems real lonesome to be out walking on a cold night。The chilling wind battering against e face and the rain plattered on e umbrella. I felt e same too. Probably, she was beside me then, so it didnt seems that bad. The thought of knowing you aint alone. This feeling was e same as seeing all the christmas decorations sprinkling up. Christmas is such a great season, 一个充满幸福的季节，但我却一点也不觉得幸福。Was it because you aint there?

Sometimes, i cant helped but believe that e world is really that small. In e end, i still end up meeting you. Raine was suggesting meeting you, but i decline. Who would have expected we still bump into each other somehow. If fate wants us to meet, i guess we will somehow, somewhere.