Tuesday, January 02, 2007
I guess i mentioned ages ago in an entry about lizards with plastic doll- like eyes found on teddy bears. You know, those kinda eyes that's protruded in a semi-circle fashion with a movable black circular piece in it that acts like the black of the eye? I saw it again today, on a lizard thats prob 30cm slightly diagonally infront of me, thinking that i didnt spot it. lol
So the week passed in a breeze, with nothing much accomplished and left pretty lifeless(cos no life...ZZZzzz). Even my last day of 2006 was kicked off at 730am and me heading for second home. Spent a solid 12 hrs there i guess. However, my mood was strangely good, probably e anticipation of heading somewhere. But, was kinda disappointed along e way on e arrangements made.
Frankly, was kinda disappointed at times. Sometimes i'm being to feel like friends are merely a companion for you when you're bored or just a pastime tool. They didnt even care if you want to watch e movie or not, all they care is they dont want to squeeze in the crowd. So, they caught e movie they had wanted to see, contented and decided to move on. Luckily i was dead beat by then and was hoping on heading home instead. Otherwise, i would have felt unimaginable injustice inflicted on me. Though i still felt so right now, except that the rage was minimal, cos i still felt so blessed to be home and being able to relax. Was telling crap buddy its ok to spend it at home cos countdown dont really hold much significance to me. Oh ya, i was in kl last 2 year catching those fireworks and admist those massive celebrations, but so?
Then, there was saturday. Wg and sw was off playing tennis. I'm supposed to join but second home came first. To cut de whole thing short, plans were that i'm to meet them in e afternoon and even rushed only to receive words that they're bushed and felt like going home. Geezz...i'm fine, but cant you mention it earlier? Felt helpless but what can i say? I dont like forcing a knife down e throat to get things going e way i like it, if i aint gonna get it, i rather let it go.
Night was fun but strange though. Hanging out with a bunch of people whom dont seems close to each other at all. I'm fine since i just joined in but them, it appears at least 3-4 have been hanging out together pretty frequent these days yet they seemed pretty speechless over the dining table. Conversations were over funny happenings etc and those heart to heart talks seems to be missing. I dont meant for those deep down talks, but it sounded like those stuffs you'll speak to hi-bye friends. Its been soo long since i last saw iris and this is e first time i saw her so quiet. So..even the loudest and the noisest of the lot can be toned down when faced with people they hardly know well.
Finally been to e much anticipipated and talked about Dragonfly. The deco was awesome but its a pity we're at the back of the stage. Cant really see much let alone fully immerse in e sensation. Visual sensation is a must too. Its a pity that i had to left early to finish e work for second home.
Was i being too serious? I just felt that there's more to being just friends. Its not purely about companionship but i guess as we enter e next phase of our life where we're no doubt binded by different responsibilites that we somehow decided to be less attentive about e people around us. Most of us speak for e sake of speaking and cant really remember the conversation we had with others. Its like a disease that's manifesting in many of us. Many a time, i found myself spending a day with people and realising at e end i'm still pretty clueless about their recent happenings. Either i've asked them about it, but remember the generalised version of it, or i only absorbed 40% of it? Cos when i spoke to another about it and when further questions were hurled at me, i'm left speechless. Scenario 2 would be me saying" i thought i told you e other time?" . Hmmm, i guess i should really make an effort to improve on this.
Sigh...cant find my much anticipated player but spotted scandisk C250 . It seems quite a nifty cheap player. Kinda like it too but online reviews were thumbs down down down for it. So, i'm comtemplating whether to go for it or not.
Oh ya, spotted e news on e bus just now and e fireworks around e world is awesome. The ones i can remember is the one at UK's big ben and e other at 101 tower. Hmm , ignorant me, is that in taiwan? Geezz...imagine all that fireworks spilling from that giagantic circle and that landscraper. What a sight. I missed e one at hometown though. Wonder if it was just as spectacular. Yea, as though i'm an alien from another dimension. I was really lost touch with e world last night and i dont even remembered when i dozed off while the world was in celebrations!! lol
I've revived Desperate housewife after so long and here's one quote from there,
" Each new day brings along a new set of lies. The worst are the ones we tell ourselves before we sleep. We whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy or that's he's happy, that we can change, or that he will change his mind. We persuade ourselves that we can live with the sins or that we can live without him. Yes, each night before we fall asleep, we lie to ourselves, the desperate desperate hope that come morning, they will all be true. "
BTW...i was looking at J's blog and i spotted J changing to using e same song as me too.!!! 梁静茹 - 暖暖 ....lol
卫兰 Never Let You Go
So the week passed in a breeze, with nothing much accomplished and left pretty lifeless(cos no life...ZZZzzz). Even my last day of 2006 was kicked off at 730am and me heading for second home. Spent a solid 12 hrs there i guess. However, my mood was strangely good, probably e anticipation of heading somewhere. But, was kinda disappointed along e way on e arrangements made.
Frankly, was kinda disappointed at times. Sometimes i'm being to feel like friends are merely a companion for you when you're bored or just a pastime tool. They didnt even care if you want to watch e movie or not, all they care is they dont want to squeeze in the crowd. So, they caught e movie they had wanted to see, contented and decided to move on. Luckily i was dead beat by then and was hoping on heading home instead. Otherwise, i would have felt unimaginable injustice inflicted on me. Though i still felt so right now, except that the rage was minimal, cos i still felt so blessed to be home and being able to relax. Was telling crap buddy its ok to spend it at home cos countdown dont really hold much significance to me. Oh ya, i was in kl last 2 year catching those fireworks and admist those massive celebrations, but so?
Then, there was saturday. Wg and sw was off playing tennis. I'm supposed to join but second home came first. To cut de whole thing short, plans were that i'm to meet them in e afternoon and even rushed only to receive words that they're bushed and felt like going home. Geezz...i'm fine, but cant you mention it earlier? Felt helpless but what can i say? I dont like forcing a knife down e throat to get things going e way i like it, if i aint gonna get it, i rather let it go.
Night was fun but strange though. Hanging out with a bunch of people whom dont seems close to each other at all. I'm fine since i just joined in but them, it appears at least 3-4 have been hanging out together pretty frequent these days yet they seemed pretty speechless over the dining table. Conversations were over funny happenings etc and those heart to heart talks seems to be missing. I dont meant for those deep down talks, but it sounded like those stuffs you'll speak to hi-bye friends. Its been soo long since i last saw iris and this is e first time i saw her so quiet. So..even the loudest and the noisest of the lot can be toned down when faced with people they hardly know well.
Finally been to e much anticipipated and talked about Dragonfly. The deco was awesome but its a pity we're at the back of the stage. Cant really see much let alone fully immerse in e sensation. Visual sensation is a must too. Its a pity that i had to left early to finish e work for second home.
Was i being too serious? I just felt that there's more to being just friends. Its not purely about companionship but i guess as we enter e next phase of our life where we're no doubt binded by different responsibilites that we somehow decided to be less attentive about e people around us. Most of us speak for e sake of speaking and cant really remember the conversation we had with others. Its like a disease that's manifesting in many of us. Many a time, i found myself spending a day with people and realising at e end i'm still pretty clueless about their recent happenings. Either i've asked them about it, but remember the generalised version of it, or i only absorbed 40% of it? Cos when i spoke to another about it and when further questions were hurled at me, i'm left speechless. Scenario 2 would be me saying" i thought i told you e other time?" . Hmmm, i guess i should really make an effort to improve on this.
Sigh...cant find my much anticipated player but spotted scandisk C250 . It seems quite a nifty cheap player. Kinda like it too but online reviews were thumbs down down down for it. So, i'm comtemplating whether to go for it or not.
Oh ya, spotted e news on e bus just now and e fireworks around e world is awesome. The ones i can remember is the one at UK's big ben and e other at 101 tower. Hmm , ignorant me, is that in taiwan? Geezz...imagine all that fireworks spilling from that giagantic circle and that landscraper. What a sight. I missed e one at hometown though. Wonder if it was just as spectacular. Yea, as though i'm an alien from another dimension. I was really lost touch with e world last night and i dont even remembered when i dozed off while the world was in celebrations!! lol
I've revived Desperate housewife after so long and here's one quote from there,
" Each new day brings along a new set of lies. The worst are the ones we tell ourselves before we sleep. We whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy or that's he's happy, that we can change, or that he will change his mind. We persuade ourselves that we can live with the sins or that we can live without him. Yes, each night before we fall asleep, we lie to ourselves, the desperate desperate hope that come morning, they will all be true. "
BTW...i was looking at J's blog and i spotted J changing to using e same song as me too.!!! 梁静茹 - 暖暖 ....lol
卫兰 Never Let You Go
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