I wanna have an alice too!!~

Probably its emptiness, that filled a huge part of me, that i want to just go out there, get all of it in me, lose myself in the darkness. Clavion, is like a passerby, whom probably took e same bus as me everyday, one whom i might have noticed once in a while, but never really registered in my mind, nor would i really be bothered to just go up to him one day and asked how his day has been. Probably, if i had bothered to take that step, he wouldnt have left. I cant believed how i have treated some people so lightly.

But, not everyone has e courage to embark on that path. Definitely not a scaredy cat. That cat would at most kept thinking of it, but no actions are carried out. Mel said that one would be handcuffed. Does it matter?? One is gone, no matter what you do, is furtile. So, why am i here doing all this? Does it make any difference? Probably by tomorrow, i'm up and away, ready for my next adventure, laughing and giggling away. Forgetting all about today.

When nothing seems to hurt anymore
is e time that i'm immune to it
it wasnt that it doesnt hurt anymore
its just that i said it doesnt hurt
its not that it really doesnt hurt
its just that e hurt is somewhere
somewhere deep inside e heart
when will e heart stop to hurt
why would i know

my only shelter is myself
e thin crust i form
e only place i can hide

Red doesnt meant fury
Yellow doesnt meant happy
and white definitely doesnt meant pureness
what really matters
is how one define it in their mind

If time can fade memories
then why does it still seems like yesterday
If things can be forgotten that easily
then why does it still remain